my beloved life
Thursday, November 17, 2005
haha, really sorry for keeping u guys waiting for so long so the next post... guess i needed a rest after a long, gruelling exam period...
So, finally exams is OVER!! im suppose to feel happy and free and all, but i don't know why, i just don't feel it... happy? no i don't feel exceptionally happy.. free? ok i have abit more freedom now, but i still don't feel the freedom that i had expected.. i wonder why is that so.. in fact, today is just one week after exams, and i am already feeling dead bored of life, like there is no meaning in it.. hanging out with friends everyday, even though i really enjoy them, somehow had lost its spark(maybe coz went out too many times!!!)...
i am starting to get drawn into christianity... can't imagine that it is gonna happen.. heck! i was the kid that is so loyal in Buddhist and attending classes, jumping grades as i was too good for preliminary teaching and understanding of Buddhism.. nowadays however, i have somehow lost faith in it.. i didn't know when did this happen, or how does this happen.. i am starting to listen to preachings and prayers of chirstians, that i have totally forgotten how to pray in Buddhism... even when i sleep nowadays, ill pray to God in the christian way.. but does that make me a christian?.. is it that clear cut in life?.. can anyone give me any valuable pointers?
ok, enough of me for now... now we switch our attention to the oh-so-glamorous-and-famous Tennis Masters Cup!!.. it is such a dissapointment!! no safin, hewitt at first.. then roddick.. now nadal and agassi is out too!! what more fun do they have now in putting lousy players like Mariano Puerta and Fernando Gonzalez who don't even have much chances of beating Gaston Gaudio and Nikolay Davydenko, let alone Roger Federer?... it has become such a bore that it has lost its power.. i don't even turn on the tv to watch those matches now!!... i thought this year would be THE year, since all the really good players have qualified, but this... UGHH!!
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