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Saturday, January 28, 2006
Chinese New Year!!.. haha, the only thing i suppose is nice during this period of time are the ang paus' we are gonna receive.. I guess as people grow older, we tend to lose that feeling of anxiousness in anticipation of Chinese New Year.. those were the days where I used to help my family HAPPILY decorate the house, make sure everything is in place.. Now, i juz cant get myself to do all those anymore.. I juz feel that Chinese New Year or not, we still have to get through life, problems will still come whether u want it or not, coz its not like the time will stop for that period of 15 days and allow us to celebrate with no worries at all.. i know this is a very sad and pathetic way of thinking about Chinese New Year, and i know that ME being a Chinese should be happy and joyous of this festival.. Yet, i cant help myself but think otherwise.. No matter how hard i try, i never can think anything positive, choosing to look to the worst.. Its not like I have done nothing and fret about this, help books and internet articles have all been read and searched, yet i could not find a solution.. the bible helped abit, but it still did not change the fact that im an extreme pessimist!!
Anyway, cut the sad part out, lets juz leave it at that.. lets talk about Australian Open!.. My oh My! surprises after another came for us viewers to savour.. the second week of tennis was just as exciting as the first week, if not more.. Hingis losing wasn't a great thing, but at least she lost to a great player in Clijsters, and she did not lose without fighting.. Too bad for Clijsters that she had to withdraw her semi final's match against Mauresmo because she fell and hurt her ankle.. wat a waste and a sad end to her Australian Open charge.. On the womens' doubles!!.. believe it or not.. we have an
Asian Grand Slam winner!.. The Chinese ladies struck gold against the more fancied opponent, Lisa Raymond and Stousier.. my question is, when is Malaysia gonna have a winner in a Grand Slam.. In fact, i should be saying this, When is Malaysia gonna have a Grand Slam
participant.. honestly i am utterly disgraced by Malaysia's inability to produce capable tennis players in the international stage!.. Come On Malaysia!!
On the men's draw, Baghdatis continues his quest of being the unseeded player to win the Australian Open!.. he is truly amazing.. he took out 3 highly seeded players(Roddick seeded 3rd, Ljubicic seeded 7th and Nalbandian seeded 5th).. if he could go one better and beat Federer, i have nothing to say but salute him.. every round everyone brushed him aside as an easy opponent, yet he was able to kick their ass to bits!.. questions though has been raised as does he possess the knowledge to beat Federer? this is because he play based on the heart and the enormous support from the crowd, however his game lacks variety.. we will see.. the Men's Finals is on Sunday on Channel 82, people, stop watching Chinese New Year programmes and watch the Australian Open final!! For more info on the progress of Australian Open please visit
www.australianopen.com!! Happy watching everyone and hope YOUR Chinese New Year is fun fun fun!..
12:40 AM
Monday, January 23, 2006
As I did a US Open coverage, i think its only fair that I give the Australian Open its fair share of blog coverage.. unlike the US Open where i suspected that the US purposely made the draw in order to put at least a player from US into the US Open final, i think the Australian Tennis Assosiation did not have a strategy or a plot at all to put an Australian into the Australian Open final!.. why? Becoz by the third round, there are no Australian's left in the men's singles!! Yes, u heard it, NO AUSTRALIAN PLAYERS IN THE FOURTH ROUND!! how can this happen!?.. Hewitt, a finalist in this event a year ago, is out in the first week already?.. and some unknown player whom i didn't even know he was Australian called Peter Luczak(sounds very Slovakian!) only managed to the fourth round.. haha, maybe they were thinking of playing fairly, What The Hell man!?.. You should have taken a hint from the US and plan your draw in such a way that an Australian is at least guaranteed in the semis.. gues the Aussies aint that smart after all?.. hahaha.. i shall not comment any further, since im in an Australian university.. dun wana get kicked out of it haha..
On the women's side.. the russians are dominating, with a potential all Russian final on the cards.. however, the most important and by far has garned the most attention is the steady progress of Swiss Goddess(according to ah pok!), Martina Hingis!.. she is freaking good man!.. she breezed past everyone so far in straight sets to reach the fourth round to meet the final remaining player from Australia, Samantha Stosur.. judging from her display for the past week, she has really picked up the pace!.. Ok, so she did not meet any strong opponents so far.. Ok, she have not met any seeded player.. still, she totally kicked the ass of everyone coming her way.. the incredible dominance of the Swisses, Roger Federer and Martina Hingis is definitely on!!
P/s: Oh My God! for the third time ah pok, when are we gonna play our OBD Tennis Masters Cup final!?.. the rate we are going, it will never come man!
2:07 AM
Sunday, January 15, 2006
hmm.. very unusual for me to post twice in two consecutive days, but i had to do something, so here i am.. well, as the tone said, im having one of those the-world-is-against-me and the-world-dislikes-me kind of days, not because anything bad happening, its because NOTHING happened today!.. get me, NOTHING!.. well, some of you might say 'hey, its good that nothing happens, at least you get peace' or 'hey, nothing happened is better than something bad happened you know'.. i agree with both of them, but i still feel moody.. maybe im being an idiot thinking that im not worthy of any good things to happen, but i just cant help it..
Well, there was suppose to be tennis today, all geared up, ready to go for a nice round of tennis with Darren.. but fate has a cruel way of dealing with things, just when it was about time, it
RAINED! and no Darren, im not here to blame you k, it was not your fault at all that we were unable to play, it is just my frustration that fate has to take away the one thing that I was looking forward to today.. so I end up staying at home, failing to play tennis and go to 1u with my family, facing this stupid laptop and on9, while hammering the buttons on the remote control, hoping for some nice TV programmes to come up.. but NO!.. no tennis, no football, not even a nice Music Video to watch! all there was is golf, australian football(which i think its the dumbest sport i have ever seen!) and some boring Italian football where i have not even heard of the teams playing.. then i thought 'Hey, maybe the three movie channels have something to offer for me!'.. so off i went to check the channel guide.. and it failed me!.. there was nothing.. NOTHING for me!..
As im typing this now, emotions are still unstable.. i cant even get myself to sleep for Christ sake!.. somehow, i have lost taste in everything that once meant so much to me.. Foosball, Pool, Ping Pong, even football has lost its place.. Going back to a month ago, when i face this situation, or such moody days, I can just drive all the way to SS15 to play a few rounds of foosball or pool, somehow they helped me get through the day.. or going back to even further, a year ago, I would go to the public field to have a kickabout with other nice strangers.. all this has somehow unable to lit the flame in me anymore.. Ping Pong, ah, those days in the past year, spent so much time analyzing, even got myself to buy a nice(and expensive!) bat..
The only thing that seems to interest me now is tennis.. however, it may soon be gone too, for I will lose my tennis friend in exactly 35 days due to the fact that he is leaving to Perth.. I cant say i don't feel anything, he has been such a great pal, and been such a great tennis partner, that i cant say im not gonna miss him when he has left(not in a gay manner!)..
So what else can i do!?.. What else is able to lit my burning flame again? i don't know..
7:38 PM
Oh.. my dear!.. it was fate that brought us together, it was fate that made me find you.. in the mist of so many choices(not much actually), i chose you, making you that special to me..
You were there for me during MUFY games, helping me get second place..
You were also there for me during the MAPCU tournament, where i also got my second silver medal playing for Sunway..
You were also there when I took a step to get coaching.. and all those memorable moments,
You were always there for me when i needed you the most.. i so love
You! my Little Red Reebok Tennis Shoe!!
Haha, i had to make this story, because my dear Little Red Reebok Tennis Shoe had just broken! :'(... i was so sad when i found out about it.. haihz, it served me so well, and the colour was so nice! but its fate i guess, that its time is up, that i have to let it go.. Why is life so cruel!? that i will be parted from my dear forever?..
Ok, enough of the whinings.. :P.. so, since its now broken, i have to get a new pair of tennis shoes.. Off i went to Mid Valley yesterday, went to Studio R(the place where i got a 50% discount for my last pair of tennis shoes).. looking and searching for a great deal on tennis shoes.. Adidas, Nike, Reebok, Dunlop(!?).. then i realise.. my god!! tennis shoes are all Nett Price! no discount!.. this makes the tennis shoe expensive, coz i only paid RM100 for my last pair of tennis shoes.. and now!! all the shoes are RM200 and above.. i cant get myself to pay that much for a pair of tennis shoe, so i had to forgo that idea..
Fast forward to today, went to Times Square in search of my tennis shoes.. so many sports shops man!.. sale all over!.. i was already reeling in anticipation for a steal.. how wrong i was!.. even with the sale, the price was still sky high, which made me realise that a steal of the former cannot be found anymore, so i settled to find a pair of tennis shoes in the range of RM200s.. and i found this 1 shop, quite quiet, but the range of tennis shoes was interesting, not to mention they all fit to my price range after discount.. the downside?.. it is Nike, which the coach say was comfortable, but
NOT LONG LASTING AT ALL! after much thought was given, i decided to get my first pair of Nike shoes(im not joking, i have never owned any Nike shoes!).. it is white in colour with blue soles and a big tick in blue on each side of the shoe... quite interesting(not as nice as the Little Red Reebok Tennis Shoe, but ah well..).. cost me a whooping RM197!.. it better last, or im gonna go CRAZY!!
12:38 AM
Sunday, January 08, 2006
have u ppl out there ever heard of this song called "My Grown Up Christmas List" by Kelly Clarkson(im a huge fan of her by the way :p)?.. it is suppose to be a christmas song, but she sang not for her, its for everyone out there, needing a lift of spirit from somewhere.. if u havent somehow heard of it, plz download the song.. after that, listen to the lyrics.. it goes like this..
Do you remember me
I sat upon your knee
I wrote to you
With childhood fantasies
Well, I'm all grown up now
And still need help somehow
I'm not a child
But my heart still can dream
So here's my lifelong wish
My grown up christmas list
Not for myself
But for a world in need
Chorus
No more lives torn apart
That wars would never start
And time would heal all hearts
And everyone would have a friend
And right would always win
And love would never end
This is my grown up christmas list
As children we believed
The grandest sight to see
Was something lovely
Wrapped beneath our tree
Well heaven only knows
That packages and bows
Can never heal
A hurting human soul
Chorus
No more lives torn apart
That wars would never start
And time would heal all hearts
And everyone would have a friend
And right would always win
And love would never end
This is my grown up christmas list
What is this illusion called, the innocence of youth
Maybe only in our blind belief, can we ever find the truth
Chorus
No more lives torn apart
That wars would never start
And time would heal all hearts
And everyone would have a friend
And right would always win
And love would never end, oh
This is my grown up christmas list
This is my only type of wish
This is my grown up christmas list
I find this song so appropriate to the world out there.. lets talk about the chorus line by line..
No more lives torn apart- with natural and man-made disasters tearing human's heart apart, it is only appropriate that we include this in our wish list so that natural and man-made disasters wont come and take away precious lives!
That wars would never start- there may not be physical war going about these days, but the war that im referring here is the battle for money, greed, status!.. some of the business men AND women will use whatever it takes at all cost to satisfy their wants, even if it means that they would have to sacrifice others in order to do so!.. which is why this has to be our wish to stop this from happening!..
And time will heal all hearts- this is my request to everyone!.. no matter how difficult life feels right now, always remember, that time will heal everthin!.. doesn't matter whether its a bad break-up or gettin fired from a job.. juz remember.. TIME WILL HEAL ALL HEARTS!!
And everyone would have a friend- this has got to be my ultimate wish in my christmas wish list!.. a great friend that will stand by your side all through good times and bad times is very hard to find(not to say i don't have k!).. therefore, i try to be as good a friend as possible to everyone, coz i want to make sure as many people as possible have a friend that will stick by them through good times and not-so-good times..
And right will always win- of coz! i wish that the right will
ALWAYS win!.. it is important as the right will lead us to the right path, while the wrong, will of coz lead us to the wrong path which will spell disaster!
And love would never end- love.. it must not end!:p.. haha, i mean, the love im talkin about is not only the romance love, but also different kinds of love.. lovin ur parents, lovin ur siblings, lovin ur friends, all this must never end!!
Ok, this post is a little weird.. so ill talk about something not so weird.. tennis! haha, well, Martina Hingis aint that bad after all!.. saw her play that day, serving was a little poor, but her shots are still as sharp as ever!.. and her movement is great!.. she may have lost in the semis, but im sure she can go far in the Australian Open that is coming up!
P/s: for the second consecutive post, im writin to ah pok.. When are we gonna have our OBD Tennis Masters Cup final man!?.. *
still waiting*
7:37 PM
Monday, January 02, 2006
This particular post is not from me, but from another friend of mine who has stopped blogging.. but this post here is really meaningful, and can be linked to what im feeling right now, therefore i would want people to read it.. Hence, i shall repost this in my blog for everyone to see.. here goes..
Have you ever missed someone and felt terrible because you think that he/she doesn't miss you? Missing someone is a terrible but at the same time, sweet feeling. You will be sitting around wondering if you meant anything to him/her. Thinking if he/she ever cares about you. Rushing to the phone once it rings hoping that it's him/her. Sitting in front of the television but thinking of him/her missing the final episode of your favourite show. Laying on your bed, thinking of the last time you went out together. Thinking of how nice it will be to sit under the stars, talking about everything, your dreams, plans, future. Logging on to the internet hoping to see him/her online. When you realise that he/she isn't online, you will start worrying if he/she is okay. Missing someone is a way of growing up i guess. It exposes you to loneliness. It teaches you how to cope with being lonely and let's you know that there is actually a feeling known as emptiness. Sometimes it feels good to miss someone. You know that you really care and u indulge in the feeling of loving/caring for him/her. But missing someone and not knowing if he/she is feeling the same is terrible. You feel as if you are being left alone. So if you miss someone, tell him/her and let them know. At the same time, ask if they miss you too. Don't let the feeling of missing someone become jealousy or paranoid. If you are the one being missed and you know it, let the other party know. If you miss him/her too, tell them.Don't let them wait. God blessed...=)Well, on the lighter note.. the tennis season is starting!! WOHOO!! finally!!.. there are many things to look forward to in this 2006 tennis season, among them :
1. Will Federer sweep all four Grand Slams this time and top the ATP rankings again?
2. Can Martina Hingis survive in today's women tour with the likes of the Williams, Davenport and a whole lot more?
3. Will Nalbandian kick Federer's ass AGAIN? (certainly looking forward to it!)
4. Will Croatia win the Davis Cup again? (shouldn't happen, but they are capable of a few surprises :P)
5. Will
ANYONE other than Federer top the ATP rankings this season?
On a more personal news on tennis, my dear tennis friend, Pok Xian, will be leaving to Perth(most probably) in February, thus ending a three year battle(:P) with him in tennis.. man, im gonna miss playing with you man!.. i shall describe abit of the history of our tennis battle..
It all started on a hot day sometime in December 2002.. my first step towards the now famous tar court.. mind you, this is not a tennis court in TAR college, but real TAR like those on the road.. imagine playing tennis on it!.. so my training began, 3 times a week, 2 hours every session from 10am till 12pm(crazy huh!?).. in just a short period of 3 months, the coach thinks that im all ready to play with ah pok, who at that time has played for far longer than i could remember..
and of coz, that was the start of my total domination over ah pok in tennis! for the whole of 2003, i totally dominated!.. as ah pok said, i was the fastest learner he has every seen in tennis.. friends from our form 3 class will remember this, as i always boast in front of them that i had won ah pok in tennis.. in fact, it was so frequent till it got bored among our friends :p... haha, they actually said to ah pok: 'hey pok, when are you gonna win him man?'.. CLASSIC!.. of coz, towards the end of the year, he started winning abit, haha, guess what?.. he started winning when it was the US open season!.. that time, his idol was roddick, and thus he manage to learn the Roddick serve and used it on me!! though he could not generate that much of Aces, but his serve was scary, until i had to stand far FAR away from the court in order to be able to take his serve.. that was basically 2003, the record was probably around 20 wins for me and less than 5 wins for ah pok..
i shall not go into 2004, as it wasn't any different from 2003, i was still dominating ah pok, maybe a little less dominating as i was concentrating in my SPM(cough!!).. except for the fact that we actually played tennis DURING SPM season instead of studying with the excuse to release stress.. Hey, at least it worked, we did quite ok in our SPM!..
HAHA, i think this will be the favourite part of Pok Xian!.. 2005! this has to be ah pok's year!.. for the first time, he actually took a 3-0 lead in head-to-head record against me in the beginning of the year, and he was actually the more dominating one among both of us that year.. as it was the college year, we did not actually play as much as we wanted.. this is also the year where we actually took the effort to hire a coach to coach us.. and ah pok fully utilise it as he is getting better and better!!.. for me, i actually think that i have deproved after takin up coaching, wonder why, haihz.. but even though i did not actually dominate this year, this is by far my best year to me, as i won 2 silver medals for tennis!.. one is for the MUFY Games, the other one was for the MAPCU(Malaysia Association of Private Colleges and Universities) tennis tournament representing Sunway University College.. haha, first two medals, so it was not that bad a year right?.. don't give up ah pok! you can go to Perth and whoop their asses there and win a medal back!..
that's the history of this two excellent individuals.. two more individuals in the name of Adam and Dom are starting to enter the league and challenge both of us.. however, i doubt that they can beat us anytime soon.. anyway, feel free to call us to play doubles with u guys whenever you are ready! HAHAHAHA!!
P/s: Btw ah pok, when are we gonna have our OBD Tennis Masters Cup Final man?.. Im all ready to kick ur ass and settle our 2005 score!
7:52 PM
