my beloved life
Sunday, January 15, 2006
hmm.. very unusual for me to post twice in two consecutive days, but i had to do something, so here i am.. well, as the tone said, im having one of those the-world-is-against-me and the-world-dislikes-me kind of days, not because anything bad happening, its because NOTHING happened today!.. get me, NOTHING!.. well, some of you might say 'hey, its good that nothing happens, at least you get peace' or 'hey, nothing happened is better than something bad happened you know'.. i agree with both of them, but i still feel moody.. maybe im being an idiot thinking that im not worthy of any good things to happen, but i just cant help it..
Well, there was suppose to be tennis today, all geared up, ready to go for a nice round of tennis with Darren.. but fate has a cruel way of dealing with things, just when it was about time, it
RAINED! and no Darren, im not here to blame you k, it was not your fault at all that we were unable to play, it is just my frustration that fate has to take away the one thing that I was looking forward to today.. so I end up staying at home, failing to play tennis and go to 1u with my family, facing this stupid laptop and on9, while hammering the buttons on the remote control, hoping for some nice TV programmes to come up.. but NO!.. no tennis, no football, not even a nice Music Video to watch! all there was is golf, australian football(which i think its the dumbest sport i have ever seen!) and some boring Italian football where i have not even heard of the teams playing.. then i thought 'Hey, maybe the three movie channels have something to offer for me!'.. so off i went to check the channel guide.. and it failed me!.. there was nothing.. NOTHING for me!..
As im typing this now, emotions are still unstable.. i cant even get myself to sleep for Christ sake!.. somehow, i have lost taste in everything that once meant so much to me.. Foosball, Pool, Ping Pong, even football has lost its place.. Going back to a month ago, when i face this situation, or such moody days, I can just drive all the way to SS15 to play a few rounds of foosball or pool, somehow they helped me get through the day.. or going back to even further, a year ago, I would go to the public field to have a kickabout with other nice strangers.. all this has somehow unable to lit the flame in me anymore.. Ping Pong, ah, those days in the past year, spent so much time analyzing, even got myself to buy a nice(and expensive!) bat..
The only thing that seems to interest me now is tennis.. however, it may soon be gone too, for I will lose my tennis friend in exactly 35 days due to the fact that he is leaving to Perth.. I cant say i don't feel anything, he has been such a great pal, and been such a great tennis partner, that i cant say im not gonna miss him when he has left(not in a gay manner!)..
So what else can i do!?.. What else is able to lit my burning flame again? i don't know..
7:38 PM
