my beloved life
Friday, March 17, 2006
Yes, as the title goes, Im gonna talk about
MY bad influences on my friends.. This is quite a serious issue for me.. I was gonna like write my good influences on my friends first before the bad ones, then i thought for a very long time before concluding that I
have not influenced my friends in a good way in any manner!! Sad but true..
Lets not talk about the past first.. Just last Tuesday, even though my class actually starts at 4pm, For the kick of it, I came at 8.30am! Well, I was really REALLY planning to spend my time finding journals and doing some work in the library.. Obviously, i DIDN'T! played ping pong with Darren from 9.30am onwards.. as we play and play, then we realise that Darren had lecture at 11am.. but he proceeded to skipping it! Later, Aaron came too.. God knows why all of a sudden I had a strong urge to go Asia!!.. Even though they both were very reluctant to go, i practically FORCED, yes u heard it.. FORCED them to go!.. When we went there, Aaron told us that he had to go back to Uni for his management group activity.. I don't know why I started telling him to skip it for somemore time in Asia!! And so he ended up skipping the activity!.. When Im thinking and typing now, words cannot describe how guilty I am for influencing them this way! Its like Im playing with their minds and all!!.. What have become of me!? I cant control my urge?? I've become such a DEVIL!?
Not only that issue actually.. Past history has also revealed that I
AM a bad influence.. Example, getting Bryan to be addicted to Foosball.. Before he actually knew me, he was this fella who was hardworking and also in the library studying.. After knowing me, gone were the days where he was very diligent and hardworking, it was replaced by a guy who hangs out in the foosball table so often that his studies suffered.. YES! it was me who influenced him to do so!.. ME!..
Of coz, there are a lot more cases of such that supports the fact that I am a bad influence to my friends.. Maybe I should stay away from them, so that they will not be influenced by me.. Maybe if Im not hanging out with them often, then their studies will improve.. Maybe, I should just disappear from them, so that they will live a better life..
(Confused and blur in the mind right now on this!)..
12:35 AM
