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my beloved life
Wednesday, April 02, 2008
Hey, I dont even know if ANYONE ever comes back to this blog again, since the last post was months ago. Don't know why, suddenly tonight felt like posting, so here goes.
Back to uni we all are, everything is back to normal, back to Malaysia, back to enduring the blistering heat or rainy walk to and from Uni to car park, back to the broken english and fake accents of Malaysian lecturers, and most importantly, back to the same clique of friends. Eveything should be back to normal, right? Somehow I dont feel like it. Somehow I feel so lost, like Im in another foreign land, and have to fit in again. Somehow I dont have the same feeling about Malaysia Uni life like the last time. Somehow, I feel like I dont know most of the people already, as oppose to somehow knowing alot of people last time. One look at MUSA now, and 90% of the people are those that I dont know of. Somehow, the campus does not give the nice, homely feeling like the Sunway campus, it feels too alien. Not helped by all the stupid ridiculous architecture designs that not even Ah Pok will ever do it. Somehow, all the somehows, makes me wonder, IS everything back to normal?
As most of you already know, I am officially G.R.O.U.N.D.E.D., which means no more late nights and wanderings in Asia and KL, no more hanging out with friends other than in Uni. Nowadays, friends have to come over to my house to hang out, how sad. They have done it so many times, that somehow I feel vey pai seh to ask them over again. Its like they have to travel just to hang out with me, which I dont feel nice. Maybe I should not call them over so often, they should just go out elsewhere to hang out without me. Why should I be so selfish to ask them to come over to my place when they could go elsewhere with more entertainment than my house, which, ooppss!, have no other games other than Monopoly, which everyone is growing tired of already. I cannot be so self-centred, selfish. So yea, I guess thats it for this.
Anyway, I came across this quote, which is, I feel, very meaningful, and has decided to extend it and scribble something of my own.
LETTING GO
It hurts my heart, to watch it slip away, It hurts my soul, to let it go, But i know, that its the best decision, the best plan. For I am no longer able to endure, the feeling of hopefulness, and the immediate hopelessness, the utmost uncertain feelings. Regrets, sorrows may fill my heart, to watch it slip away, Regrets, sorrows will fill my heart, for it will be too hurtful to bear, Regrets, sorrows shall fill my heart, for lettng it go. But i know, that this is the best decision, the very best yet, To let the chance go by, To let the chance fall in a better place, better hands, Maybe in this life, or the one after, that I'll have the chance again.
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