my beloved life
Thursday, October 16, 2008
this is my day no. 7, in uni studying, day no. 4 of me sitting in front of computer studying. People ask how do i study in front of a computer? simple, dont open anything else, except your notes! voila!haha, pretty simple isn't it. Besides, studying in front of computer seems to be easier than anywhere else.
So, if anyone noticed, i have several nick msg that I put beside my msn name, all starting with 'loneliness'. Well, i'm trying to write quotes using 1 word, for the whole week. kind of like an inspiration came to me to write i suppose. maybe reflecting how Im feeling, maybe not. Im not sure and I guess no one will.
Anyway, life is never perfect. Yesterday in cell, we talked about protecting your heart by setting boundaries, but how do we REALLY protect our hearts from pain, suffering, disappointment. How do we REALLY protect our heart from people that sticks a knife right through it, over and over and over again. How do we REALLY protect our hearts, when people crush them, we let time heal it, only to see it get crushed again, and again, and again.. Im tired, Im fading, Im slipping away from everything. Im giving up, Im falling, Im disappearing.
Sometimes, life is so suffocating, you want to retreat to your own shell. But when you start to move back, you hit a brick wall that is so tall you will never be able to climb past it. Sometimes, life is so helpless, you want to curl up in a ball, on your bed, for hours without doing anything, but no, thorns start to grow from your bed, making it uncomfortable even to do that. You are sandwiched between a decision to move back or move out. But both will end up in the same result, just different times. In that, a question for everyone, how do we REALLY protect our heart?
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