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Tuesday, November 20, 2012

Oh wow, time really has passed. The last post was what, January 2011? Now it's November 2012 and almost heading into 2013 already!! Time really flies!

The last time I blogged, I talked about having 3 of my seniors leaving, now I am a Senior already!! Ok, putting it into that perspective really makes me feel old =.=

Anyway, fast forward some 22 months, 2 of the seniors actually came back to EY to work! But the first things they have mentioned to me is how I have changed since they left. According to them, I have become way more serious, less cheerful and alot more stressful looking than when they left. Somehow I think they are actually right, I had a rough 2011 and in 2012 things have not changed a whole lot. Even I have to admit I have fallen short of everyone's expectation of how I should be performing as a Senior. Maybe I really don't have what it takes to make the next step. I was excellent, beyond-expectation performer as a staff, but the step up to a Senior has so far proven to be too high a barrier for me to climb. When I was a staff, I was practically sprinting and jumping through all the walls, but now as a Senior, I feel like I'm struggling to hang on to the wall and not slide back down.

What really has changed? Myself? The job? Will I ever get back the feeling of jumping through walls again or forever be stuck at trying to hang on for dear life? Only time will tell... Let's see when will the next post be, another 22 months perhaps?

I'm so in trouble.....

3:04 AM