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2011-01-08T04:57:00.003+10:00

As mich says, it is quite funny how everyone still checks in from time to time. Ok, so the last post was quite emo, unfortunately, im gonna start off 2011 with an emo post as well.

Well, just heard the news that 3 of my seniors are going to be leaving next month. 1 of them is someone I really really look up to. Ever since she was my mentor during my internship, she has been a guiding star for me, being there to give me advice and shielding me from troubles and problems at work, while also giving me a pick me up if im slacking at work. I've never told her this, but deep down I really look up to her alot and sort of depend on her (maybe overly dependent) to guide me through my career. So obviously, getting the news that she is leaving is both a shock as I didnt expect it, and a really sad news. She has family reasons for leaving, being a new mom and taking over family business, but deep down I still dread the day I don't get to see her at work, seeing the 3 of them talking and laughing really loudly at work (not that its a bad thing!), going over to de-stress and going for lunch with them. I don't really know how to describe the feeling, heartache yet knowing that its the right thing for her to do? All I can do now, is just savour the times when they are still around, and wish them all the best in everything they do.

Ok, Im getting emo again, before I dwell on this at my sleep, just want to wish everyone, Happy New Year!!

2010-11-12T00:12:00.002+10:00

Oh, blog, how long has it been. No one is here anymore. 11/11 today.. Haha I remember a friend of mine during high school who loves the number 11. Everyday (even night she says) at 11:11, she will make a wish. I wonder where she is now.. Thinking back at that brought back memories of the past, nostalgic and emo feelings comes lingering around me. Maybe it's because I had a really bad day at work, coupled by an empty house, creates a rather sad sight.

Only now, I realise how isolated I have become. How isolated I have chose to make myself. To put the real me into a case and hide it all from the world and put a happy face up front, is really tiring. Just awhile ago, everyone was talking about meeting up with this person from high school, that person from high school. And I realise, I had pushed all my friends from high school away, til I have none left. Well, of course, there is dom, pok and adam. But ya, you get what I mean. Jonathan, Joan, Ying Roe, Peng Tat, Jun Mun, Chin Ming... the list goes on. Where are they now? I don't know. What are they doing now? I dont know? Everything seems to end with "I dont know." nowadays.

Maybe its really just the bad day at work that caused me to be a little upset tonight. Maybe its just an accumulation of feelings that I have been going through lately. Or maybe it is just an accumulation of everything this year. The problem is, hiding myself away, means I have no one to turn to when there is a desperate need to cry out to. I admit, I am an emotional person. But who can I be emotional to? No one, but myself.. Guess that's just how its going to be now.

Story of my life so far!!

2010-04-18T05:17:00.002+10:00

Hi! ok, so I didnt post in March. Clearly the person who spot checks, DIDNT spot check last month coz there were no reminder, plus she closed the blog to INVITED READERS only *sienz*. Anyway, A quick rundown on what has happened over the past month or so.

Life at work has been great. Although it is peak season now, where everyone goes back at ungodly hours (ie. 10pm/ 11pm/ 12am) in order to fulfill the filing deadline, I feel like Ive grown in the past month or so, more rapidly than usual. In terms of technical capabilities (clearly, anything is rapid progression when your technical competencies start from 0 =.=), as well as in maturity. Being a new staff and being thrown in the thick of everything, I have to learn and pick up points really quickly. Its not fun at times, when your senior expects much from you and your struggling to deliver, but I think overall I did pretty alright so far (I hope!!)

During this period, I also went for my first stand up comedian show. Ive always been watching stand up comedies on youtube. Unfortunately, some of the jokes will only be understood and laughed at by the locals, so sometimes when I watch, I really dont get why it was so funny. Plus, I dont know many stand up comedians in Malaysia, so I actually was looking forward to this when Pok suggested it. Of course, typical of us, we went to PJLA at 8pm to get a ticket for the show at 8.30pm. I thought, thats it la, there is no way we can make it in time la for this. Mana tau, when I went to the booth, the lady told me, there are still tickets. But when we went in before the show starts, the show was actually fullhouse. This only means one thing. Everyone bought the ticket between 8 - 8.30pm!! typical Malaysians really. Anyway, the show was by Harith Iskandar (honestly I only knew he was Harith something, never actually knew what was his name). Another Malaysian comedian opened the night for him, by the name of Kuan Jen Han. I have to admit, this chinese dude was really good! his jokes about us Malaysians wanting to taste something that a friend said was bad to confirm that it really tastes bad was really funny! His joke about spot checking woman to make sure they wore panties was really good too haha.

He was that good, that I think he overshadowed Harith Iskandar a little (agreed by Pok).

On another note, tennis has been great, I don't think Im progessing as much as this since, well, since I start playing actually! I don't know if its because now the lessons are paid by me and hence, that I tend to be very serious during training. Anyhow, its a good thing anyway so Im not complaining. Played with one of his students the other day. I have to admit I was really afraid to play with him, especially when he hits really well when he was in training and Pok and I was watching. Honeslty, I thought the coach was joking when he said he wants us to have a match, until he was like "just come and play la seriously", that I was like thinking 'Oh shit, he is actually serious about this. Have to admit, It feels really different playing in a match, as it felt like forever since I actually played a proper match. Lucky I manage to beat him (barely), due to good fortune and lucky shots haha!

Just came back from PC fair. Honestly, this PC fair thingy is getting WAY TOO FLOODED with laptops. Honestly, at least the last time around I see some booths selling desktops. This time around, I only noticed ONE!! that's pathetic. Of course, when Pok and I saw that a new quad core computer only costs RM1799, we almost tripped over in disbelief! less than RM2000 for Quad Core, wtf...!! What a difference 4 months make. When I bought my laptop, everyone was using Core 2 Duo. Now, even at RM2000 you can get a laptop with i3 Intel Processor. Oh well, as I said, we can never keep up with the pace of technology and its price. Actually today's mission was mainly to look for my sis's laptop. Since she got 12As in SPM (godlike!!), my dad promised her a laptop. And I think even before she went, she already made her choice to buy Macbook Pro. SO, I actually think it was quite a redundant trip for her, since the info they gave are already from the web. Oh well, at least I think it was good she went to a PC fair to witness the crowd. In the end, the person who bought the most things is.. guess who!! Me lo! Was looking for hard disk, and was my only target during PC fair. Initially, I thought of just getting the 2.5" hard disk, since they are easy to carry around. 500GB for RM275 is quite ok. But thanks to Pok, he suggested the 1TB for RM329, since it was double the space for RM50 more. The only thing that is holding me back was that this 1TB hard disk was a 3.5" hard disk that requires a seperate power source. In the end, I bought the 1TB for the amount of space, and again, convinced by Pok that I dont need to carry them around anyway since if I want to carry around I have the 250GB hard disk to carry, where as I can just put this 3.5" hard disk at home.

So, that pretty much sums up my life so far since the last update. Another 2 more weeks, and the filing deadline would be over. Things to look forward to:

1. Series (been really far behind, I want to catch up Heroes, considering how much I actually knew about Heroes before I stopped; I want to catch up on Smallville too, since Season 9 started off really well, but I have unfortunately not been downloading it)

2. Universal Studios (Singapore here I come after peak!!)

3. PJ Laugh Fest (everyone who actually reads my blog ought to go for this! really looking forward to this!!)

That's all for now, have a great week ahead!

2010-02-25T03:17:00.003+10:00

Ok, Ive taken time off tonight, to blog here. An unknown lady just past me a small booklet, with the so called 'wise thoughts'. Well, not being rude to the lady, i took the booklet and just put in my bag without reading it much. But as the night (or morning if you want to call it) goes on silent mode, I took it out and read, thinking it's one of those crap that says 'you must be hardworking' 'you can only be rich through hardwork' that sort of thing. But, it is not, ok, it is kind of. But one phrase got me thinking, and got me reflecting on what I have gone through in my 23 years of life.

The greatest success in life is to have the courage to stand up again after a failure

Sounds simple? Yes it does. Sounds like you have heard it many times? Maybe. Sounds like something you have done in life? Im not sure. In my short 23 years of life, I have been through alot, and i do mean alot. Many failures really have come by. In fact, I don't remember having a single year without a major failure in the past 23 years of my life. Moral failures, academic failures, judgment failures.. I really have had it all, maybe more than all of you. I have lied, cheated, stolen, gambled until I had to borrow money, shouted at parents, caused irreversible problems for others... Yes, it sounds like a confession, and it is a confession. You name it, I have done it, almost all of them. And so, failure is really not something foreign to me. I have gained and lost my fair share of friends, I have gained and lost my fair share from the judgments that I make in life, the decisions that I can tell you, til today still haunts me when I go to bed every night.

I'll let you guys know a secret straight out from my personal journal, during the time when I was gambling my life away, the sleepless nights that I go through, is something that reminds me of what I did everyday. The endless nights of wondering, what is going to happen to me tomorrow? what am I going to do? how much do I owe? how am I going to repay back everything? Why do I make such judgments that at the time, I felt it was ok, but as I think back, was so stupid and foolish? why do I have to destroy the good things, the friendships, the good times in front of me for something so fictional and unattainable? A failure, yes, a major failure. One I had to live with, and the pain and scar will probably live with me forever. And believe me when I say, I still somedays wake up thinking I was still there, in that situation, living a minute at a time, not knowing if the next day could be it for me.

Thankfully, thankfully, I have crawled out of that hole. Yes, the pain and scar lives with me forever, but they become my battle scars, they become something that reminds me, never to go back there again, never to feel that way again, they remind me how to control myself, they remind me that every decision and judgment I make, will have an impact, sooner or later in life, they remind me to take responsibility for the judgments I make.

And so, Have I faced failures in life? Yes I did. Major, impactful ones! Have I had the courage to stand up? although not 100%, but at least I am standing up with crutches. Hopefully one day, I can stand up firm, and start walking the path I was meant for, living the life, free from the all the pain!!

Random update!

2010-01-31T16:35:00.011+10:00

Haha, i have to admit, knowing that someone is actually doing 'spot checks' on my blog (U know who u are!) makes me feel like I should at least update more often than last year. Again, because I dont want to disappoint anyone (is there anyone??), I shall not make any promises on the frequency of updates.

Anyway, today, being 31 Jan, marks the first month of work. I have to admit, it feels different now than when I worked there as an intern the last time around. For one, the people are not so fun anymore. Last time, we had a group of 6 of us, and we were very vibrant and noisy throughout! even had time to plan events and trips (the event happened, the trip unfortunately didn't). The whole office was so lively where everyone will talk with everyone. Fast forward 3 years, the place is quite different now. Most of the people that were vibrant had either left, or became more serious as they become seniors now. The new recruits are not as fun as when we around as well. Fortunately, my colleague in front of me is quite friendly also, so we talk time and again. It also helps that she is from Monash, studying Accounting and Management as well!! So we always talk about the lecturers and what not haha! anyway, back to the office, so yea, the office now is quite quiet. HOWEVER, with the addition of me, Im on a mission, to make the office a more fun place!! And, I have seen difference in the office now, everyone is talking to each other now, and the boss doesn't mind us being a little noisy (the colleagues always gather at my place to chill haha!). So, mission is on the right track!!

Anyway, there is also another significance of 31 Jan. This is also the day that my dad officially retires from work. The day I joined, my dad started his job in this company, now that I have gotten my first pay cheque, he officially retires. He said he planned all this out, but I think its actually just a major coincidence la!

Anyway, diverting from my personal life, let's talk about the latest hype in town, the Apple Ipad. For those of you who don't know what it is yet, let me show you.

It is actually a laptop. the difference? It's fully touchscreen! This is the latest invention that Apple has came up with, after the overwhelming success story of Iphone. This Ipad allows you to surf, type and view documents as well as the media players.

Ill take a break from typing and let you see some screen shots of Ipad.

Actually, one can safely say that this is an extended version of Iphone, except with more laptop function and no mobile services. This thing is apparently quite light, so people who need to travel will find this handy. However, there are several flaws for this product.

1. Hand/ finger prints. This is a well known problem for Apple products, but of course you can put screen protectors and skins to protect it, but it makes the Ipad bulky.

2. The typing part. For Iphone, it is small, so typing/ tapping the keys is not an issue. For a laptop style, you have to tap the keys like a keyboard, EXCEPT, you cant adjust the screen upwards!! So you probably have to type while looking at the screen from the top, which is kinda weird if you ask me. BUT, ill give it the benefit of the doubt that it may be easy to use in practical (All these problems are hypothetical anyway since no one has seen the product)

3. I question its durability. For Iphone, its not so easy to slip off ur hand, as it fits into your palms. But this Ipad looks kinda slippery to me, so I wonder if it can withstand minimal vibration and fall. Remains to be seen.

Anyway, I am not selling this product k! simply just stating my views.

So, moving back to my life. CNY is coming soon, this is the first year that Ill celebrate CNY while having a job! and being a new recruit, there is a terrible truth. NO LEAVE ALLOWED DURING FIRST THREE MONTHS OF PROBATION!! exact words that. Which means Im not allowed to take extra leave, and only stuck to holiday til tuesday! arggh!!

Anyway, til next time (Duno when!). Til then, everyone stay healthy and get rich faster!! Happy Chinese New Year!!

2009 in a nutshell.

2009-12-14T00:42:00.003+10:00

how long has this been? july til december, about 5 months?? haha, i have effectively driven away any remaining readers that I have here. Oh well, it shall be my own private space here if thats the case..

Anyway, the year 2009 is closing, while 2010 will soon arrive. I have to say, 2009 was quite different from other years. For one, it was the first time I go to Uni without the usual gang, as they have all graduated. It was really awkward knowing that there is hardly anyone that I can call up go have lunch, to go yum cha, or to go Karaoke.. haha, it was good times those eh? MUSA was really different as usually, I can just walk in and see a familiar face. This year, although I made some friends, the feeling was really different. You guys have no idea how many times I walk from class to MUSA to library and home and still see no one I know!

With that being said, I have to also say 2009 is one of the better years that I had in recent years. Results for both semester was really great. I don't have high expectation for it, I will be just happy to pass all my subjects, so the HD and Ds do come as a surprise to me! This is also the first time since first year that I didn't fail any subject in a semester. Thank God for that! I don't think I could take another semester with a fail! Honestly, the moment I saw that I didn't get any N during the 1st sem, I was so happy I literally jumped in my room! haha..

Fast forward to December. Results time! I was quite scared actually, because when I did Financial Issues paper, I couldn't balance one of the questions, then the theory I pretty much bombed it, answered only 2 confidently right, 2 partially sure and 2 not sure out of 9 questions! That's 6/9, not very good ratio that! Plus, Theory was quite scary as the answers can vary based on a single word, and there were so many varying answers for each questions from everyone that no one really knows the right answer. So yea, you get the picture on how uncertain things were. Furthermore, its the last semester which means any PROBLEMS, especially for management paper, means staying back for one more sem or one more year even!

Knowing this, I resorted to play as hard as I can, for as long as I could before the results day, as I know the potentially bad news will be coming! Finally, on the results day, for the first time, I actually dared to open the results page in a Cyber Cafe (which tells you how often I go there these days!). Scroll down..... did I see an N.... wait thats a P.... what about the next one..... haha, you get the picture! In the end, it was all good!

So, as a reward for finally GRADUATING, my dad agreed to get a laptop for me (actually it was kinda like understood, not formally agree, graduate=laptop, no graduate=no laptop). And, the timing couldn't be better, with PC fair coming in that very same week!

So we went to PC Fair to scout for laptop. Actually, it didn't need much scouting, every single booth sells laptops!! seriously, laptops dominated like 80-90% of the place! From netbook to normal laptops to gaming laptops, from Acer to Dell to Toshiba, anything that you can think of, it was there! My dad was looking at the Sony Vaio X, and boy was it thin. It was so thin I was worried that I will snap it in half if I press the keys too hard! and it was really expensive, RM5299, forget it man!! In the end, I bought an Asus laptop recommended by Darren, and am using it right now as I type! This UL series is really something. Extremely long battery life, thin, light, reasonable graphic card, plus it really does not heat up even when playing games! Really worthy buy.

Anyway, as the year comes to an end, I wish everyone (who actually still comes back here!) a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year!

Harry Potter

2009-07-15T21:24:00.003+10:00

hello! wow blogging often again, let's hope it doesn't end here haha! coming to an end of my short Singapore trip, mainly a business trip but of course some shopping along the way, its SINGAPORE SALE, of course must capitalise on it right?? Everywhere its 30% storewide, up to 70%, Buy 1 Free 1.... you guys get the drift la!

Anyway, somehow, I am very excited for the release of Harry Potter tomorrow! Maybe coz the show is finally gonna have an adult edge into it, and the development of the characters are going to come full circle! Plus, Emma Watson is like what, 18 now?? She's gonna be hot I hope! haha.. and the whole Cho and Harry thing should be laid to rest already, it was stupid to begin with actually haha! Yes yes, as you can see, Im psyched up for it!

Short post this, gotta go take my dinner already. BTW, Ice Age 3 is not as funny as the first two! tata~

2009-07-11T01:59:00.003+10:00

Hi, IM BACK!! ok, I actually haven't been anywhere this holiday, except Redang, which sucks really coz I was looking forward to having a road trip somewhere but somehow the plans just haven't really been working out, oh well..

Anyway, i left you guys on a cliffhanger last time around. Yes, my accident. It might have been long time ago, but it is actually still in my head, and I replay it sometimes to remind myself, NEVER take the small lanes ever again! and make sure I look before I go! The bill came back yesterday, total cost of repairing his car, my car and his laptop screen amounted to RM3k!! crap man, that's alot of money for a mistake! In brief, what happen was I was crossing this intersection of the small lanes, and because there were alot of cars, I couldn't see the oncoming traffic, so I just went, and the other car suddenly appeared. And so, with no time to react, the car hit my car on the side. According to witness, my car skidded badly and they all thought my car was gonna topple! Must have been some hit! But thankfully, everyone was fine. At one stage I thought I was gonna crash into the shop coz it was really close to it! Thankfully the car stopped in time. Although, that would have definitely made the headlines for crashing in the shop, haha!!

Enough of the accident, lets move on to MJ. Yes, as everyone knows, MJ is now gone. No one can say they have not heard of MJ's songs, be it "You Are Not Alone", "Heal The World", "Black or White", "Thriller", "Earth Song"... and the list goes on. That shows how many hits he has given us, countless! But the song that strangely stood out for me from the rest is "Remember the Time". I love watching the video for that song, strangely. The dance moves is not as great as "Thriller", and the vocals are not as good as "You Are Not Alone", but somehow, I feel this song gives a perfect blend of dance moves and vocals. Dance moves can get too much for "Thriller", and "You Are Not Alone" has no dances, so "Remember the Time" blends both his aspects really well.

Another song that I really like is "Scream", which he did with Janet. They both sound really good together, and their voices gelled in the song. Pity that was the only collaboration they had. Anyway, I spent the afternoon just watching MJ's memorial service (yes, I downloaded it!). It's really sad to see all his friends, coming up to the stage and talk about his life, and how they described him as a caring and loving person, far from what the media has told everyone. It really shows how much impact he has made over the music industry. I mean, he is the ONLY one that could pull off one hand glove, ridiculously colourful jackets, change from black to white(!) and still adored by millions, young and old. His accomplishments show that he stood the test of time. I mean, we won't remember say Pussycat Dolls in 30 years time, but we will probably still adore MJ for that long. Ok, as you can see, watching the service will undoubtly get you a little emo-ish. But hey, in 30 years time, not many can say you lived in the same era as MJ right? Brooke Shields gave the most heartfelt speech by far during the service. You can see when the rest of them came up to talk, they didn't talk with so much passion and love for MJ as Brooke did. She must have really gone through thick and thin with him! I was still ok watching the service, but when it got to the daughter's speech, when she tried so hard to hold in her tears and told everyone how much she loved her father, I had tears rolling down! It's so heartbreaking to see a child lose her father!

Anyway, watching that kinda made me emo already, so I decided to find back an old TVB series, Burning Flame 2. Now, for those of you who have no clue what happened in the show, at the final episode, the main character died in the fire. His girlfriend and cousin had to lie to his daughter that he was caught up at work and couldn't come home while trying to hold themselves together. In the end, the scene was she was looking at pictures of her and her father, and the cousin came in and ask her what she was doing. When she turn around, she started tearing, as she figured out that her father will never come home again. That whole scene was so sad, I cried again (a rather emo afternoon!). If that was not enough, I went and watch PS: I Love You!! That movie was so sad, but at the same time interesting how Jerry planned everything out for Holly to move on, crazy!! So yea la, you get how my afternoon went that day!!

Shifting the mood AWAY from emo, let's talk about Redang! My dad and I went to Redang for a dive trip, convenietly a day after my final paper!! I was a little worried of the trip actually, not because we're going diving, but the journey to get there and back!! The last two times I went to an island, it wasn't so fun!! The last time I went Redang with friends back in 2005, we took a bus from KL to Terengganu, then a boat from the jeti to the island, and a speed boat from the island to the resort. I tell you, it was NOT fun!! The bus is some kinda bus mini-turn-coach kinda bus, and the suspension is in serious need of servicing. When we reach the jeti at 5am, we had to wait another 2 hours before the first boat leaves! It was terrible as there was no shops that was open, and everyone was so tired we just bored ourselves to death! The trip back was no fun either. The bus decided to turn itself into a public bus, picking and dropping people off at every village! So the whole trip back was start, stop, start, stop..... So a reminder to everyone, NEVER, EVER, TAKE THE BUS!! The other time I had to go to an island, was when I took my diving license. We had to squeeze in a minivan, all 10 of us!! And we had to sit for 4 hours before we reach the jeti! And the island was SO FAR the boat ride took 4 hours!! If you guys don't know already, Im prone to motion sickness, so the whole trip was just me trying to hold myself from vomitting, terrible man!!

Anyway, back to Redang. This time, my dad decided we took a plane instead to the island, instead of bus and boat. Now that's what Im talking about!! Ok, so the plane is not the 747 ot private jet type, but so what? As long as there was no bus, Im fine anyway!! The plane we took was Berjaya Air, which is a propeller plane used during the war times. Obviously, they had to refurbish it and all. It's actually quite fun to see the propeller spinning and the wind that comes off it when it is in the air! Of coz, its more expensive than bus, but I don't care!!

So we arrived at the resort, and settled in, then we went to check out the dive centre. As we didn't dive for like what, a year? We had to do a refresher course just to remind ourselves of how to gear up and the signals we need to know. This refresher course must be sucker's money for them I reckon, since they will ask you "So, What did you forget?". I mean, if we can't remember, do you think we actually know what we forgot?? In the end, we just ask him to teach us everything in 2 hours la! RM 190 gone just like that, pooofff!! After the course, the guide took us for a shore dive, which basically means diving near the shore no deeper than 7m. Obviously, the shallower it is, the less things to see, but I enjoyed it anyway, maybe because I actually forgot how it felt great to just stay in the water and see corals and fishes!! Somehow, diving makes you tired, even though you're actually doing nothing but let the water carry you around for 40 minutes =.=. So we came up, and slept right away til dinner time. Oh, which reminds me, the whole trip, we only did 3 activities. EAT. SLEEP. DIVE. Every minute that we didn't dive, we slept, wake up for food, then sleep again until the next morning to dive. Now, that's life isn't it?? haha!! Overall, the diving was fun, but not the carrying the gears part!!

Back when I took the diving license, the tank and gears was all on the boat. So we just have to step into the boat and gear up from there. Now, when you are doing fun dive, its obvious that this luxury is no more! So we had to gear up at the centre, wear all the equipment except mask, put on the tank, and walk with all of it from the centre, across the beach, into the water, and CLIMB up to the boat!! It was not fun lugging all the gears, plus weights on ur waist belt, walk for 10 minutes while you are sinking into the sand every step you take, and get burnt by the unforgiving sun, get into the water, and then have to climb the ladder with all the weight around you, to the boat!! I tell you, getting to the boat was like a bull ride man! Bu once you dive into the water, you'll forget everything that you have to go through, and get lost in the beauty of the underwater world. The corals, the fishes and the colours in the sea will leave you in awe, as was I!! This time, we managed to see turtles and huge sting rays up close and personal!!! It's so fun seeing them stare at you while they swim past you. It's like they're saying "What the heck are these foos doing here?". Of coz, it was not fun, when during one of the dives, one of the bigger fishes decided to play chasing with me and chased me, while biting me!! Not harmful, but certainly not fun! Never know what's biting you in the waters right?? One of the guys managed to see a blue-tipped shark!! Damn it, I want to see!! Guess haven't paid my dues yet, next time I'll get it! Sharks are seriously misunderstood creatures really. Most of the species of sharks are actually not aggressive and will only attack if provoked, like smacking them. But honestly, who won't retaliate if someone smacks you right? Other than that, you can actually touch them and they will be friendly! Only of coz, if you meet a bull shark, hammer head shark or a great white shark, then you really gotta flee for your life!! Other than them, the rest are friendly creatures!

So, to wrap up this post, somehting Brooke Shields said in the MJ service really touched me. She mentioned that MJ's favourite song, was "Smile" written by Charlie Chaplin, and in the song, there is a line that says "Smile, though your heart is aching". So whenever we feel sad, let down or grieving a loss, just remember:

Smile, though your heart is aching,

Smile, even though its breaking,

When there are clouds in the sky, you'll get by,

If you smile, through your fear and sorrow,

Smile, and maybe tomorrow,

You'll see the sun, come shining through for you.

Light up your face with gladness,

Hide every trace of sadness,

Although a tear, may be ever so near,

That's the time, you must keep on trying,

Smile, what's the use of crying?

You'll find that life is still worthwhile,

If you, just, SMILE!!

In times when I am absent..

2009-06-23T04:32:00.006+10:00

I know im having my exam in 3.5 hours time, but just want to post some old vids from youtube that i am recently hooked to, its from AI, and the various good performances! These are the lesser known performances actually..

Chris Daughtry - Have You Really Loved A Woman

Adam Lambert - Mad World

Adam Lambert - Tracks of My Tears

David Archuleta - Imagine

David Archuleta - Heaven

David Archuleta - Smoky Mountain Memories

Tata, wish me luck for exams!!

Guess Whose Back!!!

2009-05-25T16:10:00.002+10:00

HELLO! Guess whose back!!! OMG its been 6 months, i feel damn bad =.=.. so much for the resolution of posting more, wth. anyway, as usual, ill give u guys a TOTAL recollection of what happened the last 6 months (this has gotta change!)

January

So, its the start of the new year, throw away 2008 and welcome 2009. For me, 2008 was not quite a good year for me, trying to recover and recollect myself after some disasters. Failed some units too. But this year, I can feel that things are different. Of course, my friends have mostly graduated which means we'll see each other less, so hopefully we'll all make the effort to see each other more often before all the work starts to kick in. Anyway, besides that, I also feel this is a good year for me, I don't know why yet, but I can just feel it. haha, hopefully the feel will come true!! Anyway, before I get carried away with that, let me bring you back to January and describe what happens this month.

Firstly, we celebrated New Year on a cruise!!!! Ok, before all of you start looking at me in the envy, jealous eyes, its called a cruise, but its not exactly the type of cruise your thinking k, its just a small motor boat that they take u around the small part of clarke quay and park it near the stadium. But I have to say, they did park at a good spot as the fireworks was like right on top of us!! Tried to call my friends back in Malaysia to see how they're doing with the hill climbing (=.=), finally got through like 10 minutes before the countdown. Hopefully the fireworks on the hill is worth it guys!!!

Anyway, 3 weeks later, it was Chinese New Year! This is actually the first time I celebrate CNY while working. Was looking forward to coming back because my friends and I had set up a pre CNY dinner!!! That was also the first time I realise how useful Facebook is. Planning became so much easier. Of course, in the end the venue and time is all last minute, but what's the fun of planning if its not last minute right? no kick that way haha! Anyway, we manage to gather everyone together and lou sang-ed for all our year to be fruitful and full of blessings. That also when someone told Wendy, that because she cut the "sou" mee, her life will be cut short =.=.. OMG man!! I need to rmb who is that to whack the fella, for saying that 1 day before CNY haha! After dinner we went to a bar at hartamas. At first it was just regular chit chatting among outselves while my friends TRIED to dedicate "show me the meaning of being lonely to me" to me, but somehow the guy got it wrong and they sang the old version of "Mandy", which is totally out =.=. After that we proceeded to play this game, called thumb master. For those who don't know this game, pls google it k. Anyway, it was quite fun, until they said the punishment is to drink this beer that is mixed with soya sauce, chilli padi and wasabi (im not sure if there are other things!!). In the end, Ee Wen took the fall and drank the thing. Honestly, while she's drinking it, i feel sick for her stomach man! *vomit*!

February

Technically, nothing much really happened in February, except for the looming fact that I will be facing Monash one more year. The prospect suddenly shudders me. I mean, of course, given the situation now, studying is actually better than working, but the thought of going to Uni and realise that the whole group of friends that have been with me are not there anymore makes me emo-ish. Again, before i get carried away about emotions, let me enlighten you on what happened on the 27th March 2009!!! no, its not B'day, no its not the day I get hooked up, no its not my break up anniversary (=.=).. More significant, its the day that the Vertical Limits happens in real life, the day where the dream of you slipping and falling into the empty space, waiting for your bones to shatter, and your heart beat to stop..........

Ok, that was EXTREMELY exagerrated. Anyway, im talking about Bukit Tabur here. For those who are not sure where is it and what its about, go to google and type Bukit Tabur, it will show you a news where 2 doctors died falling while climbing this very hill!!! OMG man, i almost made headlines there! haha. Of course, this explains the odd slipper that we find along the way (must have fallen and died, but no1 knew =.=).

It all started off at the wrong foot that day. With me being late, and us only managing to drive off from bryan's house an hour later, thus hiting the jam. Also, along the way, bryan kinda lost his bearing and we had to go back and forth IN the jam, no mean feat there. We were all losing hope and contemplating of whether to change course and go to genting =.=. Anyway, in the end, we found the bloody Tesco whose singboard is at the OTHER side of the road, how to see la!!! And so, in the end, we only manage to reach at the foot of Bukit Tabur about 9 plus, which was quite hot already. And off we go... little did we know, we went to the wrong side of the hill!! wtf, we're suppose to go to the easier 1 that has stairs down at the other end. But, as fate calls it, we went to the more challenging 1. I know I know, you guys all made it up and down with no problems, but you guys dont have weight issues like me!! seriously, when we met andrew's friend almost at the peak (wtf right? andrew can still meet his friend at a bloody hill!), when he told us the only way down is the only way up, i was like "shit, im so screwed!". Coz it took me so much effort just to get up, and going down is suppose to be the hard 1!? Plus, i have a certain friend that decides to call me and ask me to go down myself first, you know who you are =P. In the end, what was a routine climb down turned into a massive rescue thingy where andrew and his friend had to climb back up to supply me and another guy down. At first, they were like 'chill la, take your time' Until the sun set and it was pitch dark la, they were impatient 'faster la wei, damn dark and late d' haha! especially Andrew, he constantly look back (i can see k!) coz he was last in the group and there were weird sounds from the back, haha! In the end, of course, we all manage to come down, 11 hours after we started ascending!!! And, that night ended with me buying everyone bah kut teh to thank all my saviours that day! haha. FYI, the bak kut teh was my inspiration to keep going the whole day!!

March and April flew by without much happenings, except knowing that all my friends have started work! that means less meet up, more gossip to talk about when we do! haha.

Mid Sem Break

This year, mid sem break was one of the most tiring and packed break ever!!! It starts off with Genting, where mich, andrew, bryan and I decided to go, in conjunction with mich's rare multi days break! So, we took the bus to the cable car site. The bus ride was ok, mainly coz i took pills and thanks to Ipod!! Cable car was so so only actually, it would have been better if they made the bottom transparent, that would be fun!! And so, we reached Genting after an hour and a half. Oh, as a note, this is the first time i step foot on Genting since 13 years ago! no kidding man! things are certainly newer there, and its been awhile since i enjoyed fresh cooling air, so it was great to be up there. Yin and Alwin joined us later. We decided not to do the themepark as it was quite boring. So, in Genting, if you dont go to the themepark, where would you go?? the Casino of course!!!! So we went around hunting for the casino, and honestly, the casinos there are nothing to shout about, very Cina, smoky, and very high stakes (rm25 minimum!!). So we walked around, looking at the aunties and uncles gamble. These ppl gamble, no joke man, 700-800 bucks 1 go, crazy! It makes me wonder, where the hell they get the money man, pension ar? or Investments, so geng meh, everyone losing money they strike big?? We went for lunch after that, guess where we went to, McDs!!! honestly, i didn't know food there was that expensive man, even McDs was 20% higher than the normal 1s, super ripe off. After food, we went to Snow World, that's where the drama all started la!!!

Snow World was actually kinda fun, the cold biting feeling is really addictive (even though the snow is actually fake!) . So we proceed to play the slide, which made our butts pain because it bumps so hard and goes quite fast! After playing in there for like an hour, we went out and walked around, taking weird posed pictures and final destination like pictures (see FB for that!!! it really looks freaky!). Oh, you're wondering, where is the drama?? well, the drama came after we took one of the pictures with andrew holding his back pocket. Only then did he realise, his wallet is missing!! Hah, wallet missing in Genting, confirm gone d la all the money!! So, without further hesitation, we all rushed to Snow World and explained to the staff that his wallet was lost. Guess what, we all manage to go in one more time coz we had to go in and find. and there we were, without any winter clothings, just our normal wear, walking into the extremely cold room!! It was actually quite nice, to get ur skin bitingly cold! beats summer bites man!!! In the end, he found his wallet, but as expected with no money, so we came up with this theory that no matter how you want to refrain losing money in Genting, they will never let you walk away free!! haha. So the rest of the evening was just us chilling at Starbucks (when will you get to sit outside Starbucks without sweating!). When we started talking about how to go home, then only we realise, we're in another drama!!

See, when we came up, we actually talked about what time we wana leave and all, but we totally forgotten about getting the tickets first!!! so now, the problem is, all the transports are full already!! we frantically searched for the bus stations but to no avail! so, with no transport down, and the night getting dark, AND no hotels available, we were all sweating!! In the end, thank god that Alwin drove, and Bryan met his friends. So mich, yin, andrew and I followed Alwin while Bryan followed his friends. If Alwin hadn't come, or Bryan didn't meet his friend, we would really be in deep trouble. But as it goes, everything fell into place and we reached down, safely. The night ended with Sushi Zanmai at 1U.

So, that was the first day of Mid Sem Break. On the last day, we decided to have ANOTHER trip, this time to Melaka, with mich, bryan, adam, wendy and I driving my mom's car down. I shall not get into details with our trip around as its the usual chicken rice ball, jonker street chendol, satay babi and all that. Ill just skip to the night, where the unfortunate happened! As we were looking for the portugese ikan bakar, we came across this weird roundabout and a left turn. To describe this round about further, the roundabout is at the right hand side of the road, while there is a big left turn on the left! Seeing that I only realised there was a roundabout when I was approaching it, I indicated to the right to cut in and make the roundabout. Little did I know, as I pass the roundabout, I was stopped by a police!! He said, I cut queue when taking the roundabout. I tried explaining to him that Im from KL and don't know the roads really well, and you know what he replied me? " You KL ppl always cut queue 1, if i were to go KL, ill never do that!" Hello!!!??? In KL, there are no weird, stupid roundabouts that is on the right and big left turn on the left?? Of course, no point arguing, so I just gave him the license to take down, and left. In the end, we didn't exactly find the portugese ikan bakar, but we found a chinese shop that makes it, and it was not bad at all! plus some beer, that meal ended the night for us!

Exhausted yet from reading this LONG post? I shall keep some for the next post, and oh, btw, I just got into an accident......

To Be Continued...

Number 10

2008-12-31T12:43:00.004+10:00

hey everyone! wow, I have posted what, 4 times this month?? I cant remember anytime that I have posted that much in a month, must be the new layout, or isit because Im out of Malaysia, so more excuse to update haha! I know I havent been updating this blog a whole lot this year, but ironically, this post, which will be the last this year, is post number TEN!! Ok, that sounds really bad, like, only 10 posts a year!? oh well, at least Im starting to do more now right?

Anyway, since this is post number 10, I shall put 10 things that I want to do this coming 2009 :

1. Serve in God's kingdom!
2. Graduate!! (damn, I better!)
3. Save money for Hillsong.
4. Find a part time job / give tuition (=.=)
5. Start losing weight (let's see how that goes!)
6. Restart tennis career (abit old now, but nevermind).
7. Take advanced scuba diving license.
8. Make sure I keep in touch with all my friends that have now graduated!
9. Update this blog often, maybe target 30 posts?
10. Repair my #!&% router who still refuses to connect!!!!!!! (ARRGGGHHHH!!!!)

So yea, there goes, this is just things that I can think of right now, as you all noticed, I am blogging during working hours again haha! anyway, its Eliza's last day, so damn, friday comes and Ill be on my own doing everything already, scared man.

So, 2008 was a terrible year for everyone, alot of investments were lost, companies whom everyone think was the safest tumbled as well, with more coming suit apparently. With all that, 2009 seems to be a more gloomy year for everyone. BUT, I like what Joseph Prince said the other day when I visited New Creation. He said, despite all the newspaper said about 2009, he believe that 2009, will be a triumphant year for us. I like the example he said to0, that non belief is contagious. If Man A at the coffee shop says its gonna be a bad year to Man B and C, then they will be influenced and it will REALLY end up being a bad year, this is the power of the mouth. Our mouth is a powerful thing, if we keep saying that we will fail, it will be a bad year/thing, we wont make it, chances are, we will NOT make it, just as the Israelites going into the promise land. They saw the giants and the obstacles from afar and a few of them kept saying they were not going to make it, and in the end it influenced everyone and they really ended up not getting the promise land. Except 2 of them, who believed that they will be able to get the promise land despite all that, and they did!

So you see, in the end, If we say that this is going to be a fantastic year, it will be! Hence, say with me everyone, 2009 is going to be a WONDERFUL year!!!

This made me realise, I had a pretty bad year this year. Alot of bad things, and I realise I always say I cant do this, cant do that, that's impossible to accomplish, how can I possibly do that, Im going to fail for sure etc.. Maybe 2009, another thing I can do, is to keep reminding myself to be positive, with a little bit of effort, 2009 will probably be a great year for me!! haha..

Ok, again I know this is a messy post, but not to fret, more post will be coming your way next year. Signing off from here, Happy new year everyone, and may all your dreams come true for 2009!!!

Hillsong

2008-12-27T04:53:00.003+10:00

Im not sure how I decided to be awake at 3am in the morning, but suddenly I woke up, turned on the laptop, and started going to youtube to search for Hillsong Conference 2008, all the songs and preachings that are available. Reminds me of the year that I went, it was really an experience like never before, but most impotantly, it brought me ever closer to God.

I want to go for Hillsong 2009, although this year, its only 3 days instead of the usual 5, but I have the sudden feeling that Im going to be there in 2009. Does God want me to be there this year? I don't know how I am going to be there, but I am sure God will have a plan for me, if he wants me there, I will be there, if he wants me back in Malaysia, I will be there as well.. Wherever you want me to be Lord, Ill follow you, always..

These few lines are for everyone reading my blog, brought me to tears tonight in front of the laptop, cant stop replaying the video over and over again, so here goes ;

Turn your eyes upon Jesus,
Look full in His wonderful face,
And the things of earth will grow strangely dim,
In the light of His glory and grace.

God Bless EVERYONE!

Post of December!

2008-12-23T01:52:00.003+10:00

Ok, I vowed to myself to keep up with blogging since alot of effort has been put to place to make this new layout. One thing though, ppl, PLZ dun ask me why izit 'another picture to burn', it came with the layout and Im still looking for a nice tagline picture to replace it alright??

Anyway, where was I, first week of singapore? ok, now moving on to the 2nd week of work. 2nd week was quite relaxing, mainly because I went for training and hence, means less work! The other intern and I took turns, I took the morning sessions and she took the afternoon ones. Good arrangement, as morning sessions are mainly introductory finance while afternoon ones are more in depth. Finally, after the training, I get to say, I UNDERSTAND cross rate calculations already!! Basically I knew so much more about finance in half a week's worth of training than a whole sem of Money and Caps in Monash (due to inability of a certain lecturer!). I can safely say Im quite good at all the derivatives in finance, which will be put to use this coming weeks. Oh, and during the training, I actually met this girl that is a Monash graduate in Retail Management. She studied in Caulfield and we started talking bout Caulfield and bitching about Monash and their lecturers and their stupid policies that are completely ridiculous!

Last week, my friends came down to Singapore to visit Singapore aka visit me. Was looking forward to them coming down since I havent seen them for awhile, even though its only been 2 weeks, more on that later. So, they usually do all the tourisy things in the day time and Ill join them during the night. First night, we went to Night Safari. Actually, I felt that we kinda went in late so we didn't get to do much walking around. But it was good fun, especially when you have the 'tour guide' that dont know where he's going all the time =.=. One thing though, the animals were very lively that night, heck, even the lion who most of the time sleeps, was roaring at the tram, although it sounded more like a broken record =P... So we walked abit, went to see the flying squirrel where everyone was just waiting for that ONE squirrel to fly but it refuses to, and also bats. I knew the bats were huge, but when I was there, the huge ones are normally hanging asleep, but that night, it was flying around! so this big one flew and according to Wendy, it flewed on top of my head! I could feel the wind from it too, so I guess it was pretty close. At first, Adam, Wendy and I thought, wah, the girls quite daring ar, walking in front somemore. But our confidence in them quickly dissapeared when Mich was seen holding Mel's hands and they were like, walking slowly in fear of aggravating the bats =.=. They eat fruits la, they don't disturb humans! And of coz, Adam had to crack the joke, that fortunately Mel didn't bring her apple! haha.. So after that, we went home all tired. Then, the funny thing started. Oh, i forgot to mention, Andrew kept mentioning to us ALL NIGHT LONG that he was jealous of Carlos, the seal (=_=") for kissing Mich. Sorry, let me rephrase that, he was jealous of the seal kissing Mich and NOT him! (=___________________________="). I would use the multiple slap emoticon if I knew how to put it in! Anyway, back to the story, so we were just sitting around waiting for our turn to shower. And this Andrew suddenly burst out into a seal sound and actually flapped his hand like a seal! That was damn hilarious man! and just when we thought that was like play of the day already, Wendy accidentally caught him in his 'initimate' moment flapping the towel around his neck (which is brown btw), and burst out laughing (as always =P). Because, she thought it looked alot like the flying squirrel!!! OMG, ROFL, LMAO, you choose! And hence I conclude, never go to watch too many animals in one day, or you'll end up like him =.=.

2nd day I didn't go out with them at night, coz they went to Sentosa for the day and parts of the night. Only met up with them for supper. nothing much there, but Sentosa does sound quite fun guys! should have taken a day's leave to go there. And so of coz, at night again we gather around to talk while Mel went to sleep. And haha, of coz, I demanded to know the full story of the Adam Wendy chronology! (gotta come up with a name for you two, we used to suggest calling you guys Andy, but Im not so sure about that haha!) And boy did they get it from me. Since I was kinda like the last to hear this story, so of coz I demanded a FULL, EXTENDED, UNCENSORED version of the story la! down to the point of what they actually said! guess you guys really sweat when I was 'interrogating' you guys eh? I shall know spill details of the conversation though, since I do respect their privacy.

3rd night was kinda messy in the beginning. They wanted to take the christmas lights tour and then rush for the Singapore flyer but I told them, one it was not possible as the travel time will not allow it, and two, I couldn't take the christmas lights tour as it is for tourists, and NO, Im no longer classified as tourist anymore! so after alot of debate, everyone kinda consented to just going for Singapore Flyer, then christmas lights tour and then go for Clarke Quay later. Oh i forgot to mention, everyone wore very nicely that night, making my formal outfit look normal haha! So I proceeded to go home to get my passport in case later gotta take the tour. Wendy came along as well as she forgot to bring her tourist pass. And so, we were in the apartment room, and she couldn't find her pass!! searched everywhere for it (apparently not everywhere!) but just couldn't find it, so I told her just forget it la, if go on sumore we're gonna be late.

So, we went to the Singapore flyer. As the last time I went it was day time, looking at it at night is a new perspective. And it was. The city was lited up this time, so was the Singapore Flyer. Adam wanted to host his birthday party in one of the capsule, but I don't think its such a good idea. For one, in a party you're gonna have to drink right, what if you need to go to the washroom, and your at the top? die right? haha.. So after Singapore flyer, we wanted to take the shuttle back to the MRT to go to Clarke Quay since it was too late for Christmas Lights tour already. Mana tau, when it was our turn, the shutle was already full and it was the last shuttle back =.=. So, we took a taxi instead to Clarke Quay. Walked around for abit, saw this strange guy talking to himself while I was withdrawing money, and brought them around the place. Ended up wating Hot Stones again, since its the only one that I feel its good for a reasonable price in Clarke Quay. There are other places but they're too expensive, especially on tight budget like us. After that walked abit, saw this bar that was flooded with angmohs, and chilled by the river bay. Took some nice pictures there. Oh before I forget again, I mentioned to Andrew that people wear slippers to Clarke Quay so dont have to wear so nice there, he didn't believe me. And there at the bay, we saw 3 guys wearing slippers, SCORE! The best part was, I also said people wear singlet here, Andrew of coz don't believe that. Guess what, we saw one outside Zirca!!! where is Zirca? for those who don't know, read on..

We stood at the bay for sometime as we couldn't decide what to do next. So we walked around and reached this new place called Zirca, its a club. According to Mich, it used to be MoS. We enquired about the price and decided to walk around first. The girls went to the toilet and after that there's a funny story! while the girls was in the washroom, a girl walked past us guys, wearing a short, tight purple dress. OF coz, Andrew being Andrew, proceeded to gesture slim legs and keep talking about him being a legs man and all. The best part was, when the girls came out and Andrew asked about the girl, Mich said 'she went into guy's toilet wor' (or sumthin like that). Super WTF moment man. Suddenly, all the slim leg gestures look damn off haha! so after walking around, we decided to enter Zirca. Overall, Zirca is quite small, but setting quite interesting la. There's a dance cage where people can go inside and dance. There are also performances periodically on stage. Entrance fee was quite cheap also, $25 for 2 drinks, not too bad. The only thing is, the club was so freaking cold man! almost freezed to death! So, by time we finished and reached home, it was already 3.30am, had to wake up to work sumore. Sat around, after chit chatting, decided, wth la, take half day leave only la! in the end, we all slept at 5 plus, with me grilling the couple with more questions! The next morning (more like few hours later), we went for breakfast together, first time since they came here I took breakfast with them. Haha, I realised one thing, they eat heavier breakfast than me! normally I'll just take 1-2 croissants, eggs, sausages if they have it and that'll be it. But they took that, plus cereal!

So, my friends came to singapore and gone. time was so short, one minute they just arrive at the bus station, next minute they're gone. Although their trip this time was relatively short, but it impacted me alot. When I first came here, I thought, what the heck u know, 3 months away from everyone isn't that bad right? I can live with that, right? but when they came, suddenly my life became cheerful again rather than the dull boring working life. And the moment when they are gone, suddenly alot of emotions came into place. Suddenly I realise, they have become such an important element in my life without me even realising it. Yes ppl, not that I didn't want to walk you guys down to the taxi stand that day, just that it struck me that I already miss life back in Malaysia, being able to just chill, being just a phone call away from 'eh wana go yum cha ar?' or wherever we go. It makes me realise how much i miss my friends already (ok that sounds emo haha!). But yea, I used to crusade last time about how Im able to live alone and no problem with that. But somehow, now, I wish I was not living alone anymore. If im feeling this way after just 2 weeks, what am I gonna do for the next 2 months! So, yes guys, thanks so much for making the Singapore trip happen! miss you guys loads from here yea!

Sorry if this post looks abit messy and long winded, Im actually updating from my workplace, and had to close and open frequently to avoide being caught =P!

That's all for now, phew, quite a long post there! Merry Chirstmas and Happy New Year everyone!! See Ya'll!!

An update..

2008-12-09T10:13:00.005+10:00

haha, cant have a new layout without a new post right? anyway, where was I the last time? ah, during exams! seems to long ago already. Btw, congrats to all my fellow friends who officially graduated! Wendy, Adam, Melissa, Michelle, WELL DONE! My results, as most of you know, are not good at all, but nothing to elaborate there.

Anyway, Singapore is not too bad now. First day was quite scary though, coz I don't know anyone and everyone seems to be quite busy, hence I was kinda 'left alone' for most of the day. Then, I made my mistake number 1. I thought usually the closing hour is at 5.30pm, so I duly requested permission to leave from my boss, Jean (thought wana be polite!). Of course, it back fired, as the closing hour here is actually 6.30pm! Got a little scolding there. Then, I made mistake number 2 for the day! she asked me to see her in the meeting room to discuss things. When i went in, she sat me down and asked me all sorts of questions about finance, like 'do you know what are funds?" "do you know how does a call/put works" "can you explain what are derivatives?". As you can see, at this stage, I was totally lost already, so I replied to all of them "I dont know!". Of course, that will lead to scolding and asking me to brush up all that. Ah, what a stressful first day!

2nd day was nothing much, basically just reading materials in the research portal. 3rd day was when the real thing starts, the other intern came over and teach me 1 thing, then the senior straght away ask me to find the info, compile and finish it by that day itself! wow, hello, I just learnt it for 10 minutes and you want me to do ALL THAT?? So i just tried my best to do it for her la, in the end, amid a few mistakes, I got it done, much to my relief!phew!4th day again was nothing much. At the end of 4th day, suddenly the other intern, Eliza became sick and said she couldn't make it to work the next day. I was like "shit, now I have to update bond list!".. To explain that, every morning Eliza will format and source information from Bloomberg, calculate and finalise everything in an excel spreadsheet before 10.30am. So it goes, 5th day, my first REAL task. Of course, being a real novice, I ended up finishing everything at 11.30am. Thankfully I didn't get anything scolding as it was my first time. Not bad for the first week. This week should be relatively free as almost everyone is going for training.

That's it for this time. Again, special thanks to Michelle for grinding her HTML skills to help em set up the blog skin, and Wendy for giving comments, thanks so much!!

Oh, b4 I forget, congrats to two of MY friends, you know who you are, CONGRATS!! hahahaha!!

First Times

2008-11-04T02:31:00.012+10:00

Ok, im blogging at 12.30am in the morning, 6 days away from my final paper.. progress in studies cant be GOOD!! I better get starting, full speed ahead!..

Anyway, the last 3 papers, was well sad.. there were three 'first-time's in the first 3 papers!.. 1st paper, couldn't finish. Imagine, I actually bloody finished the whole answer booklet and STILL cant finish! how is that possible!? that's the first time I finished Answer Booklet and cant finish exam. 2nd paper, no need to say, it was so bad, i cried during exam man. that's the first time I cried during an exam. 3rd paper, the exam was 10 questions choose 5. Out of the 6 topics that I memorised like shit, only THREE came out, and so I had to answer 2 question which I have completely no idea what I was doing. that's the first time I feel cheated by lecturer's tips!! so yea, as you can see, so far exams, not being really great, lets hope company law is MUCH better than all these 3 papers.

Oh, btw, I think I am going to sign up for the sms results thing. Have to try things that Monash implement right. And since I bet no one else wants to try it, why not me then!

This shall be a first time as well, me trying to do a tech post!

To really show how free I am, I went and tried Windows Live Messenger 9.0 beta, and I have to say, it is awesome!! graphics are really simple, 3d and nice. The 3d effect and shadows looks really good. The arrangement of the conversation window has changed slightly, with the display picture now on the left instead traditionally on the right. The downside would be that the contact list looks very crowded, maybe if they add a little space between contacts, would be better. Also, because it is in beta version, signing in takes longer than usual. Other than that, very nice, and worth a try. Oh and they have a feature, that is to keep u signed in on your home computer even though u sign in elsewhere. Don't know how that helps, but yea, a feature.

[Picture of WLM 9.0 beta]

I also took the liberty to try Internet Explorer 8.2 Beta.. not much changes except they have smoothen the look of it, and enhanced their response time in the browser. Other than that, not many changes as of yet. Maybe they will add features in the future. No pictures for Internet Explorer as it looks pretty much the same really.

This, I highly recommend to anyone that wants simplicity in their browser. the new Google Chrome. It may look too simple for the liking. But we all know what simplicity means, fast loading and response time! and i mean it, loading this on my old slow laptop doesn't even take 1 second! Sure, some may say, why don't you use Mozilla Firefox. But for those who don't realise, Firefox may be stable, but its loading and response time is slow. Also, Specially recommended to those who hate the stupid menu bar and google add on bars that IE have. So far, Google Chrome has not crashed yet, so ill cross my fingers to see if it is stable enough. Then, ill swap to using it instead of IE and Firefox.

[Picture of Google Chrome]

Oh, this is also the first time I am putting pictures in my blog. ok, so its not photos with human in it, but still, its a start right? ;)

Anyway, gotta run now, hope you enjoy the short post here and see you guys, REAL SOON! ALL THE BEST FOR EXAMS EVERYONE!!

Protect your heart.....???

2008-10-16T13:01:00.003+10:00

this is my day no. 7, in uni studying, day no. 4 of me sitting in front of computer studying. People ask how do i study in front of a computer? simple, dont open anything else, except your notes! voila!haha, pretty simple isn't it. Besides, studying in front of computer seems to be easier than anywhere else.

So, if anyone noticed, i have several nick msg that I put beside my msn name, all starting with 'loneliness'. Well, i'm trying to write quotes using 1 word, for the whole week. kind of like an inspiration came to me to write i suppose. maybe reflecting how Im feeling, maybe not. Im not sure and I guess no one will.

Anyway, life is never perfect. Yesterday in cell, we talked about protecting your heart by setting boundaries, but how do we REALLY protect our hearts from pain, suffering, disappointment. How do we REALLY protect our heart from people that sticks a knife right through it, over and over and over again. How do we REALLY protect our hearts, when people crush them, we let time heal it, only to see it get crushed again, and again, and again.. Im tired, Im fading, Im slipping away from everything. Im giving up, Im falling, Im disappearing.

Sometimes, life is so suffocating, you want to retreat to your own shell. But when you start to move back, you hit a brick wall that is so tall you will never be able to climb past it. Sometimes, life is so helpless, you want to curl up in a ball, on your bed, for hours without doing anything, but no, thorns start to grow from your bed, making it uncomfortable even to do that. You are sandwiched between a decision to move back or move out. But both will end up in the same result, just different times. In that, a question for everyone, how do we REALLY protect our heart?

June - September, happenings!

2008-09-07T00:44:00.013+10:00

okay, i know this post is absolutely overdue!! and I apologise for that, plenty has happened, which I will put here 1 by 1. Without further delay, I shall commence on the post..

June

HSBC regionals happened this month! As you all know, My team, Dapez, won the HSBC Entrepreneur Award in Malaysia, and so we represented Malaysia in the regional competition among several countries, Hong Kong, Brunei, Thailand, Phillipines, Vietnam, Bangladesh and Malaysia of course! we were all waiting in anticipation for the moment to come. First day in Hong Kong, we touched down and already several of the Malaysian contingent stared at the airport in awe. Of course, I didn't, coz Ive seen it a few times already and thus is no stranger to me. From the airport, we were escorted to the hotel by bus. I have to say, HSBC was really generous in this sense, for putting us up at Marco Polo hotel, which is a 5 star hotel! fully paid for k!! anyway, we didn't have any time to spare though, coz by time we touch down, we oni had 1 day left to practice, so we didn't get to explore HK on the first night. I have to tell you, the first night was absolutely scary! that's coz my teammate and I BOTH repeatedly failed to present properly, keep missing lines and so forth! we were all terrified then as the competition was only a day away and if we cant produce any sort of reasonable performance, super malu man!.. Cant really remember wat we did the next day, only remembered that we had a rehearsal and got to see the other teams do their rehearsals as well.. Boy, were we amazed by other team's readiness, don't even know how we're gonna compete them let alone win!? so after that, we went to my dad's hotel for final practice, this time with Adam, who kindly flew in from Malaysia with his dad to help us prepare and gave us moral support. Thanks dude! I think we did slightly better when you were around!..

I shall skip to competition day as the rest is already kinda blur. Anyway, competition day. We were all quite nervous, as we still stumbled a few times, and i keep forgetting the Regional Expansion part. our preparation was not helped as well by the scare we had at 1pm in the afternoon (competition was at 4pm and we're the first to present!). No thanks to a certain Nottingham Uni lecture who threatened to pull Dom and Liz out of the competition because we don't want to change the slides to his suggestion =.=. That I was quite pissed off, I mean, how do you expect us to change the slides 3 hours before the competition! and all this was because either Dom or Liz gave him a wrong signal of wanting help or something. I don't want to point fingers now that its finished, but yea, I have to admit that affected me quite abit. Especially when Andrew (our HSBC Malaysia rep) and I had to hide this whole thing from my teammates, this plus all the stress my teammates put all of us (most notably Adam and I) with their internal fighting, how to win you tell me!? so in the end, we presented, and YES! I stumbled right at the end of the presentation. Totally forgotten my line and had to stare at the screeen for bout 5 seconds. By then I knew, we wont be able to make it anymore. Was quite sad actually, coz with all the effort put in to compete, like shifting exam dates and stuff, this is how it ended. In the end, the all gal team from Thailand was simply too good on that day and swept both the awards. Adam's and my dad kept saying we were good and came in close second, but in this competition, there is only one winner and second means nothing.

The next few days was spent touring around HK. I have to say, its been awhile since the last time I was in HK, so there are couple of things that are new. And of coz, with spending expenditure coming from HSBC winnings, I don't think I'll have another chance of saying this, that I had an All expense paid trip to HK!! now how many people can say that! =P. We visited quite a few companies, notably Cathay Pacific, Calbee, HSBC and Ocean Park. It was quite interesting to see how these companies operate and how it developed from a small company to now becoming an International brand. Of coz, what's a HK trip without Disneyland! even though it was a little small, but we had a great time there, just taking pictures and walk down memory lane to all the Disney characters we used to worship! BUT, there was one thing i regretted though, i FORGOT to buy the chip n dale soft toys that I took picture with. Was suppose to get it when we were coming back, but I guess coz it was darn hot, by then was too tired and forgotten bout it. Only remembered bout it in the MTR, but it was too late, haih!! nvm, Ill get them the next time I go to HK, i swear!!!

Oh, and one more thing, on the 3rd night, I found an Irish pub that screens Euro 2008, so I spent the night there watching football and get to know people around. The 4th night, I brought a couple of people over there. By the 5th night, EVERYONE was there! haha, I must have brought in the most business for them man! but it was fun, just sitting around at a pub, laughing our heads off while watching football with bottles of beers in our hand, you gotta say we enjoyed life to the max there man!

July

So, after all the hype of the HK trip, I was back in Malaysia to face reality. Had income tax exam right after I came back, gotta say it was the crappiest paper that I have taken so far!! even though its open book, I practically knew nuts about it. Of coz, no points for guessing how I fared in the exam! But anyway, after that exam, I went down to Singapore. I havent been to Singapore quite some time, and my dad wanted us to get a diving license. So since both was so, I agreed to go. I have to say, Singapore has really changed alot since the last time I went there. There are new buildings and areas that I didn't know about. For instance, Vivo City. I tell you, this shopping mall is HUGE! i think its bigger than 1u even man! and the shops inside are the nice shops like GAP and Gucci, so its quite nice also. Of coz, gals dun kill me for this, but coz I went during the end of the Singapore sale, almost ALL the stuff is 70%!! so its like, my jeans is S$250, now its only $99, that's crazy man! Bought quite alot of shirts as well, in total I bought about 18 shirts and 2 pants, which is insane considering all this in the space of 3 weeks!! haha.. Anyway, diving was real fun. We had to do 2 test before we can commence the course. 1 is the 200m swim, which is no problem for me. the next 1 is float for 10 minutes. Haha, i swear Im the only one that can float on my back for 10 minutes without having to move a muscle, even the instructors were amazed! at first I thought it was a good thing, but later I found out that me being too positively buoyant (that's wat they called ppl that can float) is bad as this means i need more weights to sink in the sea. So we did the whole training course and then on sat off we went to Pulau Dayang for the real thing! was quite nervous initially, coz I have this fear for sharks and sea creatures actually. But after the instructor assured me that it will be like finding treasure to see sharks here, I'll actually see more humans than sea creatures!

I thoroughly enjoyed the experience. It's a whole other world that we cannot fully understand. All the fishes, corals are amazing to watch and the way they move is juz... well can't describe it in words. So everyone, please do sign up for diving, you wont regret it!

Of coz, 26th July, the special day for me! didn't start off as really special to me though, somehow I didn't feel like celebrating it. It's like, great, I'm 21 already, so what kinda thing. Started off the day by going to the saloon to cut my hair. My saloonist made an appointment with me, she said she wanted to do something to my hair, so I said, my birthday right, wat the heck la, just do it! haha.. in the end she highlighted my hair, which looks pretty ok, don't you guys think?? anyway, came back and took my sis's jap friend Narumi, my sis and dad out for a tour. Narumi is like an exchange student and we were the host. So we went to places like eye of Malaysia and craft complex. Actually, the craft complex is really nice, coz they have all the batiks and stuff there. They even allow you to do your own batiks and potteries. Came back home bout 7, as I turn in, I was like, 'eh, isn't that Bryan's car?'!.. ah, busted d! at that point, I was just wondering, who else will turn up later in my house haha! But anyway, thank you all for coming and making the effort to make the surprise party was a success, I was really happy to see you guys, trust me! thanks for the present also, I'll use it more often from now onwards k!..

August

This month started off with Wendy's big day! was quite a day that day. Because it was also Olympics opening ceremony, many people were rushing home to watch it, and thus, all the roads were jammed up! it was crazy to think of the jam being that bad. But, that's not the story. coz as I was leaving uni for Wendy's party, i realise that my back tyre is punctured!!! so i spent the next 20 minutes changing my tyres before I shoot off to Wendy's party. Reached about 9 something, didn't reach there much later than the rest who was stuck in the jam, coz i used another road to get there and there's was no jam. Can't remember what that place is called though. But the food was pretty ok, abit on the pricy side though, but for Wendy's birthday, its ok la!! haha.. after that, went to a club at TTDI. It was quite good, although it lacked a little space, but it was really fun. And I havent gone to clubs with any of my unimates anyway, so this is really good haha!

After that, everyone looks in anticipation to the Monash Ball. Seriously, there was alot of hype for the ball like who's gonna wear what and the stress of what to wear to stand out and stuff. imagine, bryan and andrew actually took time to get all their stuff ready like, 2 weeks before the ball man! me, being me of coz, got my stuff oni the night before haha! maybe coz I really wasn't that enthusiastic about the ball for some reason. overall, the ball was ok, its nice to see everyone dress up and all, took some pictures as well. I have to say, the dances were pretty good actually, I mean, the guy dances like a girl wei, that's damn gay man!=.=.. but they were really good overall. After the ball, we all went to Euphoria for clubbing. it is crazy in there!! the floor literally shakes together with the beats, which is quite cool I must say. However, because it was Merdeka eve, it was jam packed with people!! goes to show how 'patriotic' Malaysians are nowadays, using it as excuse to party only. Anyway, despite the packness in there, we all thoroughly enjoyed ourselves in there Im sure. After that, we all went to melissa's house for the night, since we live quite far away. initially we just sat around doing nothing, until Mich ask me to suggest some games, and I, suggested the game truth or dare and 'I never'. How wrong was I to suggest it!? suddenly, all the secrets starts to come out, the way that you dont want. Obviously, I kena the most la =.=. slept abit, then we went for Dim Sum at USJ 21, which is quite good, must go back there again. After that, Adam, Wendy and Melissa came over to my place to chill. Melissa and I played some ping pong to practice for the upcoming Monash Table Tennis Close, which Ill talk about later, while Adam and Wendy enjoyed some 'alone' time together, watching Phantom of the Opera!..

September

Fast forward, we just finished organising the Monash Table Tennis Close. We were quite last minute in preparing for this, as we only paste up posters and give out registration forms like a week before the tournament, but we still got quite ok response from the members. But most importantly, i think we all bonded more together during this 3 days period. That, of coz, is thanks to our 3 day marathon of gossiping during dinner time. I swear, Ive never gossiped that much in my life man! and its not only gossip behind other's back, it is literally gossip in front of those involved, that was funny! Anyway, back to the competition. First day was quite hectic, as we had to finish alot of matches that day, thankfully everything went well besides several walkovers which is a shame. Second day and the last day was abit more relaxed. Special thanks to all who stayed back to help arrange the tables coz some stupid lecturers book the exam hall for exams the following mornings =.=.. Anyway, Women singles and Mixed doubles didn't have any upsets, with Kai Ing winning the women singles, Oliva second and Shereen third. Mixed Doubles was also won by Kai Ing and Woon Hann, second is Melissa and I (Surprise surprise!), third is Adhi and Oliva. Men singles provided a few upsets, in particular, the shocking elimination of Shaun, who is deemed as a potential finalist, and also the defeat of Woon Hann to Poon. I managed to get into the quater finals, where I lost to Rickson. Thinking back, the last time around, I also lost in the quaters, maybe that's like my limit. Anyway, Poon was an underdog before ther tournament but manage to surge all the way to the final where he faced Woon Hann again. However, this time Woon Hann got his revenge and emerge as champion. third place goes to Kim Lai.

The doubles were no surprise as well, Adhi and I did get a little scare from Justin and Jonathan in the group stage as we were trailing 8-10 on the final set, but manage to pull through that one. And so, we met Woon Hann and Kim Lai in the final. We start off as underdogs as they were the number one pair in Monash! we started off pretty badly, no thanks to me being a little nervous. SO we lost the first set. After that, we kinda buck up and they started making mistakes, so we surprised ourselves in winning the 2nd set as we actually expected us to get whitewashed. 3rd set went to them and the forth went to us. so its 2-2 and the game starts to get exciting. We won the fifth set and was only 1 set away from victory. As I said, we were only aiming at winning a set off them, but now we won 3, so we were already contented with that. Maybe that's y, we went to a bad start in the 6th set, was down 2-7 at one point. That's when we both thought, we can do this, we can just let them off the hook and started picking up pace. We manage to catch up and eventually win!! When they hit the ball to the net at match point to us, we both were stunned and couldn't move for a second, who would have thought haha! anyway, so we stopped a clean sweep of gold medals for Woon Hann. So champion was Adhi and I, second place Woon Hann and Kim Lai, third place was Justin and Jonathan. Overall, I think the whole thing was quite a success considering we barely managed to plan the whole thing out.

So yup, that's the longest post that Ive ever typed, all the events from June to September. Hopefully Ill update more often so that I wont torture anyone that reads this now haha! anyway, study hard and play hard everyone, til next time!

gasp! its not an emo post!!!

2008-05-23T16:46:00.006+10:00

So so! how has things been for everyone!! well, you can probably sum up from my exclamation marks, that Im feeling HAPPY! haha.. well, of course, that is also partly because of several good news, which I am about to share. Anyway, life in Monash so far has been going by fine, the stranger-feeling in MUSA is finally gone, as somehow (what somehow??) I know most of the people in MUSA already when I step in, of course, we all KNOW why.

Ok, first good news, did anyone read page 28 of the Star newspaper wednesday last week? if not, go to the website to check it out. Coz, u know what, ME, yes ME is in the newspaper for the first time!! yup, my team have won the HSBC Young Entrepreneur Award 2008. You cant imagine how we looked at each other when they announced that the Silver award went to the public speaking team, coz we just won Gold! and of course to top it off, we also won the Eco-Business Award, making it a cup double! ooops sorry, muz have been influenced by the UEFA Champions League, double award I mean. This means that my team will now have to represent Malaysia to compete with other country winners in the Regional competition. The best part?? Liz and I actually DONT want to win, coz winning means have to do more work when we go to HK, and I would have to defer exams and all that, so we were praying that we will get the Eco-Award and the SILVER award instead, then our prize money will be the same as Gold anyway, haha! so when we won, we were like, GREAT, now, gotta do more work, and gotta see each other often, AGAIN! haha, as you can see, we've met up so often, so sick of it d! =P Of course Im not saying Im bored of my teammates or anything, maybe we should meet up for something OTHER than work, Karaoke perhaps!? Btw, the update to my deferment of exams, Monash has agreed to let me sit for Money and Caps during August deferment exam period, and they also allow me to take Company Reporting after 23rd June, which is suppose to be my last paper. So this means that this exam period Im technically only taking 3 papers! hooray!!

The 2nd good news, is actually quite a personal thing. At the beginning of the year, I began to question my faith with Christ, coz I was thinking, I proclaim to believe in Christ, but I never do anything about it. I never really read the bible, hardly go to Church, never attended cell. And so, I was in doubt as to whether my faith is swaying. After a few months, I am very happy with my progression. Now, I have more faith in him, attend cells, pray more, and most importantly, instead of just reading the bible, I now take the time to digest and understand what the verses mean. And I think it helps that I understand the bible more, coz now I am more positive (yes rejoice, I am no longer moody and sad all the time!!) when i see things. My goal now is to serve in a ministry in Church. Bernice says there is a lack of people in the toddlers' ministry, maybe I should serve there!! (Bryan, you're gonna go and serve in the toddlers' ministry with me ok, you got no choice!!)

Of course, THIS is not gonna be a good news, its regarding the cyclone and earthquake disasters. As most of you know, the cyclone that hit Myanmar and the earthquake in China has put the whole world's eyes on them. Of course, the sad part is there was a group of friends that I know of that was in the earthquake area and til today, no news have been heard from them. After so long with no news, we have all accepted that they may have left us already. As always, seeing their parent's grieve over this is the most heartbreaking. Also, it puts all of us into perspective, that life is short. So while we live our lives,we should live life to the fullest, do our work, our responsibilities, but in the mean time, get to know more people and just chill, coz friends are the best thing in the world (2nd to God of course) and we should all just pop a beer, soda, soft drinks or whatever we feel like drinking and appreciate each others company!!

That's all for now, Ill probably be updating more often now than ever, so keep coming back k! see ya all!!

Back to Uni, and then what!?

2008-04-02T01:32:00.004+10:00

Hey, I dont even know if ANYONE ever comes back to this blog again, since the last post was months ago. Don't know why, suddenly tonight felt like posting, so here goes.

Back to uni we all are, everything is back to normal, back to Malaysia, back to enduring the blistering heat or rainy walk to and from Uni to car park, back to the broken english and fake accents of Malaysian lecturers, and most importantly, back to the same clique of friends. Eveything should be back to normal, right? Somehow I dont feel like it. Somehow I feel so lost, like Im in another foreign land, and have to fit in again. Somehow I dont have the same feeling about Malaysia Uni life like the last time. Somehow, I feel like I dont know most of the people already, as oppose to somehow knowing alot of people last time. One look at MUSA now, and 90% of the people are those that I dont know of. Somehow, the campus does not give the nice, homely feeling like the Sunway campus, it feels too alien. Not helped by all the stupid ridiculous architecture designs that not even Ah Pok will ever do it. Somehow, all the somehows, makes me wonder, IS everything back to normal?

As most of you already know, I am officially G.R.O.U.N.D.E.D., which means no more late nights and wanderings in Asia and KL, no more hanging out with friends other than in Uni. Nowadays, friends have to come over to my house to hang out, how sad. They have done it so many times, that somehow I feel vey pai seh to ask them over again. Its like they have to travel just to hang out with me, which I dont feel nice. Maybe I should not call them over so often, they should just go out elsewhere to hang out without me. Why should I be so selfish to ask them to come over to my place when they could go elsewhere with more entertainment than my house, which, ooppss!, have no other games other than Monopoly, which everyone is growing tired of already. I cannot be so self-centred, selfish. So yea, I guess thats it for this.

Anyway, I came across this quote, which is, I feel, very meaningful, and has decided to extend it and scribble something of my own.

LETTING GO

It hurts my heart, to watch it slip away,
It hurts my soul, to let it go,
But i know, that its the best decision, the best plan.

For I am no longer able to endure,
the feeling of hopefulness, and the immediate hopelessness,
the utmost uncertain feelings.

Regrets, sorrows may fill my heart, to watch it slip away,
Regrets, sorrows will fill my heart, for it will be too hurtful to bear,
Regrets, sorrows shall fill my heart, for lettng it go.

But i know, that this is the best decision, the very best yet,
To let the chance go by,
To let the chance fall in a better place, better hands,
Maybe in this life, or the one after, that I'll have the chance again.

failure, failure, failure...

2007-11-30T21:23:00.000+10:00

i cannot NOT post today. I have never felt worst in my life than now. Never felt more like killing myself, than now. results, fail. life, fail. everything else, fail. i am like the biggest living failure ever, no one can deny that. I cannot live like this. Maybe, I am just meant to be a failure from the begining. Enough said.

Update Update Update!

2007-09-04T03:57:00.000+10:00

hey ppl, month of August just flew by and now its the month of September! ok, nothing special about that. anyway, just finish 2 mid sem tests and now will be quite free til 1st October where I have to hand in my Marketing Law assignment! better start now, or else who knows what happens.

I wanted to post another emo post, but decided that for a change maybe I shouldn't do so. So Ill just post about Mount Buller. It was quite interesting, especially since I've never seen REAL snow before. Skiing was hard, and tiring. The first time I tried, I crashed into the snow vehicle! how embarrassing. But I manage to muster enough courage to get up the hill again, and finally manage to stop and not crash into anyone! Achievement!

Ah, maybe Ill just do a quick emo post here. Well, yea, I guess everyone knows bout what happened and all sorts of it. But I think I have changed alot since I came to Australia. and I think I have changed for the worst. I think my attitude towards everything is so bad now that I cant even start to describe. what have I become! why cant I control myself anymore! why did I turn into such a nasty, bad bastard? Am I of no cure anymore? Ive done terrible things, but can I really blame the terrible things that happen to me that contributes to this? I was once a person trying to do as much good as I can. Now, I am a selfish being, so selfish that I feel disgusted and unworthy of anyone.

Anyway, that's all for now. See ya!

Loneliness..

2007-08-15T16:48:00.000+10:00

hey, i don't think anyone is going to expec this random update here, but hey, can't just abandon it here right, so here goes..

things have picked up slightly from where I was the last post. today, I will talk about loneliness.

Loneliness, such a strong yet gentle word. a harsh yet soft word. Often defined as being alone, it has been said nowadays that you don't have to be alone to feel loneliness. You can be around a massive crowd and still feel loneliness. I'm sure all of you have been to parties, with plenty of people and plenty of booze, but deep in your heart you still feel loneliness. That's the sort of loneliness that is worst than being alone.

Have I driven people out of my life? Yes! Am I driving people out of my life? Maybe so. Technically, I have made myself lonely. Maybe its just my nature. Maybe its just something that I have to go through alone. Somehow or rather, sooner or later, I will always make myself alone. Maybe I don't want anyone to know the sufferings that I am going through. Maybe I don't want any pity from anyone at all. Maybe I don't want to hurt anyone. Back and forth, all I am talking about so far, is about building a wall between me and the world, but what really is happening, is I am concealing myself in an egg, from the world. I've lost friends. Friends that I should appreciate, but is now lost and I regret. But it is too late. Or that is what I think. Nothing more that I can do or say now. All is lost. Is friendship this fragile, that it couldn't stand the test of time? that it couldn't stand the test of perseverance? is it my attitude that caused all this to happen? maybe I just need someone to crack the egg and release me from it.

So, to all my friends out there, please appreciate ur friendships with others, and not be like me, regretting the could-haves and what-ifs of life.

Failure and Disappointment

2007-07-16T02:29:00.000+10:00

yes, its been so long since I last posted. but now, at 2.30am in the morning, sitting in front of the PC, contemplating about my life, I realise that Im nothing but a junk. I've done nothing significant in my life, often causing trouble to myself and others, hurting people around me. Me, being selfish doing so.

This week has been the worst week I ever had. Everything that I do ends in disappointment. Now staring at the end of the week, I wonder what worst things could happen to me when I step into Uni again for my second semester.

Oh yea, that reminds me, results.yes, disappointment again. I failed cost info. what can I say. I tried my best. nothing can be done. blame nothing but myself for being second best. blame myself for being dumb. blame myself for being a failure. what more can I say. even typing this, I am tearing. but who is there to see. who is there to understand. the pain caused, is unbearable. most importantly, disappointment to my parents. money spent on this useless son. result, failure. failure. does crying help? why does it not help for me? the more I cry the more I feel pain. nothing can heal it. these two months, one heartbreaker over another. this is just the 'climax' of all these things. these pain, no one can understand, no one could understand, and no one will understand. I am here, in this island of my own. no ship passes by to say hello. no fishes dancing in the dead sea. no fire can be started in this storm. no trees to shelter me from the burning sun. me, in this bare island, lying on the burning sun that gives me blisters on my back, but I just don't have anymore energy to stand up.

What kind of future lies before me? what kind of life will come in my path? I feel like I just don't want to know it, don't want to feel it. ending my life now will end all these things. ending my life now will stop further damage on me. thinking about ending my life now gives me relief. relief that I so desperately need. relief that I will never get alive. a break from everything that I have to go through.

I don't understand how people handle all the disappointment in life and still put a smile on their faces. I often shield myself from the rest of the world when I feel disappointed. Coz I don't want them to know that I am facing all these things. Again, that's the shield that I had put up again after laying it down for awhile. the shield of emotions. the shield from people. the shield from communication. the shield from sharing my problems. normally, if its just one disappointment, I will just shield myself for awhile, but now, I will shield myself for a long long time. I am sorry to those who feel that I am screwing up our friendship. disappointments of these magnitudes will make me do so, and nothing can be done. but anyway, no one really cares. that's why I am writing this in my blog, coz no one really cares, no one really reads this damn thing anyway. it's just something that I had to let out abit here.

Stress, and more stress!

2007-06-04T03:01:00.000+10:00

hey people, its 3.10am now, and I am sitting here blogging. Exams loom, friday will be my first paper and I have no idea how I am going to past the paper, plus another 3 papers next week. I am so dead. Issues to deal with, stuff to organize, exams to handle, the stress that I am facing right now is so strong! i cant imagine at all! I feel like going nuts! I feel like just ending my life, right here, right now! I am seriously just taking one day at a time, if i think about tomorrow, I don't feel like living today!

anyway, my fam came down to visit me this week, which is good as well, seeing that I have never seen them for such a long time. They say I look different with my long hair now, maybe they are right, though I feel as if its a change for the worst. Complextion has cleared coz not under the sun all the time here. And, another thing good would be to get nice, free home cook food! we ate chicken rice today, so cool!! been so long! tomorrow will be some chicken dish. I know all this will not cure all the problems I am having now, but I just hope God will continue to bless me and help me through this, because I really need Him.

To anyone who watched Heroes, who thought that the fight scene between Peter Petrelli and Sylar is an anti-climax. There should be a massive scene because they both have tremendous mixture of power. But, it was so noble for Nathan to die for the world to live. One quote from him, "the future isn't written in stone". I like that statement, even if I can't get myself to look at my life that way.

kindness = useless

2007-05-17T16:46:00.000+10:00

hey, i know this is very odd, updating more frequently than I normally do. Just want to let this out here (no one reads anyway so it doesn't matter)

Why is it that kindness always does not result in good things coming your way? Why is it that kindness always gets nothing but sorrow in return? is it really that difficult to stay kind? is it that being kind means nothing?

I don't understand, people always say that 'be kind to others, and kindness will come back to you', why does it never happen? I do not expect any return for being kind, but not when people forget and return your kindness with absolute betrayal. I cannot just stand there and watch people suffer, I have to help, but what has it got me into? absolute crap! that's all.

Maybe, if I am unkind, then none of this will happen, maybe the world is unfair, and only those who are not kind will get away with things. Maybe only those who betray will survive.

Sitting here, in this empty, untidy and hollow room, in front of a computer typing this post away does not help much. I feel like my heart has stopped, and my life is about to end. The sorrow this time maybe too hard for my heart to bear. I may not able to pick myself again this time. The hole burnt may be too deep for me to climb back up.

Maybe, the hole will be there forever, left unfilled, til it rots. Maybe, the wound will swollen, and rot. Maybe, the pain will be there, forever there, never goes away. It does not matter anymore, I dont care anymore, I CANT care anymore, I dont have any energy left.....

Update of April!

2007-05-01T21:34:00.000+10:00

hey! how long has it been? a month! no wonder even my chatterbox is not working =.=". i wonder who else actually still visits here. anyway, assignments and tests come and go (not all, most though), didn't really do much this past month anyway, besides 2 things.

First was easter camp. I have to say, I feel that I am kind of deprived from camp, so when I reach there, with all the campy feel, suddenly felt so familiar! anyway, easter camp was seriously fun, met lots of new friends, play alot of games as well as learnt many new things that I never knew before. The best part was when the games came, the group interacting and working as a team, really makes it extra special. It was sad to leave in the end, but we all made sure we will keep contact with each other. Although tiring, I really don't mind going for these camps again!

Second interesting thing that happened was Miss Saigon. I heard plenty of it from my parents (they watched it in Phuket AGES ago!), so I was quite excited about watching it. I also took this opportunity to actually wear my coat (=.="). Of course, I knew that I was going to be over dressed, especially since this is only a afternoon matinee, but who cares la, not like I have any other opportunities to wear also. Anyway, when I went into the theatre, I actually saw my cell leader from camp! we were sitting in the same row in fact, what a coincidence. It is rather amazing as I had not been able to keep in contact with any of my group members, probably because I gave them the wrong email address. So to actually meet her there is fantastic! Overall, Miss Saigon was not too bad, but somehow I don't feel like my thirst for theatre shows is satisfied. Hopefully when Phantom of the Opera comes out in July, it will be much better!

Til next post, see ya ppl!

Aussie Life!

2007-03-31T16:07:00.000+10:00

yes, I am finally typing this post, AFTER the most hectic week of my aussie uni life, presentation and assignment. I just realise that I have not posted anything since I left work, left Malaysia and arrive at Australia for more than a month (plz, J.U.S.T.!?). I apologise for my little gila-ness there, Australia is not exactly the place that can keep you sane all the time, if you know what I mean. No night life, no yum cha, expensive pool and ping pong, I honestly have no idea how people manage to survive all the years here. Anyway, I shall back track my life a little and fill you guys with my life, AFTER the last post.

Well, I didn't have much time to pack after work, just a few days I think. So that few days was busy packing stuff, checking visa, taking medical jabs and buying last minute stuff. Which reminds me, I kinda M.I.S.S. Mid Valley and 1U! seriously, my place here in Caulfield, there is a shopping mall called Chadstone. Guess what time it closes?? 5.30pm!!! hello? aussie-ians! people should only start shopping at 5.30pm when employees from office finishes work la! I tell you, aussies are lazy bums man! open for short number of hours, and still complain they are working hard! Seriously, there is one fish & chips shop in Frankston, they actually put at the signboard, that sunday is "dedicated to family"! Sunday is when people come out, so don't you want to earn the extra cash, so that you can have extra cash for holidays with family. Now that's "DEDICATED TO FAMILY"!

anyway, fast forward to first week in Australia. Wasn't the best week. The house sucked big time I tell you! Its like some ancient house, those creeky house from those horror shows. And the windows can't be opened initially. And we can't put down our foot to walk in the house (Ok, that didn't matter to me!). All in all, suck place. Then went to Kai Han's place to stay for a week. His house in Clayton is so much nicer than ours! cleaner, neater.. enough said.

so, things that I have done so far in Australia? hmm, well Adam and I found a place to foos, 1 dollar a game only, and new table so not so bad. watched a movie, tried some kind of salty popcorn (ewww!). Max brenner chocs was not bad. I think that's about all the happening stuff I have done man! yea, super sad! which reminds me how much I miss driving my kancil around. but driving here is a pain la, who would drive at 80km/h on a freeway!!! even I don't drive this slow on a busy road k!

Alright, that's all for updates this time. Yes, I will update more often. This time it is for real!

Exxxttrrreeemmmeeeellllyyy Overdue Post!

2007-02-06T21:06:00.000+10:00

Oh my gosh! I can't believe how long have I procrastinated on a post here! since what, December!? Anyway, I promise I WILL update more often from now on. Now, updates on the 2 months that I have gone missing..

First of all, I didn't miss 2 months without a post for nothing, the reason being that I have been working very hard (ahem!) and diligently (ahem ahem!) during my internship in Ernst & Young. For those who don't know what is that, its an accounting firm. Anyway, there were good memories and not so good memories of course. Good memories would be the friendliness of the people in the department that I worked in (Human Capital, google it!). Seriously, I felt so welcomed working there, the seniors took care of us interns very well, offering advice and willing to teach us even though it has been taught countless of times. They are also a nice group of people that has a great sense of humour. It doesn't matter that we were interns, they treat us just the same as a staff. Bad memories would be the work. I mean, not so say anything, but it is not exactly the best work one can receive. The work is monoteneous, sometimes quite boring and can get a little frustrating as well. ALSO, they are so calculative!!! I mean, come on, Ernst & Young is like one of the largest firms around the globe, and they even rejected an expense claim for toll charges from one of the interns just because she did not attach a receipt. How do we get a receipt when we pay by Touch 'n' Go!? to further substantiate this, I have not gotten my pay for the 2nd month yet. The reason? They want to check if we had taken any stationery with us, and they will charge us even if a ruler is missing!? I mean, hello!? a ruler, Why would I want a bloody ruler? Might as well steal your client information and sell it to your rival (just a hypothetical scenario, I wont do that). But overall, I did not regret working in Ernst & Young, the experience is great, might consider coming back as an associate.

Secondly, is my blog layout. I am sorry that it did not turn out the way I had hoped for. Honestly did not think it will look this gay until I really look at it. Was actually rushing for it coz I wanted to clear one of my new year resolution 2006. Do not worry, I will look for a better blog layout. If you have came across any layout that is interesting, please let me know. Thank you.

Thirdly, in two and a half days time, I will be flying to Melbourne for an exchange program offered by Monash. Everything seems to be in order and I should be ready to go. To everyone, don't miss me (ah, as if anyone will!), I will only be gone for a year, plus some holiday in Australia so by the mid of January 2008 I should be back, mean time, email me alright! Til my next post, See ya!!

NEW BLOG LAYOUT IS FINALLY HERE!!

2006-12-08T00:34:00.000+10:00

hey people!! remember awhile ago I had the poll of whether I was to change my blog layout? Finally, after such a long time, I am able to finally introduce to all my readers my brand new layout!! second end-of-the-year resolution that I have successfully perform after the success of the wireless connection in my house!! I have to give all credits and warmest thank yous to Michelle Cheam for helping me edit the codes.. if its not because of her, this layout would never be successfully applied.. so do check out her blog which I have linked.. Anyway, please leave comments at the tagboard about the layout, all praises and constructive criticisms are welcomed!!

W.O.R.K.

2006-12-07T00:45:00.000+10:00

hey people! in the middle of my working week.. felt kinda bored so decided to update now, instead of my planned post during the weekend..

First day at work was quite relaxed.. ok, let me rephrase that, the first half of the day was quite relaxing, with all the orientations, filling up forms and all, getting to know people(made quite alot of friends too!) and ate at the Bistro where the food was not exactly for my orientation, but who cares right? free food means free lunch, with a mere RM500 pay, I will need ALOT of free lunches haha! anyway, as I was saying, that was the first half of the day.. After lunch, the secretary brought my group to our workplace and introduce us to everyone.. so we sat at our workplace and walked around to each other as we didn't know what to do.. soon, the seniors came to each of us and actually assign us to work!.. imagine, the few of us barely know the place, and we had to start working edi!.. and its not some easy work, they actually put their trust on us to handle all the documents and ask us to do it!.. of course, we didn't do much as we spent more time asking our seniors what to do and how to do with it, and thankfully all of them are kind enough to patiently teach us.. so that was day one..

Day two was more like a continuation of the work done in day one.. except that I was the only new staff there that got to go out with a senior to another place to do some admin stuff! its actually quite cool even though it was juz for a short while coz along the way we got to know wach other and he explained alot of things to me along the way about the documents and procedures.. after that came back and continue the work from day one..

Today was slightly different!.. early in the morning, a senior and two of us new staffs went to the offices to do the admin work, only difference is instead of taking a taxi like yesterday, I actually drove them to the offices!! of course it was good as well as I learnt somemore new things, but I think I scared them abit with my driving haha!.. anyway, due to somethings, we actually only came back to the office at about 12 something, juz in time for lunch!I am definitely gonna claim all the petrols and parking charges for this!.. after lunch, the senior in charge of me gave me some real work to do, which is quite tedious and confusing, but thankfully she was also kind enough to teach and explain to me everything.. as I am doing it, I think I asked her so many questions that I think she should be a little fed up at me now!=P, hope not.. althought this assignment is quite confusing, I somehow find it quite fun to do, coz its something new that I have never seen before! and to tell you guys frankly, I am starting to like working! man, I am definitely gonna be a workaholic next time!.. imagine that I actually DONT want to leave office at 5.30pm which is the time our work ends, until the seniors and all ask me to relax, no need to stress and rush it, they actually FORCE me to go back man! but I know, soon I'll get tired of the job and that time the seniors will FORCE me to NOT go back haha!..

03.12.2006

2006-12-03T15:27:00.000+10:00

damn angry now!.. the router that I just bought doesn't work!! somehow my computer just wont detect the router no matter how many times i replug, restart and reboot!! moreover, the technical support is closed! I thought the technical support is suppose to be 24/7 coz people are only free during weekends, and I have to start work tomorrow, so I don't know how am I going to settle this problem! damn it!! Why is this happening to me!? WHY!?

Speaking of work, I feel super stress now.. haven't even buy my document bag yet, in fact I am so lousy that I can't even tie my tie properly yet! nothing is going well man!.. and I just realise that I am extremely short of cash, how to survive for the month la!?

Staring at the router makes me angry man! I better leave the computer before I start slamming everything.. til next time yea!

The un-happening-ness of my holidays

2006-12-03T03:41:00.000+10:00

hey people! sorry for not updating often during the holidays.. Not that alot has happened during the holidays, just that I did not know what to update about since nothing has been going on..

I have been foosing quite alot during the holidays, especially in Brewball.. Probably coz Brewball is nearer than Asia, so despite the lack of quality of the foosball table in Brewball, I still chose to play there.. Plus, save petrol cost also since I don't need to travel to Asia.. However, the standard in Brewball is actually quite sad.. Not to say I am very good there, but the people who play there are clearly there for 'leisure', not really playing seriously.. I want to play with pros!! Even if I'll get beaten by pros 9-0 and claw under the table, I wont mind 1 bit!

Ok, I know foosball is not interesting, but well it has been the only thing interesting happening in my life.. Oh, another thing, I am OFFICIALLY on Jaring broadband! To those who are new and want to subscribe to Streamyx, please hold on a second and check out this service by Jaring, especially if you stay within Old Klang Road.. this service is up and coming, more stable than Streamyx(based on reviews by Streamyx users) and looks cooler than a regular ADSL modem(looks like a space ship!!).. hopefully no Streamyx agent discovers this site or else I am doomed!!

Went to PC fair, was a little bit disappointed actually that the exhibition actually shrinked its size.. but the crowd remains as before, PACKED!.. honestly, if you're planning to go, please skip the heels and sandals, you're just inviting trouble for your feet.. mainly went there to search for a wireless router and was considering between Linksys, Level one(Don't know when this brand come up!?) and Belkin.. ultimately my dad chose to buy the Belikin Wireless Pre-N Router.. have not tried it yet, but since it cost a bomb, it better work!! Oh, and I also bought a new keyboard for the PC and am typing this post with it.. Feels so much better than my old keyboard and its quite cheap too.. Moreover, I just realise that the colour is similar to the colour of my PC unit, cool huh?.. silver black colour.. Though its not of a famous brand, it's just a keyboard right, who needs branded ones!? I think when the next time I visit PC fair, which is probably 2 years from now, the next time I am gonna shop for is a new monitor, and I am going to make sure the colour of it is silver black!!

Another 26 hours and I will be going to work for the first time in my life.. honestly I am abit afraid that I will screw it up.. Sorry, rephrase, VERY scared!! in fact, TERRIFIED!.. hopefully everything goes well la!.. Tomorrow will be another round of PC fair!

Broadband!!

2006-11-20T00:45:00.000+10:00

hey ppl!back from the penang trip.. Although we did not visit as many places as we want due to bad weather (and abit of cacat-ed planning by me!), but its always fun going on trips with friends.. all the laughters and joy will be remembered for years to come..

That penang trip that I was talking about was my first time driving along the North-South Highway.. It was kinda fun I must say, cruising along the highway, talking and laughing in the car, sometimes there's just silence during times where all of us think (about what I am not sure!), and the odd moments of Karaoke (you know who you are!), I am pretty sure that all four of us can now memorise the songs by Stacie Orrico and Utada Hikaru since we listened to the two tapes like 3 rounds each man!!.. I shall stress here though, for anyone who has not been to Penang and is planning to drive IN penang, take note of this, the driving there is crazy!.. seriously, all of them can match my skills of squeezing and nudging ahead of other cars!besides that, the motorcyclists are also damn crazy.. they'll just come in front of you without any signal or warning.. and if you honk them, they'll give you that 'whats-your-f@#%ing-problem' look.. the pedestrians are quite crazy too!They'll just cross the road without looking at cars, and some of them even walk in the middle of the road, oblivious of the cars behind.. the funny part is, the cars will not honk at them!

Oh, and I must post about this.. I am now updating my blog using the new Jaring broadband!yes, you heard me!I am finally joining the broadband gang!!ok, maybe I have not joined yet, since I am still in a 7-days trial run to see if everything is working well and the signal is good.. But I am still happy that I manage to get a taste of broadband before the end of the year (I thought it will never happen!).. now on towards my next goal, a new blog layout!!

Has it been so long!??

2006-11-12T00:38:00.000+10:00

hey ppl! its been a really long LONG time since I last updated this blog.. let me see, last post was september 27th, which means it has been a month and a half since I last updated, WHOOPING LONG man!!! well, the delay was mainly due to finals.. imagine, ME, Mr Choong, have been diligently studying in the library for 2 weeks, from 10am to 11pm(!!!), totally disconnected from the MSN world for so long.. thankfully, the finals is now over and its time for holiday!!!

Not much has been done actually this holiday, went to karaoke with Melissa, Bryan, Wendy and Aaron after finishing our business law paper, which is our last paper, and it was truly fun man!! We had so much fun singing and laughing, sometimes even shedding tears(remember 'Because I am a Girl'??).. And because Darren was not there, it was Aaron's turn to do a solo on Backstreet Boys 'I want it that way'.. I wonder who is our next 'solo' victim!? haha..

Went to watch Death Note on friday, it was one of the best shows I've ever watched.. I got to admit, at first I did not have a high expectation for the movie.. to give a brief intro to the story, this show is about a guy with tremendous IQ, suddenly found a book known as 'Death Note', where he can write a name in the book and the person dies.. I don't want to tell any further about the show, but trust me, it was good.. the way he uses the book, and the way he thinks really astounds me.. how can anyone ever be THAT smart!? its not fair!!

After Death Note, went to Bryan's house to chill out, since he finished his exams on that day, so thought of temaning him haha.. anyway, we played board games basically, Bryan got trashed in chess by me, which was surprising since I don't really know how to play also.. he beat me in checkers though haha.. anyway later we were introduced to a game called 'Go' by Christina and Melissa.. I tell you, it is the most confusing game I have ever played man!! Both of them were like 'Why you want to put there?' 'You cant waste your turn ok!' 'What are you doing!?'.. A few million brain cells must have burst while teaching us the game.. even when the game ended, both Bryan and I was still confused and still don't know how to play the game =.="..

My holiday has been cut short from 3 months to just one month, by the fact that I'll be working in December and January.. I'll be working in an accounting firm.. shall not disclose anymore information.. juz don't call me for trips and outings during that 2 months k!!

Holiday Post!..

2006-09-27T23:33:00.000+10:00

hey, this is a belated weekly report.. no real reason why i decided to post in the middle of the week instead of a weekend as I normally do.. maybe partly was because this week is Monash mid-semester holidays.. So far, it didn't really feel like a holiday at all, with all the jams and normal routines besides attending lectures.. Maybe it's because the following week is going to be a hellish week too, so this holiday was mostly spent thinking about the week ahead..

This week is a special week for Darren, as he finally enters the age where he can vote during the next Malaysia General Election! yes, he's officially 21 now!.. As to celebrate his birthday, a few of us, Bryan, Melissa, Wendy and I decided to give him a treat to send him off to adulthood.. we decided on Victoria Station as the other restaurant I suggested was relatively TOO expensive (if it exists in Starhill Gallery, how cheap you think it can be!?).. anyway, Darren was in his grumpy mode that day, but hey, its his birthday know, so we try to make him happy and all.. hopefully he appreciates what we did for him haha!...

Recently, two of my friends had ask me things related to their respective crushes (I hope its not the same girl they like!!).. they were like asking me, 'how to know if she likes me or not?' 'Are my advances to aggressive?' 'Do I really love the gal or its juz an infatuation(in reference to the 'like vs love' article circulating around)?'.. Hello! you ask me for wat! what makes you think I know these kinda stuff!?.. I think the article written by Aaron is quite good.. As he copywrited it, I cant possibly copy and paste it in my blog in case he sue me for breaching it.. For those who wana read his article, click on 'Aaron' at the link on the right and find the article.. as for my friends, I only have this to say.. I cant solve your problems because I know nothing about this issue!!!

Total Disrespect to Monash and Sunway!..

2006-09-16T17:48:00.000+10:00

hello again everyone!.. yes I know I have been missing in action for quite some time.. I have solid reasons for my lengthy absence which will be said later.. As I had not blogged for awhile, some events that occurred had slipped off my mind so I'll juz try to recall everything that happenned..

First, I shall talk bout the Monash Sports Carnival - Table Tennis that was held.. I was one of the committees in charge of organizing this event as you would know from the previous post.. well the event went fairly well, except from some minor errors in the format of play, the rest was fine all the way.. when it ended, there was this huge sigh of relief.. Not an easy job trying to cramp the schedule to fit 3 days and still give the players enough rest in between matches..

A day after that, it was the Monash Street Party.. I personally have nothing more to say than poor organisation and lack of information given.. we were suppose to sell hotdogs and rootbeers at a booth in the Street Party.. rushed really mad the whole day juz to get everything done.. and when we finally finish buying the stuff and ready to sell, guess what?.. the electrician told us that we will not have any power supply as the power is only enough to support the lights and fans, which was the totally opposite of what the Club and Societies Officer told us.. we had asked him many times about the power supply and all he said was don't worry as there would be power supply.. At that moment, I was super angry, how can these people, organizing the event, not know about these stuffs earlier?.. Again, I shall stress that this fella is not worthy of his post!.. well, since we did not have power supply, we could not do anything, so all of us came to my house and we juz feast ourselves on everything that we bought.. nice ending to the day, thankfully!!

I shall fast forward it to this week.. the worst week of my University life.. 3 assignments due in 3 days, and a presentation.. honestly, by the end of it all, I was thoroughly exhausted.. nothing more can be said about this week other than HECTIC!... thankfully, it is all over and done with!..

Yesterday, we went to watch Wendy and her team play netball.. I have to say netball matches are actually quite interesting and fun to watch, plus I learnt alot about the game.. everything was great, until the prize giving ceremony.. Wendy's team had just lost to the so called Sunway-Monash team, and when Wendy's team receive their medals, this bunch of guys mainly of Indians and Sri Lankans, who were already mocking us during the game, had the nerve to BOO Wendy's team then!.. at that moment, I was super angry!.. How can these unciviliased Indians and Sri Lankans do that!.. Im fine with them doing everything thay can to help the Sunway-Monash team to win, and even cheering and celebrating when they won, but this?.. its not like they even won an inter-college event, its juz a small event with probably 4 teams.. do you even need to boo when the opposition receive their medals?.. I did not hear them winning anything in MAPCU?. why?.. not good enough la!.. Sue for me for being racial in this post, but I have really lost respect and really look down on Indians and Sri Lankans now.. You would too, when you see this situation yourself.. what really pisses me off though, was that the official did nothing about it!!.. no teachers nor officials did anything!?.. this means that they actually tolerate this kind of un-sportsman like behaviour.. Monash is the best in Malaysia?.. they are a piece of shit now in my mind!.. same goes to Sunway!

Different things in my life...

2006-08-21T00:12:00.000+10:00

hey ppl, weekly report coming your way!.. ok, this is week 5 already, another 9 weeks to my finals for this semester, 24 days to due date of Macroeconomics assignment, 23 days to due date of week 10 Marketing report, 22 days to due date of Business Law assignment, 18 days to Marketing presentation day, 5 days to due date of Accounts B assignment and 2 days to Marketing week 6 report!!.. everything is lined up 'nicely' for me to enjoy the next couple of weeks..

Have you ever felt like that some one who is in charge of the event you are doing is a total asshole and is totally not dedicated in doing his/her job?.. I shall not pin point anyone here, but recently the club has been running an event.. and the officer is just being a pain in the ass, not because he does not approve our application or anything, its that he is so not doing his job as the officer properly.. he asked us to do the event this week, yet he oni gave us the list of participants this week, and not without constant calling and messaging before he pass it to us.. and on friday, where we wanted to see him, guess where he is?.. sick apparently, and his girlfriend had to message for him.. come on la, cant he just message us, how sick can a person be till he cant message?? I seriously hate these kinda species, holding the post and not doing their job properly.. This is one of 3 things I totally cannot tolerate and will get mad at!.. This is why I always shy myself away from all these things, because I know I cant tolerate it.. and if its not because the club is set up by my friend, I wont be bothered doing it either.. this brings me to my next point...

POLITICS.. school/college/university student politics.. whichever it is, it can get as complicated as the politics going on in the government.. I seriously don't understand why people want to get involve in it.. maybe I am just ignorant, but I don't feel the need to do so.. Most of the time, I regard these people as "too free nothing to do, waste time trying to gain popularity by dissing out rumours and conspiracy" (Zhen Han, 2006).. Not to generalise or anything, but most of the people that I know that are always involved in these kinda politics often gather in groups and talk about about other people and often praise themselves for their so-called 'genuis-ness'.. well, probably that's why their social circle is wide and mine, well, shall not be mentioned.. but the ratio is definitely weighted heavily on their side..

Spent the day alone at home today, whole family went to Melaka for a day trip.. I told them I needed to finish up my work.. But, of course I did not.. so the whole day, I spend sitting in front of the TV, just plainly watching whatever that is on the screen, with the air cond on at full blast and without any thinking, I just sat there.. mind wandered aimlessly while the eyes fixed on the TV set.. most of you will be thinking 'Man, this boy should get a life.. if my parents weren't at home, I would be partying like mad and hanging out with my friends OUT OF HOUSE!'.. well, in my opinion, no offence, are thought of someone that hadn't actually have a chance to be alone at home, so he/she is just thinking of what he/she wants to do when given that kinda freedom.. Honestly, its not like the tv dramas or the music videos where when the character's parents are out, that's when they throw this super huge party at their house with booze and the ladies in and all that.. have you guys ever wonder, where is the money coming from to pay it?.. since they cant let their parents know, so they cant use their parent's money.. savings?.. come on, unless you are some Datuk's son or some rich person's child, then maybe you might have enough savings.. but if this situation is true, then you will have like 2 or 3 bodyguards and countless of maids in the house with you, so how you gonna throw your party then without letting your parents know??.. hard right??.. AND, if you were to hang out with friends outside of house, that's fine, except, who you gonna find to hang out with?? not everyone's parents is out you know.. so people, be realistic please!!

Ways of thinking.. recently, I was introduced to this topic.. I would classify myself as a realist.. A realist means someone who looks at facts and the reality of life when going through their lives.. HOWEVER, realist has always been associated with negative thinkers.. I beg to differ.. Those who are negative thinkers, are those who constantly look at the bad or negative side of things, even if they are successful, they will look at the negative side of it.. Some have argued, that the realist has portrayed similar attributes.. In my opinion, they are not the same.. for negative thinkers, they want to look at things in a negative way.. for a realist, its not that they want to think about the pain in life, the sufferings, the fear.. but its because life is already as such.. Everyday, news on burglary, terrorists, natural disasters and many more are on papers and tv.. so for instance, how can someone not think, that there may not be a tomorrow, when there might just have a war breaking out, or a freak tsunami wipping out the humans.. how can you blame the realist for being negative, when the fact is, this may happen?.. facts, is what realist look at..

Life in Week 4, PLAIN!

2006-08-11T23:54:00.000+10:00

hello, now this is the REAL week 4, sorry for the mix up there.. Monday was the due date for Intro Macroeconomics.. to be honest, I didn't have that same feeling of relief as I did when I hand in my first assignment last semester, maybe it has just became my routine of life.. so, the rest of the week was just about attending lectures and tutorials and Japanese classes.. nothing special.. except the fact that I am going to library alot nowadays, influence from the hardworking Melissa I suppose haha!!

Anyway, today being friday, is an off day for most of us, so Wendy, Bryan, Melissa and I decided to go to pyramid for a movie, Click.. Click is a show about a guy who is having a miserable patch in his life, suddenly gotten himself a remote control that is able to control his life, pause it, mute it, fast forward, slow motion...everything a regular remote control can do!.. this show is front lined by Adam Sandler, the guy who acted in Waterboy, and Kate Beckinsale, who was the vampire Deathdealer Seline in Underworld and Underworld 2.. anyway, I am not gonna discuss the storyline here, since its a new show and most have not watch it.. but I won't recommend this show to anyone, because of............ ok, I dun wana spoil your fun watching it, but I just didn't like the ending of the show, that's all..

Maybe I am having post-DYP syndrome, nowadays, I cant focus whenever I play foosball in MUSA.. is it the environment? the players? I don't know.. maybe its the competitive feel that MUSA is lacking, since they try to be as friendly as possible.. I miss that surge of feeling in DYP, the excitement, indescribable!.. I don't mind having to block Mikey Tan's snake again, the fact that I am playing against him is already enough! next DYP is on the 30th August in conjunction with Merdeka Day, should I go??.. Hmm...............................

Correction

2006-08-07T22:53:00.000+10:00

yes ppl.. a correction to the last post.. last week was only my third week, not forth.. sorry for the mistake.. have a good week ppl!

DYP.. Scary!!!

2006-08-06T16:03:00.000+10:00

this is week 4 reporting!.. ok i know i have gone nuts with opening my post this week with that.. but yea, its the forth week of my second semester already.. and my first assignment is due TOMORROW! Macroeconomics to be exact.. not much of a worry, since I had done Economics in MUFY.. I am more concerned of the Marketing report that I have to hand in next tuesday.. I have no idea how to answer, and it has not been taught in lecture yet, and the textbook is not helping either!.. stupid subject la!.. and worst still, its a core, cannot afford to fail, haih!..

anyway, I had one heck of a night last night.. I joined my first foosball DYP competition!.. it was a Leo DYP party, so me being a Leo zodiac get to join the competition for free, so hell, why not join it for the sake of experience! Adam was not so lucky though, had to pay RM10 to join, but I am pretty sure he had no regrets!.. anyway, I thought the thing was at 8.30pm, so Adam and I arrived there sharp, but saw no one in Asia Cafe.. after a few rounds of foos, which I was totally useless, still no sign of any party, so I thought, well its ok, since I am not exactly playing well anyway.. after that played some pool with Adam as well, which I had no idea what's wrong with me! cant hit anything in!.. as we were about to leave the place because we thought there wont be anything happening tonight, suddenly saw my tennis mate Jo-veen.. and then a whole lot of people starting coming in, althought never see them before, but from their looks they are quite geng.. after asking Jo-veen, there actually WILL be a DYP competition with all the big stars in the house! after Adam and I put our names down, we started to wonder.. HOW WE GONNA PLAY WHEN WE DON'T EVEN KNOW THE PROPER RULES!! seriously, I was so worried and scared, that my hands started shaking man!.. it wasn't even that bad when I played the tennis competition for the first time.. maybe because all the big names like Shaun P'ng and Mikey Tan will be here, so super scared!.. anyway, my name was called, and was super relieved that its a doubles competition where I will actually pair with a veteran fooser! now I know what does DYP stands for, Draw-Your-Partner where your partner is randomly picked to play.. so, first game up, and I had no idea what they are doing, or what to decide when we won the coin toss, so my partner did all that for me.. I didn't even know its a best of 3 games thing!..

Alright, back to the first match, of course, having no experience in foosball competition, I made alot of mistakes as I don't know the proper way of blocking, so my opponent snaked me like nobody's business! at the start of the second game, my partner called a time out, pulled me aside and started giving me some pointers on how to properly block a shot and all.. ok, I didn't really understand everything he said, but I hope that my inner sense can produce what he ask me to do.. so, second game went underway, and I was soon able to block most of my opponent's snakes! it surprised me really, but at that point I was just focusing on blocking the shot and nothing more.. seriously, I heard nothing at that moment, 100% focus!.. with my opponent failing to score, my partner started to score for fun, and we won the second game as well.. the third game was a little tighter as my opponent changed abit on his snake and I wasn't really able to get it, but my partner did alot in blocking his pass and scoring.. and then when everyone least expect, I shot a pull and the ball actually went in.. and I didn't count the score, but that was actually the winning goal!! I was so happy, my first goal in a foosball competition and it is the winning goal!.. but by then, i was super tired man, trying to block the shots and all the concentration..

So, went and rest awhile while waiting for my next match, chit chat with Adam about his game and look at others play.. then, my partner came and told me, that our next opponent is... MIKEY TAN!!! I am only in my second competitive match, and I have to block the snake of Mikey Tan,the number one player in Malaysia, that is said to be super geng(said coz I never see him play before)! how on earth can I block his shot when I had trouble to even block my first opponent's snake which is like cheese compared to Mikey Tan!.. my partner came with the news, then went to a table and taught me how to block Mikey Tan's snake, which sounds easy, but I don't really understand.. Ok, should change that, I DONT understand at all!! I was telling my partner when it was our turn, that I don't get what he told me.. he just told me to have the fighting spirit and don't give up til the very end, just think about how to win and not how to lose!.. I took that with me into the match..

Game starts.. Mikey Tan's partner, don't know his name so just call him X.. he managed to get the ball to the front, set up for a push.. I didn't know at all how to block a push, so I just tried to move my man to confuse him, and he shot, but luckily, he overshot and the ball bounced off the tip of my goal!.. then I realise, these people are no joke man!.. then, the ball came to Mikey Tan, 1 push and boom! the ball was smacked right into my goal, I couldn't even see which hole he went! my gosh, his back man is equally stinging man!.. then, I think because of all the pressure, the next few goals was all bouncing everywhere and went into my goal.. I couldn't do anything!.. we lost the first game just like that.. The second game, Mikey Tan went to the front!.. my partner I think step up a notch, managing to pass Mikey Tan's middle man and snaked in the first two ball.. then, Mikey Tan loaded the ball in, tic-tac for abit, then i heard a smacking sound, and the ball sticked to his forward centre man, just like that!.. honestly, I had never seen anyone smacking the ball that hard and the ball still sticks to the man! I was already sweating then.. he set up his snake, and started rocking the ball.. I tried to do what my partner taught me, but to no avail.. he snaked, and I'm not joking, I felt the whole table shaking and the metal in the goal bent when his snake went in!.. heck, I couldn't even see his ball when he snake!! the rest I don't need to say, his snakes was just unstoppable, at least I cant, and we lost the game..

I tell you, even after tha game, my legs and hands was still shaking from playing with Mikey Tan.. Yes, he is THAT scary! so Adam and I then went and play a few rounds ourselves, after each suffering defeat already.. I tell you, we really played like competition speed man!.. we were playing super fast and couldn't help ourselves.. however, because we were both taught how to block snake, we now officially CANT snake each other!.. but we were just wanting to smack the ball for fun, using up our remaining energies, because we had no more games left, or that was what I thought!.. Then, my partner came and call me, because we still have another game!! oh man, I just used up all my energy and was super tired, and now I have to summon up all my energy to survive another onslaught!.. turns out, our opponent was the opponent that actually beat Adam and his partner.. man! if only Adam had won, I would be playing against him, that would be fun!.. anyway, this opponent wasn't good, but he was someone different.. plus, I was making alot of mistakes and letting alot of balls in, or rather, my opponent just pump the ball and scored four from that! As its now race to nine points, four balls is alot.. and my opponent somehow couldn't snake, so we lost tamely to them.. I felt so disappointed as it was me who made alot of mistakes.. felt like I let down my partner big time!.. well, I guess that its all part and parcel of the game, the losing part is the hardest for anyone..

By joining this competition, I really learnt alot, even though I only played behind and scored two goals, I was happy to just participate, plus its free! so, you guys should be seeing Adam and I in future foosball competitions!

Alright then, back to reality, Macroeconomics assignment due tomorrow and Marketing report due on Tuesday, better buck up and finish them now.. alrite, take care everyone, til next week!

Summary of Week 2 of my Uni life

2006-07-28T23:55:00.000+10:00

Week Two of Uni life just ended, this means I have only 11 weeks more before my final exams come.. As a veteran Uni student(actually juz spent 1 semester =P), I pretty much know the rules of the game, the study process, when to play, when to get serious.. Not to say I can get HD for all units following, but just the life that I had gotten used to..

Birthday juz past.. yes, most of you wouldn't know anyway, which is good in a way.. All my life, I had just wish for a peaceful, quiet birthday.. Just one day free of problems.. Of coz that's not possible, but juz hope that it is as problem-free as possible.. Well, it wasn't really smooth sailing, but it was just fine.. To all those friends who remembered and greeted me, thanks alot!.. I don't need gifts, just a whisper that you still remember me is enough a birthday present..

Let's now switch our attention to the words that most people don't really like being in, Being Alone.. different people have different views regarding Being Alone, some say that being alone means there are no one physically there with you, that you are really just alone, some too say being alone means having no life partner or loved ones.. this matter is very subjective, and everyone's view is actually correct in their own way.. To me, being alone means you have no one that trully understands who you really are.. This means that you can be in a room with 30 people at a party, but still feel that you are alone.. Ironic isn't it? since people always say that when you are surrounded by friends, you are not alone.. I am not saying being with friends is not good, it is very good that we socialise around and get to know more people.. But to have someone that trully understands what you are dealing with at the moment, to have someone that can sense that you are in pain even though you keep a smiling face in front of everyone, it is very hard to find.. I am fortunate to have one now, even though she cant sense when I am in pain or not, but being there for me when I am in with problems is enough for me.. She might not be able to totally understand what I am dealing with, but at least she trys to, and that means alot to me.. having friends like this, is an absolutely necessary in life.. I am not saying that I don't feel like I am always alone, in fact I do, but having her support and all makes it easier to deal with problems at hand..

Anyway, on a lighter note, Juz changed my blade today!.. ok, its not the sword-type of blade, but rather a table tennis bat.. the wood of the bat is called a blade.. I changed my old heavy blade to a much lighter one.. this blade uses the Arylate-Carbon technology that allows the bat to have much more control and lighter.. Arylate-Carbon is a composite that comprises of two elements, which is, well Arylate and Carbon.. Yet to try it, hopefully it works well!! I realise that I have been going for the name of the product when I choose things, not the brand, but the model name.. For instance, my table tennis rubber's name is called Hurricane and Skyline, while my current wood has the tag Torrent(almost bought this blade called Evolution, which sounds like Evo, haha!).. so what next, Kancil rubber!?

Today went to watch this movie called Lake House, starring Keanu Reeves and Sandra Bullock.. Melissa wanted to watch Just My Luck actually, but thanks to TGV's movie listing today, didn't get to watch that show.. anyway, back to the movie we watch, it was about this guy and girl that was living at the same date and time, only difference is the girl is living in 2006 while the guy is still in 2004! So the whole story is about how these two communicate through the mailbox at a lakehouse which was the guy's residence and the girl's dream house at their respective moments, how they fell in love in the process, but not being able to feel and touch, nor know where is each other.. whatever the guys has done, the girl will be able to see it, only after two years of the guy's life.. Confused already??.. Go check out the movie, to me that movie was great!! I don't know why, but I really like the movie!!

End of Holiday-post...

2006-07-16T13:46:00.000+10:00

Another 24 hours, will be the start of my Uni's second semester.. one month holiday flew past like a blink of an eye(i don't know why they called it a blink of an eye because it is not so fast!).. Really have not done much during the holidays.. main activities would be Japanese class and badminton(surprise surprise, not tennis!) every week..

Yesterday went to Bon Odori for the first time, I would say it is quite interesting albeit short and the programme didn't have much variety.. But there were certainly lots of people there! Dancing around the stage was the main event actually.. The price of food and drinks though were SUPER DUPER expensive! not that I had not expected that to happen, but this is WAY too much!.. After Bon Odori, went to meet up with Eva, Pok Xian and all at the cyber cafe nearby.. It was the second time I played DOTA, and let me tell you this, I am STILL not attracted by it!? I juz dun get the game, but although a newbie, I did help my team mates when it comes to defending the base, coz my character have this super power known as 'Frostbite' which freezes the opponent, then i would use the 'Freezing (something)' where it drops alot of ice on everyone around me!.. Of course, I was an easy meat when it comes to attacking, getting zapped, turning into a pig wil running.. and I often wander around aimlessly around the map, didn't even know that I can upgrade my spells.. all in all, a BAD game of DOTA!

Anyway, I finally got my new mp3 player!.. its the Silver colour Sony NW-E003. slick and small, plus a 1GB storage, it is the perfect player to bring around.. One thing though, is the time it takes to convert the songs into Atrac3plus and transfer them into the player.. It took my about 3 hours to transfer 400 songs, that about 45-60 seconds a song!.. it may look like a short period of time, but when u have to transfer such mass amount of songs, its SUPER long! Nevertheless, still very happy about my new mp3 player..

I am officially closing the poll, and YES I would be changing my blog layout.. Now I just have to find time to search and edit the layout.. It may take awhile people, but it will definitely happen, so wait up and continue reading this blog!..

~Cheers to a new semester at Monash University!~

World Cup...... or Wimbledon!?

2006-07-06T23:50:00.000+10:00

hey people.. time flies, really flies.. unnoticingly, three quater of my holidays are gone.. Soon, assignments and exams will come by and haunt me again.. If I think last semester's units were difficult, I have no idea what is install for me in the next semester.. Last semester, technically I only have one study subject in Management as I already have experience in Economics and Accounts, and Econs stats is more of studying anyway.. Even with such ease, I still struggled to survive (don't know if I actually survived since results is not out yet).. Imagine the next semester, ALL my units are studying subject.. Accounts B, Macroeconomics, Marketing and Business Law, man how am I gonna survive this!!??

World Cup, is turning into a field of cheats!! CRISTIANO RONALDO!! the ULTIMATE cheater among cheats.. Not content to make Rooney send off, he even winked towards the Portugal bench!.. Ok, Im not exactly an England fan, but his actions, really put him on top there with Maradona and his Hand of God..

All the attention on World Cup, I shall now talk abit about the Wimbledon Open, the only Grand Slam that is staged on grass courts.. Grass courts are mainly made of, well grass, which makes the ball less bounce and faster.. During the early days til the 20th century, players had relied on the serve-volley technique.. However, due to technology and racquet developement, players now can still maintain their baseline techniques and still have considerable success.. Anyway, enough with the introduction, let's go to the events.. As usual, several questions are to be answered..

1. Will Federer win yet another Wimbledon crown?
2. Can ANYONE detrone Federer from the Wimbledon crown?
3. Can Nadal make a successful transition from clay to grass and detrone Federer?
4. Are old power houses like Hewitt and Roddick still able to challenge Federer for the crown?
5. Can Sharapova win another Wimbledon Open?
6. Is it times up for the Williams' sisters?

Question 4 and 6 has been answered.. As Hewitt lost to current Australian Open finalist Baghdatis whooped his ass and Roddick, the finalist in the last two edition of Wimbledon, lost to local boy Andy Murray.. embarassment for the two veterans.. As for the Williams' sisters, Serena is not playing, while Venus bowed out in the first week!.. The line up for Men's singles semis is Nadal versus Baghdatis, Federer versus Bjorkman.. Women's singles semis would be Henin-Hardene versus Clijsters (which Henin-Hardene just won awhile ago) and Sharapova versus Mauresmo..

I guess the poll is rather dead right now, I shall give it one more week, and if the result still stands, I shall comply to the one with the highest vote.. its currently 3-2 for new blog layout.. For interest of new comers, u can vote on whether for this blog to remain this layout or for its layout to be changed.. vote at the tagboard please!

1st tagged post..

2006-07-02T16:26:00.000+10:00

hmm, somehow or rather, I have been tagged by Eva.. So being the good Samaritan I am, I shall respond to it..

10 years ago I was:
-this lazy brat that always gets detention class for failing to hand in my homework all the time
-first being introduced into football, Euro '96 that time
-having a crush on one of my classmates, who is such a sweet heart (no details on what happened later)

5 years ago I was:
-a form two kid
-very into football, represented my house in the inter-house competition
-still failing my Geography =.="

1 year ago I was:
-a Sunway University College student studying MUFY
-playing and won my first medal for tennis in the MUFY games, a silver.
-a representative of Sunway University College in the MAPCU Inter-College Tennis Tournament, got a silver medal with the team.

Yesterday I was:
-watching the remaining quater-finals matches of the World Cup, England lost to Portugal on penalties. Have to comment on this match! super bias referee-ing by the Argentinian referee. Have FIFA no common sense?? you cant put an Argentinian referee for a match involving England, sure to have bias-ness. The other match, France beat Brazil 1-0.
-busy toying around with my new K700i. Ok, so its not new, inherited from my dad, but so what, its still new to me!

5 most recent songs I listened to:
1. Do I Make You Proud - Taylor Hicks
2. For the First Time - Kenny Loggins (I know its old, but I still love it!!)
3. I'm Sorry - BoA
4. Jie Tuo - Zhang Hui Mei
5. Xin Xiang Quan - Jolin Tsai

5 songs I know all the words to:
1. For the First Time - Kenny Loggins (not surprised?? =P)
2. all Westlife songs from their first to the third album (was a huge fan of theirs last time)
3. From The Bottom Of My Broken Heart - Britney Spears
4. I'm Sorry - BoA (not that I can understand Korean, but I know the pronunciation haha! still counted as know the words rite?)
5. Qi Li Xiang - Jay Chou

Ideal places for running away to:
1. A nice drive, sometimes you just feel peace while you drive, but make sure you drive carefully and DONT drive to a traffic jam!
2. Asia Club(for my foosball that is =P)
3. My bedroom, somehow alot of inspiration to write when I am lying on my bed

5 things I really want:
1. a new MP3 player
2. a new Tennis racquet
3. Graduate from Monash University with High Distinction in all units for my business degree, kinda impossible, but its what I want
4. Have alot of money to help the unfortunate ones that have been suffering from natural disasters, illness and poverty in the world.
5. Streamyx!!!!!

5 things I should be doin' right now:
1. Go to gym for workout, eating alot during the holidays
2. play tennis more often, been slacking in practice lately
3. start my small 'project', dad ask me to do a research and financial analysis on the benefits of streamyx before he 'invest' in it. Basically gotta present and explain to him why Streamyx is better.
4. read up on my Japanese and practice Hiragana
5. find out about new blog layout, in case the poll results in a new blog layout, better get ready.

5 biggest joys in my life:
1. wonderful family (have to say that right?)
2. been blessed with wonderful friends that walk with me throughout my life so far
3. Have been very lucky that I did not end up being an unfortunate victim of some sort
4. A bedroom of my own where I can chill out!
5. A laptop for my own use, really happy with it!

5 people I tag:
1. Wendy
2. Andrew
3. Aaron
[3 is enough, dont wana burden so many people!]

As The Story Goes..

2006-06-30T13:21:00.000+10:00

hey people!.. ok, I know I better stop starting my post this way, getting a odd too cliche.. anyway, I stumbled upon this wonderful story, and I want to share this with all of you! Here goes..

The Man and His Son
After a few of the Sunday evening hymns, the church’s pastor slowly stood up, walked over to the pulpit and, before he gave his sermon for the evening, briefly introduced a guest minister who was in the service that evening.

In the introduction, the pastor told the congregation that the guest minister was one of his
Dearest childhood friends and that he wanted him to have a few moments to greet the church
And share whatever he felt would be appropriate for the service.

With that, an elderly man stepped up to the pulpit and began to speak.

"A father, his son, and a friend of his son were sailing off the Pacific Coast." He began, "when a fast approaching storm blocked any attempt to get back to the shore. The waves were so high, that even though the father was an experienced sailor, he could not keep the boat upright and the three were swept into the ocean as the boat capsized."

The old man hesitated for a moment, making eye contact with two teenagers who were, for the first time since the service began, looking somewhat interested in his story.

The aged minister continued with his story, "grabbing a rescue line, the father had to make the most excruciating decision of his life: To which boy he would throw the other end of the life line. He only had seconds to make the decision. The father knew that his son was a Christian and he also knew that his son’s friend was not. The agony of his decision could not be matched by the torrent of waves."

"As the father yelled out, ‘I love you, son!’ He threw out the life line to his son’s friend. By the time the father had pulled the friend back to the capsized boat, his son had disappeared beneath the raging swells into the black of night. His body was never recovered."

By this time, the two teenagers were sitting up straight in the pew, anxiously waiting for the next words to come out of the old minister’s mouth.

"The father", he continued, "knew his son would step into eternity with Jesus and he could not bear the thought of his son’s friend stepping into an eternity without Jesus…

Therefore, he sacrificed his son to save the son’s friend. How great is the love of God that He should do the same for us. Our Heavenly Father sacrificed His only begotten Son that we could be saved. I urge you to accept His offer to rescue you and take a hold of the Life Line He is throwing out to you in this service."

With that, the old man turned and sat back down in his chair as silence filled the room. The pastor again walked slowly to the pulpit and delivered a brief sermon with an invitation at the end. However, no one responded to the appeal. Within minutes after the service ended, the two teenagers were at the old man’s side.

"That was a nice story," politely stated one of the boys, "But I don’t think it was very realistic for a father to give up his only son’s life in hopes that the other boy would become a Christian."

"Well, you’ve got a point there," the old man replied, glancing down at his worn Bible. A big smile broadened his narrow face, he once again looked up at the boys and said, "It sure isn’t very realistic, is it? But I’m standing here today to tell you that story gives me a glimpse of what it must have been like for God to give up His Son for me."

"YOU SEE --- I WAS THAT FATHER AND YOUR PASTOR IS MY SON'S FRIEND."

How can you read stories like this, and not put a 100% faith in God..

Anyway, today is my dad's birthday, so HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAD!! =P

World Cup Round of 16 Update...

2006-06-27T13:57:00.000+10:00

hey people!.. this is a special update of the Round of 16 matches finished.

Germany 2-0 Sweden
I shall not comment much about this match, simply because Germany was a clear winner in this match. Only 12 minutes on and Germany was two goals up through a brace from Podolski and seem to be playing with school boys as Sweden was totally outplayed. No more goals were to follow though as Germany was contented to defend their two-nil lead. A missed penalty from Larsson pretty much sealed a terrible night for Swedish fans and sends Germany through to the Quater-finals.

Argentina 2-1 Mexico (after extra time)
This match burst right from the start. End to end football with lots of flair from the two sides, though surprisingly Mexico was dominating the early exchanges and their efforts were rewarded when captain Marquez scored through a flick on from Borgetti from the free kick. However, Crespo's(its an own goal la friend!) goal pulled the score level. Many wave of attacks came from both teams but they just could not apply finishing touches to all the fine passes. Thus, extra time along, and as the story goes, Rodrigues scored a wonder goal to book Argentina's place in the Quater-finals.

England 1-0 Ecuador
Has the England side not criticised enough? Based on this performance, the clear answer is NO! Shaky defense, toothless attack, what else is left to say in this England side? Nothing positive can be said of this performance. Only a Beckham free-kick saved England from being humiliated by Ecuador who largely dominated the attacking part of the match and went close several times. And England are still talking about winning the World Cup!? MADNESS! Questions that were still unanswered would be, 'When will Lampard ever score a goal, or even hit the target!?' and 'Is the England attack ever gonna score again!?'. Unless something happens in the England side, they would be elminated in the Quater-finals.

Portugal 1-0 Netherlands
One of the most entertaining matches so far, and its not because of football! On paper this match is dubbed as the biggest match in the competition, with both the rivalry and style of play clashing. No one had predicted that this match would be pretty, but this? out of this world! It started of brightly for Portugal when Maniche scored from some superb passing by Deco. Chances came by for Netherlands but they failed to convert it. At the end of the first half, Portugal's Costinha was the first player to be red carded from a delibrate hand ball. Second half was a complete mess, players lunging tackles that were clearly aiming for the legs instead of the ball, fights were going on between players every time a tackle is being made, all this and the referee had no control over them, thus he resorted to flashing yellow cards at every player. Red cards came for Boulahrouz(63 minutes), Deco(78 minutes) and Van Bronckhorst(95 minutes). As Dutch coach Marco Van Basten said, the referee was poor and the second half was poor as the match was largely played by the player's mouth and hands instead of the ball. A nice match for wrestling fans but a poor match for football fans.

Italy 1-0 Australia
Italy was suppose to win this match comfortably, but Australia put up a resounding effort and showed to Italy early on that they are not going to just give way easily. Even though Australia had attacks early on, it was Italy that had come close on several occasions to take the lead. Australia however had been very discipline in their defense and look as sound as the Italian defense. Australia had a huge advantage when Materazzi was given a straight red card from a reckless tackle on Bresciano. However, Australia did not capitalise on it and was punished dearly when at the last minute of regulation time, Italy was awarded a dubious penalty in my opinion. Grosso sprints into the box and fell on Lucas Neil's body. It was not like Neil had challenged and tackled Grosso, but it appears to me as if Grosso had intentionally fall on Neil to earn the penalty. Nothing can be said about the quality of Totti's penalty though as he slots it home and Italy to the Quater-finals.

Switzerland 0-0 Ukraine (0-3 after penaly shoot-out)
Not much can be commented about this match. It was largely played in the middle of the park as both teams fail to really create chances. After 120 minutes of football, it was to be decided by the first penalty shoot-out of the tournament. Shevchenko made the worst possible start for Ukraine as he missed the first kick, the second consecutively in a penalty shoot-out after his miss in the Champions' League final against Liverpool. It did not matter though, as the rest of the Ukraine kicks sailed into the net. Switzerland penalty takers however had possibly the worst 10 minutes of their lives as all of them failed to convert a single penalty!! Now how often do you see that happen?? However, Switzerland bows out of the World Cup creating history as the first team in history to exit the World Cup without conceding a goal in regulation time and also as the first team in history to exit the World Cup without scoring a penalty in a penalty shoot-out!. So, Switzerland may have thebest defense, but they also had the worst possible penalty takers. Ukraine through to the Quater-finals.

Ok, I know most of these news are in the newspapers already, just want to write in my blog for people to read, haha!

P/S: These comments are entirely my opinions, and if it offends anyone, I would thereby apologies before hand.

25-June-2006, random things for the day..

2006-06-26T00:36:00.000+10:00

hey!.. yes yes, I know you guys will be thoroughly surprised that I am updating my blog so often, haha! understandable, given that sometimes I don't update for a full month.. Maybe coz its holidays, and I have nothing else to do, so might as well blog!

Ah, blogging had developed so much over the years, particularly this two years.. Now, almost everyone has a blog of their own, whether its at blogspot.com, blogdrive.com, myspace.com or even the friendster blog.. hey, if it is able to attract me, it is THAT famous already, since Im always the one that is slow at catching up with time.. like the surge of Counter-strike, it was so popular over the years, but I oni started playing it when the fever had subdued and people had turned to other games.. While I did have abit of a success in playing the game(as in at least I don't die so many times when playing a public server and had actually topped some!), it was a wee bit too late then.. now, the craze is DOTA and online gaming, like Maple Story and all.. needless to say, the fever had not caught up to me yet, wonder when would it be!?

Yes, World Cup has entered the Round of 16, with Germany and Argentina winning their respective Round of 16 matches against Sweden and Mexico.. the match that is on now is England vs Ecuador and later the must watch cruncher, Portugal vs Netherlands.. As always, I had drawn up a prediction of the winners from Round of 16 all the way to the final, and it points out to me that Argentina has the best chance of winning, with Netherlands being the runner-up and Brazil in 3rd place and Switzerland in 4th place.. This is strictly based on statistics, and there is no biasness involved in the process of the prediction.. If there were to be biasness, I want Australia to win the World Cup, Spain in runners-up spot, England third and Argentina fourth!.. which makes more sense? the calculated prediction or the biased prediction? You decide..

Recently, my dad bought a new phone, the latest designer phone from Sony Ericsson, the W810i!!.. Due to some confusion which I will not disclose here, he ended up with TWO W810is!! So he now has a total of 5 phones including the other 3 old phones!.. he allowed my sis and I to pick one phone each, and my sis picked the T610, the red metal covered phone which was the craze among girls awhile ago.. so its left with K700i for me to inherit.. Well, because I just changed my phone, my dad wants me to only choose one, either keep my current phone, or take his K700i, in a condition that I exchange my K300i for it.. At first glance, the decision should be loud and clear, its a K700i boy! wat's there to think?? Benefits for choosing K700i would be that there is bluetooth, flash for the camera and its an original set.. But, there are also some factors that points that I should stick to K300i, like there is the concern of the age of phone, as you all know, the joystick of the sony ericsson is slightly poor, therefore my phone would be better because its still new.. Another factor is that I bought this phone with my OWN money, as you guys may not know, I always have a sentiment towards my things, like all of them have a feeling and connection to me, so by letting go of this phone, I feel like Im disappointing the hope that the phone harbors on me.. DONT LAUGH! Its really how I feel!!

Anyway, the vote now stands at 3-2 in favour of a new layout, will it be a new layout, or would the party that supports this pink layout stage a comeback.. REMEMBER, first to win by 2 clear votes wins, so for those who have not voted, please vote at the tagboard!!

Hajimemashite!! Nihongo!

2006-06-23T03:04:00.000+10:00

hey ppl!..yes, as you can see above, I had finally started my Japanese class today!.. Hajimemashite means How Are You.. I have to admit, Japanese is tougher than I thought, just the first class, and I find myself having difficulties trying to understand everything that was taught by sensē(teacher).. I think its even more difficult than bloody Management! at least I understand the English in Management.. But no pain no gain right? If I dont suffer now, I wont be able to achieve greater heights by understanding another language.. PLUS, Im sick of just being able to smile at the Japs when they greet me, I want to communicate with them!

World Cup group stages is coming to an end, soon it will be the killing knockout stages!.. Some surprises have come along, Ecuador's progression to the last 16, France still failing to win in 5 World Cup matches, and Ghana will be going into the last 16 as the only African Nation left in this edition's World Cup.. familiar big-guns however were not troubled, teams like Argentina, Spain and Germany has showed plenty of promise, while the likes of Brazil, England and Italy, though not making that much of headlines, have steadily qualified for the last 16.. hopefully the last 16 will not be disappointing!

The poll for the decision for a new layout or not has been rather poor, but what do I expect when not so many people knows my blog.. Anyway, the poll closes when there is a clear winner by 2 votes, which I think will be hard to achieve, so people, please vote!!

POST-exam POST

2006-06-16T00:26:00.000+10:00

hey people!.. just realised that for the last two post I started this way too, so might as well keep up the habit, haha! Sorry for my insanity, post-exam syndrome this.. YES, I officially finished exam! no words can be used to describe how I felt when the invigilator took my script book away from my desk!

So, this month is only about one thing and one thing only in everyone's mind, WORLD CUP! the single sport currently that unites all races of all countries, ask anyone the score and they will tell you first hand like a scoreboard hung out on their faces, in a good way that is.. I did catch up on a few matches, but most of the time my mom would watch her shows during the World Cup matches time, don't tell me how wrong that is, her chinese drama that will probably be repeated countless of times, in her opinion is more important than World Cup that happens every four years! you tell me..

My dad has asked me to predict the scores, not winners of all first round matches, SADLY, i predict an amazing NONE correct in them so far! PATHETIC! well, thankfully the football world is not surrounded by my predictions, or it would be plain boring!..

Ok, now comes my holiday plans.. 1st, I want to train my tennis to be top notch again! Initially I would like to train in order to get into the Monash tennis team for MAPCU, however, they had since told me because of lack of interest from other players, they had decided not to send a team, dashing my hopes of being in MAPCU again, haih!.. the bright side is, this gives me more time to focus on the sports carnival that is to be held in August, hopefully I'll do well then, would like to join badminton and table tennis too in the sports carnival, if permittable..

2nd would be to learn Japanese!.. Yes, I had always wanted to learn a different language, and now that I have another friend who is also interested in learning Japanese, PERFECT! so far, I only know Mushi Mushi(hello) and Sayonara(Good Bye).. yea I know its pathetic.. no worries, three months from now I'll speak Japanese to you guys, i HOPE!

Recently I have been confronted by ADP's Director Pok and Director Dom regarding my pink blog layout.. I would like to post a survey to everyone that comes here, to change or NOT to change my pink blog layout, place ur votes at the tagboard, I will tally them at one unknown point and make my decision based on that.. see, that makes it everyone's blog (hope ADP wont sue me for being the back-up member starting something like this!)

Pre-Exam post

2006-06-04T01:58:00.000+10:00

hey people!.. I know this is the most awkward time to post, since Im like 4 days away from my first paper, but I am really bored stiff and in need of some excitement..

So, I have been home alone since Friday, For most of you, days without parents may be very heavenly and perfect time to party!.. HOWEVER, it was and IS never the case for me.. Life without my family is like a relief, but I DON'T go around partying till late night, in fact, I do the exact opposite of it!.. I just like to stay at home during those times, enjoy the peacefulness, switching on the hi-fi and listen to some nice music while sleeping on the couch, no humans moving around, no "let's go out for dinner for family together" kinda thing which I totally dislike, since everytime we eat, they would comment on something and criticise it till it frustrates you.. Yes, I prefer to just sit at a restaurant alone, looking at all the different lives move along with theirs, somehow those moments, I love them.. You might say that "geez, this guy is super sad man, loner'.. but I am most certainly happy with that.. of coz, if I have a girlfriend, then I wont be like that la, but now i dont, so im entitled to do so =P

Went with Darren yesterday to Low Yat, man! that place make me sad! not because the place was pathetic, but more like I AM pathetic when it comes to computers!! I used to be super duper good when it comes to computers, especially the hardware part, because I had, HAD extreme interest in it.. and I would search online for all the information on the current hardware.. NOW? im reduced to this guy who didn't know that what the hell are the numbers about in a RAM name, say DDR 400, I din even know what the hell is the 400 about!? sad but true..

World Cup is coming soon, 6 more days to go! which team do you support? the usual big boys like regular winners Brazil, glamorous England, tight shirts Italy or regular failures Spain? Or the underdogs Japan and Australia?.. ME? im sorry, i don't support any countries, period. Hope your team wins and all the best for Monashians who are gonna face your exams next few weeks!

~This blog will be closed until June 13 when I finish my exams, please be patient!~

Blood Donation joke..

2006-05-12T23:06:00.000+10:00

hey ppl!.. yes yes, i know its been almost a month since my last update, really sorry bout it.. ASSIGNMENTS came like bullets during war time, you cant dodge it, but are force to face it.. ok, assignments on Management, Econs Stats and Microeconomics are finally over, with the last assignment being Accounts.. Cant help but feel very relieved that I manage to get through 7 torturing assignments..

Ok, interesting events since the last time I updated, Some things had made me realise that I must cherish GOOD friends.. This came after some BAD friends did really stupid things and pull me along.. Details of it however shall remain P&C. Seriously, friends that are there for you, laugh when u are happy, care when u are feeling down, is really hard to find, when u find 1 or more of them, please treat them with care!..

I juz realised that I have not exercised for a month!.. No wonder Im getting fatter nowadays.. lack of tennis and all the late night suppers due to assignments certainly caused this to happen (90% is due to laziness!).. PLUS, i don't really play table tennis, further lacking in exercise.. The reason? too lousy la me, pai se to play with Darren and all also.. Even lost to Adam that day.. haihz..

Today, went for blood donation, super funny man!.. went there early, so was one of the first to do blood donation, lying down, 1 nurse came and tried to look for the vein on my left hand for her to insert the needle.. after awhile, she still cant find, on came the chief nurse, surprisingly, she cant find too!!.. so they decided to use my right hand instead, after alot of effort, they finally found one, so in went the needle and the blood started flowing into the packet.. In the beginning, the nurse who attended me was saying that my blood was flowing very fast.. HOWEVER, after about 10 minutes, the nurse and the chief nurse came, and they were quite surprised that now, my blood doesn't flow in anymore!!.. haha, then, 2 more nurses came to attend to me!! it was hilarious man, its like an emergency and all the nurse rush to help me, haha!!.. anyway, they kept fiddling with the needle that was still in my vein, trying to find the right spot so that the blood will start flowing in again.. imagine, my blood actually STOPPED flowing into the packet!.. so after 15 minutes trying to figure it out (and constantly ask me if im in pain or not from their fiddling of the needle), they decided that I should stop, so i ended up oni donating half a packet of blood, sigh!!.. After that, I told my dad, that next time when the doctor takes my blood, I will make sure the doctor put a scar there so that I know where to point to the nurse regarding which vein to take!..

Untitled..

2006-04-16T01:08:00.000+10:00

hey ppl!.. yes, I realise its been VERY long since i last updated.. really sorry for the extended delay.. so, recent events? round 1 of assignments are over.. when i hand in the final Assignment 1, for Accounts, there was a sense of relief that its finally done, but it also struck me that this means that the Finals is inching closer, about a month or so.. seems like yesterday that I first entered primary school, here I am, a University student pursuing a degree, ready to enter the real world.. time flies, it really flies!.. All those times when I feel like time isn't moving quick enough, like the exam periods, the detention sessions, the tuition times.. I know feel like going back to those times, painful but nice memories.. I remember this one Chinese tuition teacher, whom I fear of meeting her every single week!.. Seriosly, whenever the thought of her coming to my house the net morning comes to my mind, I wont be able to sleep that night, its that bad!.. But I have to thank her too, or else I would have flunked my Chinese..

Well, as round 1 of assignments are done, we have to prepare for the round 2 of assignments.. the first being Management assignment which is due in a week's time(which of coz I have not done anything yet!!).. thank goodness next week is holiday, which gives me some time to do work(hopefully!).. The thought of assignments is seriously giving me goosebumps.. its like Doom's day everytime the due date is here..

Lately my eye sight has been poor, most notably during foosball and table tennis.. When I play foosball, somehow i cant seem to get the ball right to where I want, or shoot the way I want(maybe its my lack of skill!), table tennis too!.. luckily, I'll be collecting my new specs tomorrow, hopefully it'll give me perfect eye sight for foosball, Opps sorry, studies I mean =p..

Anyway, its Easter tomorrow!!.. I ran some research on Easter due to the fact that I'm still not very familiar with Easter.. It is said to be the holiest Christian holidays.. Easter Day is said to be The Sunday of the Resurrection, which means we celebrate the resurrection of Jesus Christ.. This is not new info for most of the people, but its just some thoughts I gathered from the research, I don't want to post everything out, it would be too long, so people who don't know, RESEARCH!!.. Happy Easter everyone!!

Melbourne Commonwealth Games 2006

2006-03-27T03:09:00.000+10:00

1:09am.. yes, its already a monday morning, yet Im still typing this post.. haha! too bored i guess.. In exactly 10 hours time, Ill have my Business and Econs stats practice test.. Of course, as the man I was, I did not study for it, focusing on watching the Commonwealth Games final day action.. Much can be said about this edition of the Commonwealth Games which was held at Melbourne.. Malaysia surprised the rest of the contingents with a gold on the first day with weight-lifting.. Overall, Malaysia, in my opinion, did fairly well.. Golds in badminton were expected, with 4 golds coming from the all-Malaysian finals in the Men's Singles and Doubles.. we also grabbed Gold in the women's Doubles and Mixed team event.. 2 golds came from Lawn bowl.. However, the star for Malaysia, no doubt is Bryan Nickson, who competed in the men's 10m platform and men's synchronised 10m platform.. Competing against opponents almost twice his age, he showed a display that amazed everyone.. while he might have lost out by being 6th in the men's 10m platform, it must be reminded that his competitors are way more experienced and all of them had dived amazingly for the event.. imagine their scores are actually almost perfect in some dives.. in the men's synchronised 10m platform, he and his partner(cant remember his name!!), though did not threaten the Gold medal winners, they were not threaten as well by anyone for their silver medal spot.. they too had dived some of the most amazing dives the history have ever seen.. on the last dive, they were that good, they scored the highest score in the whole event!.. Yes, they were that good!

Honestly, Im not sure why, but I was hoping for the 'Negaraku' to be played on the podium whenever there was a Malaysian competing in any event.. Yes, I admit, I am very patriotic when it comes to Malaysia in sports.. Somehow whenever I see any Malaysians playing in any event, I will automatically root for them.. Even if they had no chance of winning, its just that feeling that is so great in supporting your own country's representative.. Even when I went to watch the friendly between Manchester United vs Malaysia a few years back, even though almost the whole stadium were rooting for Manchester United, my friends and I strapped on a yellow head band and wearing the yellow shirt and waved the Malaysia flag.. Yes, we cheered strongly for Malaysia.. So much in fact, that some of the Manchester United fans who sat behind us actually started cheering for Malaysia with us!! haha, I will always remember that incident!.. Anyway, this was how Malaysia fared in the whole Melbourne Commonwealth Games 2006 :

Not too bad.. 8th in the whole Games.. 7 gold, could have had more if the squash team did not disappoint and the near miss in weight-lifting where Malaysia lost out on gold by just 1kg.. well, it was still a great performance, so MALAYSIA BOLEH!!

Anyway, watched the closing ceremony of the Commonwealth Games just now.. I personally felt that the performances was kinda odd.. But there was this one song I absolutely love and I've just downloaded and playing in my comp now.. Casey Donovan - Better To Love.. the Live version was better i feel, but this is fine anyway.. While I was searching on the net, I found out that she is the Australian Idol!.. How come people here in Malaysia knows of the latest American Idol, where the country is thousands of miles away, while the only Australian Idol we know is Guy Sebastian, where the country is juz separated by Indonesia?.. weird don't u think?? Wonder if those people in Australia know that Malaysian Idol even exist!??

Management(!!!!)...

2006-03-25T15:28:00.000+10:00

It was the first assignment to be handed in, management assignment.. Boy it was DIFFICULT!! I know im not in a position to rant about it, since I did leave it to the very last minute to complete it.. It was a real struggle, failing to find any related articles even though You try REALLY hard and spend countless hours is mentally torturing!.. And to even read every single article that you find might be useful, but find out that nothing in the article can be used!.. it will drive anyone mad!

Yes, Im not exagerrating it!.. Just ask every student that took management to tell you the difficulty of this.. Not only is there articles we have to find, we also have to comply to the rule that the journals have to be recent! It is totally insane!.. To even find a journal article is difficult is difficult enough, let alone finding something that is recent!..

For 2 nights, Wednesday and Thursday night, you can see everyone online, that is because everyone is finding ways and means to write the essay!.. for that 2 days, everyone's mind was only thinking of 1 thing, Management! Of course, thursday night i went to Asia for some foos to release some frustration =P, but that still does not contribute to the late nights..

Anyway, thank God its over!.. the minute we dropped the assignment in the box, a huge sense of relief ran through our minds!.. for me, its exactly like the feeling of handing in the last paper for SPM! absolutely soothing!.. I know this is only the first of many assignments that I have to face for the next 3 years, but its still nice to feel this way! Once I get used to it, then I wont get this kinda feeling, coz it would have been a norm already..

So, last saturday, went to catch Underworld 2:Evolution.. It was a brilliant end to the story.. Who would have thought that Marcus was the first true Vampire, not Viktor.. and Who would have thought that Alexander Corvinus was still alive, cleaning up the mess that his sons, Marcus(later turned into a hybrid) and William(first true werewolf!) had made.. and Michael's power really is limitless.. I shall not say any further, in case there are people who have not seen the movie.. What i CAN say is, GO WATCH IF U HAVE NOT!!!

Bad Influence..

2006-03-17T00:35:00.000+10:00

Yes, as the title goes, Im gonna talk about MY bad influences on my friends.. This is quite a serious issue for me.. I was gonna like write my good influences on my friends first before the bad ones, then i thought for a very long time before concluding that I have not influenced my friends in a good way in any manner!! Sad but true..

Lets not talk about the past first.. Just last Tuesday, even though my class actually starts at 4pm, For the kick of it, I came at 8.30am! Well, I was really REALLY planning to spend my time finding journals and doing some work in the library.. Obviously, i DIDN'T! played ping pong with Darren from 9.30am onwards.. as we play and play, then we realise that Darren had lecture at 11am.. but he proceeded to skipping it! Later, Aaron came too.. God knows why all of a sudden I had a strong urge to go Asia!!.. Even though they both were very reluctant to go, i practically FORCED, yes u heard it.. FORCED them to go!.. When we went there, Aaron told us that he had to go back to Uni for his management group activity.. I don't know why I started telling him to skip it for somemore time in Asia!! And so he ended up skipping the activity!.. When Im thinking and typing now, words cannot describe how guilty I am for influencing them this way! Its like Im playing with their minds and all!!.. What have become of me!? I cant control my urge?? I've become such a DEVIL!?

Not only that issue actually.. Past history has also revealed that I AM a bad influence.. Example, getting Bryan to be addicted to Foosball.. Before he actually knew me, he was this fella who was hardworking and also in the library studying.. After knowing me, gone were the days where he was very diligent and hardworking, it was replaced by a guy who hangs out in the foosball table so often that his studies suffered.. YES! it was me who influenced him to do so!.. ME!..

Of coz, there are a lot more cases of such that supports the fact that I am a bad influence to my friends.. Maybe I should stay away from them, so that they will not be influenced by me.. Maybe if Im not hanging out with them often, then their studies will improve.. Maybe, I should just disappear from them, so that they will live a better life.. (Confused and blur in the mind right now on this!)..

The Beginning of the End..

2006-03-10T22:42:00.000+10:00

My apologies for not updating, its not that i don't have time to update, its more of coz life in Uni now is like a routine.. Everyday class, work, home.. guess its gonna be this monotenous for the next 3 years, luckily i have friends like Bryan and Melissa, making classes less boring.. Cheers guys!!

Juz realised that this is the third time that i have to apologies for not updating regularly.. well, this phenomena(wah so serious!?) may go on for the next 3 years, partly due to the insanity of assignment deadlines and the difficulty of finding the right articles in journals that are necessary for the assignments!.. Seriously, the process of finding the right article in the right journal is not as easy as one thinks! Its not as easy as typing the journal name into the box in GOOGLE and click search and vola!, the article is there(Puan Nor, 2006)[have to learn how to cite properly in essays right? =P].. NO! As i experienced on thursday, it was not at all simple!.. in fact, it seemed impossible!.. Journals that were recommended in the Unit Outline are clearly useless, or maybe i did not fully understand what the question exactly wants(dumb me!).. Anyway, Bryan managed to find a textbook that had the info that we need, unfortunately the cited articles are from journals from 1971-1972.. Of coz, we were unable to locate the journal in the library, so all the effort gone down the drain, AGAIN! Honestly i was extremely frustrated, even though i know it will not solve anything, and im not the only one who will face this problem.. But i cant help but feel totally hopeless and useless in doing stuff like that, its like i cant help out in anything even if i try my best.. sorry Bryan and Melissa for failing u guys!...

Anyway, its been awhile since i played competitive tennis.. Due to the lost of my great pal Mr. Leow, who has gone to Perth to further his studies and his tennis career, i had somehhow lost the initiative to play.. Plus, no one stays near me plays tennis, except Adam and Dom.. But not to offend both of them, I need some of the same level or higher to play with if i want to continue to be competitive.. On top of that, i cant afford to train every week anymore, coz now one class is 60 bucks fully on me.. therefore i have to practically save up money from every week in order to pay and play.. Yes, it is that sad now my tennis career.. Furthermore, my right ankle hurts every time i push myself, so pain that i had to wear ankle guard.. and most of the time this affects my overall performance.. Maybe this is an indication that my un-illustrious tennis career is actually coming to an end.. The End.......

27th February 2006.. thoughts of the day..

2006-02-28T00:05:00.000+10:00

So so.. been so long since i blogged.. cant really blame me, been really busy during Orientation.. oh crap, i didn't even attend half of it!.. ah nvm, it didn't really matter anyway, besides im not the only one who skipped it.. Honestly, the Orientation was kinda pointless, speeches after speeches came, most of them were useless, not to forget L.A.M.E. MUSA for coming up with such 'grown-up' game like passing the rubber band with the straw in the mouth!! Gosh, we planned that for House Of Joy kids during our moral projects.. KIDS!! Of coz, i have to admit that Wendy was right that we were abit anti-social for not attending the School of Business activities where it was suppose to be like Building Bridges in MUFY, but to me, it was kinda pointless.. Even if we are suppose to be able to make new friends that are in your group, i don't really think that's possible if we don't click... i remember during the Building Bridges session in MUFY Orientation, i was assigned to a group where i didn't know anyone.. AND after that, i did not even remember WHO was in my group!!.. Ok, so YK was in my group, but i only got to know him because we were in the same econs class.. NOT because of Building Bridges!!..

Alright, enough of that.. Today was my first day of University life.. i gotta admit i was kinda excited to enter Uni, even though i don't know why.. Started with Business and Econs Stats tutorial in the computer lab.. went in, realise that the tutor is of the same surname as me!.. first day of tutorial, my god, guess wat he taught!?.. Excel from the basics.. *smack on the forehead*.. for 2 hours we were juz meddling around with Excel, almost fell asleep man!!.. Next class was the Intro Microeconomics lecture, oh my god!!.. super packed man!.. anyway, the fella juz explained the course outline for 20 minutes and he is off teaching edi.. thankfully i did Economics during MUFY, or else i won't understand what he's saying since he seems to just glance through the outline of the chapters.. imagine learning 2 full chapters on the first day!.. somehow i feel that his teaching is not sufficient and that i have to get the textbook and read it in order to understand..

Oh yea, almost forgot, had a scare when i was leaving Uni.. i parked in the Sunway Hostel parking in the morning.. simply because the boom gate was open and i saw a few cars driving in without scanning cards, so i thought the college was so generous today and allowed us to park there instead of Elephant Walk.. well, of coz i found out later they were NOT so kind!.. the guards were talking about making a report and a fine imposed and all, but in the end they allowed me to leave.. thankfully Bryan and Melissa was with me.. was suppose to send them to Elephant Walk(haha!).. Great friends whom waited in the car with me till the matter was resolved(or coz still wana sit my car to Elephant Walk coz it was too hot to walk there!?).. anyway juz wana thank them for today ;)

The beginning of the journey towards Uni..

2006-02-16T12:30:00.000+10:00

oh my, juz realise it was almost 2 weeks since i last updated.. forgive me ppl!.. excessive holiday can lead to brain degration, which ultimately leads to memory lost(din i always have short term memory??).. seriously, this holiday, i had done nothing but hanging out in shopping malls, playing tennis and watching tv.. these activities certainly made my brains slower.. Well, even if i were doing the same things, i still feel this 3 months holiday is the best, even better than the one after SPM.. i think its because now i can drive, which allows me to go anywhere i want, making it extra exciting!.. Anyway, Uni is starting in 4 days time, heck im definitely not ready for it in any form!.. however, i kinda look forward to it too, coz i want to work my brains again, re-ignite the engine(duno will take how long, haha!)..

Uni starting, which means people are also leaving to other parts of the world to pursue their uni studies.. Notably James(=P) Pua and G-mun.. they will be leaving in 6 and a half hours time from now.. even if it sounds Gay-ish, im still gonna say this, im gonna miss u guys man!!.. Especially G-mun, i appreciate all that you have done, helping me durin my not so good times, encouraging me to study and helping me in everyway possible, take care mate!! As for James, well, i din really know him until the second half of the year, its a good thing that ur leaving dude, coz then you dont need to listen to my crap yea?..

Another person that is leaving is my very own good pal Mr.Leow.. My tennis partner and great friend, i would have gone with him if i had gotten Melbourne Uni, of coz i din get it and he opted for UWA in Perth, he is the odd fella that rejected Melbourne Uni for UWA in Perth?.. we here can never understand why, haha!.. Anyway, all the best bro, ill be waiting to play the OBD Tennis Masters Cup 2006 June Edition.. it is a little early to play the OBD Team Cup 2006 don't u think?.. haha..

So Chinese New Year came and gone, but this will go down as the only time where i actually won money during Chinese New Year.. I usually avoid gambling during Chinese New Year because of my bad gambling luck(runs throughout the year!).. this year was slightly different, i gambled during James Pua's farewell party.. but this is the interesting part, because the table was full and there were no chairs, i opted to juz put the 1 ringgit note there and let Darren take the card for me while i watch football.. surprise surprise, i only bet for 3 rounds, but i won 5 bucks!.. twice i got 21 and once 20.. and the sad part is poor old Darren actually lost money! story of the year man!!.. haha, Ken and Darren muz be flipping by now!..

On to yesterday, went with Bryan to pay our MPPJ and police summon.. there is something i have say about the police summon, he juz realised he had to pay the summon last week when he told me about it, he thought its juz some nice courteous NOTICE that he had made a traffic offence for illegal parking(haha!).. anyway, i asked to see his parking summon, turns out he got the traffic summon on the same time, same day, same place, and by the same policemen!! So, where i am?. oh ya, yesterday.. well, went to MPPJ at Jalan Sultan to pay off our MPPJ summon.. Mine was RM100 while he had 2 tickets worth RM60 in total.. Surprise again!.. they actually gave me a discount of RM70 to paying juz RM30!.. poor Bryan only had a cut of RM20, so he had to pay RM40!.. traffic summon was RM70, and we were both thinking that our licence will be revoked because we did not pay for so long!(imagine since 11 November 2005).. turns out, they din even bother to take down our licence number!.. stupid cops!.. well, at least we can have peace in mind that we know we are now 'clean' from any traffic offence going into Uni..

o2jam!!.. boy it was fun!.. had a go at it in Bryan's house yesterday.. well, i guess i can only play in his house, since mine is a dial-up, it will take DAYS to actually juz finish downloading the Setup file!.. not to mention i have to download the clips as well.. guess i wont be an expert o2jammer anytime soon!!.. haha!..

OBD Tennis Masters Cup 2005/2006 final..

2006-02-04T17:20:00.000+10:00

(lifts up blistered hands) Yes, you read it right, after three posts asking ah pok, we finally played the OBD Tennis Masters Cup Final 2005/2006.. it is 2005/2006 because this is suppose to settle the score for 2005, but because of our laziness, we played the final in 2006, hence its 2005/2006.. Ah Pok even mentioned that we will do an OBD TEnnis Masters Cup 2006 June edition when he comes back in June, but it is still highly speculative.. back to the topic, for those who don't know what is this about, this is a prestigious competition piting only two of the finest talent in tennis(coz there are only two players! =P), there can be no second place, because second means last!!

Warm up started at 4pm, with the sun shining brightly, the two competitors walked into the court, knowing that this day is the most important tennis match yet, and it is going to be a brutal one, battling not only with the opponent, but with the heat as well(coz we are not fit! haha..).. after 20 minutes of warm up, it was me who started serving.. even though i knew that i always lose my serve if i served first, i decided to give it a try.. thankfully, i served quite well, even getting a few aces, as i blazed through the first set, hitting a couple of winners as ah pok struggled to hang on.. First set was over quickly, only took 30 minutes as i wrapped it up 6-2..

Second set starts with the sun now at full blast, for the info, imagine the sun at 2pm.. Yes, it was THAT hot!!.. so off to the second set, with me feeling confident after winning the first set comfortably.. but things turned for the worst for me, a sudden pain in the ankle on the first game when i was serving hampered me throughout the match.. i could not move much, nor can i serve well as i was trying to avoid putting pressure on my right ankle.. besides, my hand was now covered with blisters which hurt so badly every time i hit the ball.. Sensing my discomfort, ah pok quickly capitalise on my weakness and started hitting heavier balls to me, with the occasional drop shots.. However, because of his enthusiasm, he too made a handful of errors, causing him precious points as i try to hang on dearly.. breaks of serve came almost in every game, except when we were at 5-5, i wasted a few break points, allowing ah pok to hold serve, so it is up to me to hold.. boy was it difficult, but somehow i managed to fight my way through and hold serve, sending this second set to a tie break..

Knowing that i don't have much water left, i had to win this set.. however, it was a tie breaker!, for those who read my post some time ago, i had problems when it comes to tie breakers.. in fact, i had never won any tie breakers on my whole life!!.. so, i prayed, and juz hope that i can win this tie break in this important match.. haha, here comes the funny part, i had a slice of luck.. when ah pok was standing at that side of the court, the sun was shining brightly on his side, but when we change sides at 5-1 to me, the sun shine had actually subdued!! sensing this, i suddenly felt like this is my chance.. and IT WAS!.. after 3 years of waiting, i FINALLY WON a tie breaker, taking the set and match 6-2, 7-6(7-3) in 2 hours time!.. i was so happy, as i was able to battle and won over both my demons, serving first and tie breakers.. you might find that its normal, but imagine having this hamperring your game for 3 years.. its nuts man!.. of course, i must give credit to Ah Pok, for giving me such a good fight in the second set, and gave me countless of blisters on my hand and feet, plus an ankle injury, i almost freaked out man, because you were so close to me and i wasn't able to hold serve, Kudos to you man!!..

Anyway, on to other topics, the first week of Chinese New Year was boring, most of the time we just stayed at home do nothing, hopefully the second week get to spend some time with my friends, but at least i have one target to look forward to, getting my Sony Ericsson K300i!!.. Yes yes, i know that model is quite old already, but it is the cheapest model i can find with the features they have.. imagine a phone with a decent camera, java, wap 2.0, Mp3/MPEG4 player.. all this for the price of 500, pretty good.. still scouting for a cheaper price hopefully can find one under 500!. ;)

haha, according to Wendy, i should be a tennis journalist, it is a brilliant idea!.. anyone knows any agencies that handle this kind of things, want to try my hands on them, since im still having holidays, might as well do something useful.. plus, if im good, i can even make a career out of it!.. so ppl, watch out for the name CHOONG ZHEN HAN printed on the articles and news!! ;) God bless! haha...

Australian Open Pt.2... CNY!?

2006-01-28T00:40:00.000+10:00

Chinese New Year!!.. haha, the only thing i suppose is nice during this period of time are the ang paus' we are gonna receive.. I guess as people grow older, we tend to lose that feeling of anxiousness in anticipation of Chinese New Year.. those were the days where I used to help my family HAPPILY decorate the house, make sure everything is in place.. Now, i juz cant get myself to do all those anymore.. I juz feel that Chinese New Year or not, we still have to get through life, problems will still come whether u want it or not, coz its not like the time will stop for that period of 15 days and allow us to celebrate with no worries at all.. i know this is a very sad and pathetic way of thinking about Chinese New Year, and i know that ME being a Chinese should be happy and joyous of this festival.. Yet, i cant help myself but think otherwise.. No matter how hard i try, i never can think anything positive, choosing to look to the worst.. Its not like I have done nothing and fret about this, help books and internet articles have all been read and searched, yet i could not find a solution.. the bible helped abit, but it still did not change the fact that im an extreme pessimist!!

Anyway, cut the sad part out, lets juz leave it at that.. lets talk about Australian Open!.. My oh My! surprises after another came for us viewers to savour.. the second week of tennis was just as exciting as the first week, if not more.. Hingis losing wasn't a great thing, but at least she lost to a great player in Clijsters, and she did not lose without fighting.. Too bad for Clijsters that she had to withdraw her semi final's match against Mauresmo because she fell and hurt her ankle.. wat a waste and a sad end to her Australian Open charge.. On the womens' doubles!!.. believe it or not.. we have an Asian Grand Slam winner!.. The Chinese ladies struck gold against the more fancied opponent, Lisa Raymond and Stousier.. my question is, when is Malaysia gonna have a winner in a Grand Slam.. In fact, i should be saying this, When is Malaysia gonna have a Grand Slam participant.. honestly i am utterly disgraced by Malaysia's inability to produce capable tennis players in the international stage!.. Come On Malaysia!!

On the men's draw, Baghdatis continues his quest of being the unseeded player to win the Australian Open!.. he is truly amazing.. he took out 3 highly seeded players(Roddick seeded 3rd, Ljubicic seeded 7th and Nalbandian seeded 5th).. if he could go one better and beat Federer, i have nothing to say but salute him.. every round everyone brushed him aside as an easy opponent, yet he was able to kick their ass to bits!.. questions though has been raised as does he possess the knowledge to beat Federer? this is because he play based on the heart and the enormous support from the crowd, however his game lacks variety.. we will see.. the Men's Finals is on Sunday on Channel 82, people, stop watching Chinese New Year programmes and watch the Australian Open final!! For more info on the progress of Australian Open please visit www.australianopen.com!! Happy watching everyone and hope YOUR Chinese New Year is fun fun fun!..

Australian Open.. No plot!?

2006-01-23T02:07:00.000+10:00

As I did a US Open coverage, i think its only fair that I give the Australian Open its fair share of blog coverage.. unlike the US Open where i suspected that the US purposely made the draw in order to put at least a player from US into the US Open final, i think the Australian Tennis Assosiation did not have a strategy or a plot at all to put an Australian into the Australian Open final!.. why? Becoz by the third round, there are no Australian's left in the men's singles!! Yes, u heard it, NO AUSTRALIAN PLAYERS IN THE FOURTH ROUND!! how can this happen!?.. Hewitt, a finalist in this event a year ago, is out in the first week already?.. and some unknown player whom i didn't even know he was Australian called Peter Luczak(sounds very Slovakian!) only managed to the fourth round.. haha, maybe they were thinking of playing fairly, What The Hell man!?.. You should have taken a hint from the US and plan your draw in such a way that an Australian is at least guaranteed in the semis.. gues the Aussies aint that smart after all?.. hahaha.. i shall not comment any further, since im in an Australian university.. dun wana get kicked out of it haha..

On the women's side.. the russians are dominating, with a potential all Russian final on the cards.. however, the most important and by far has garned the most attention is the steady progress of Swiss Goddess(according to ah pok!), Martina Hingis!.. she is freaking good man!.. she breezed past everyone so far in straight sets to reach the fourth round to meet the final remaining player from Australia, Samantha Stosur.. judging from her display for the past week, she has really picked up the pace!.. Ok, so she did not meet any strong opponents so far.. Ok, she have not met any seeded player.. still, she totally kicked the ass of everyone coming her way.. the incredible dominance of the Swisses, Roger Federer and Martina Hingis is definitely on!!

P/s: Oh My God! for the third time ah pok, when are we gonna play our OBD Tennis Masters Cup final!?.. the rate we are going, it will never come man!

15-Jan-2006.. (frustration!)

2006-01-15T19:38:00.000+10:00

hmm.. very unusual for me to post twice in two consecutive days, but i had to do something, so here i am.. well, as the tone said, im having one of those the-world-is-against-me and the-world-dislikes-me kind of days, not because anything bad happening, its because NOTHING happened today!.. get me, NOTHING!.. well, some of you might say 'hey, its good that nothing happens, at least you get peace' or 'hey, nothing happened is better than something bad happened you know'.. i agree with both of them, but i still feel moody.. maybe im being an idiot thinking that im not worthy of any good things to happen, but i just cant help it..

Well, there was suppose to be tennis today, all geared up, ready to go for a nice round of tennis with Darren.. but fate has a cruel way of dealing with things, just when it was about time, it RAINED! and no Darren, im not here to blame you k, it was not your fault at all that we were unable to play, it is just my frustration that fate has to take away the one thing that I was looking forward to today.. so I end up staying at home, failing to play tennis and go to 1u with my family, facing this stupid laptop and on9, while hammering the buttons on the remote control, hoping for some nice TV programmes to come up.. but NO!.. no tennis, no football, not even a nice Music Video to watch! all there was is golf, australian football(which i think its the dumbest sport i have ever seen!) and some boring Italian football where i have not even heard of the teams playing.. then i thought 'Hey, maybe the three movie channels have something to offer for me!'.. so off i went to check the channel guide.. and it failed me!.. there was nothing.. NOTHING for me!..

As im typing this now, emotions are still unstable.. i cant even get myself to sleep for Christ sake!.. somehow, i have lost taste in everything that once meant so much to me.. Foosball, Pool, Ping Pong, even football has lost its place.. Going back to a month ago, when i face this situation, or such moody days, I can just drive all the way to SS15 to play a few rounds of foosball or pool, somehow they helped me get through the day.. or going back to even further, a year ago, I would go to the public field to have a kickabout with other nice strangers.. all this has somehow unable to lit the flame in me anymore.. Ping Pong, ah, those days in the past year, spent so much time analyzing, even got myself to buy a nice(and expensive!) bat..

The only thing that seems to interest me now is tennis.. however, it may soon be gone too, for I will lose my tennis friend in exactly 35 days due to the fact that he is leaving to Perth.. I cant say i don't feel anything, he has been such a great pal, and been such a great tennis partner, that i cant say im not gonna miss him when he has left(not in a gay manner!)..

So what else can i do!?.. What else is able to lit my burning flame again? i don't know..

Little Red......

2006-01-15T00:38:00.000+10:00

Oh.. my dear!.. it was fate that brought us together, it was fate that made me find you.. in the mist of so many choices(not much actually), i chose you, making you that special to me.. You were there for me during MUFY games, helping me get second place.. You were also there for me during the MAPCU tournament, where i also got my second silver medal playing for Sunway.. You were also there when I took a step to get coaching.. and all those memorable moments, You were always there for me when i needed you the most.. i so love You! my Little Red Reebok Tennis Shoe!!

Haha, i had to make this story, because my dear Little Red Reebok Tennis Shoe had just broken! :'(... i was so sad when i found out about it.. haihz, it served me so well, and the colour was so nice! but its fate i guess, that its time is up, that i have to let it go.. Why is life so cruel!? that i will be parted from my dear forever?..

Ok, enough of the whinings.. :P.. so, since its now broken, i have to get a new pair of tennis shoes.. Off i went to Mid Valley yesterday, went to Studio R(the place where i got a 50% discount for my last pair of tennis shoes).. looking and searching for a great deal on tennis shoes.. Adidas, Nike, Reebok, Dunlop(!?).. then i realise.. my god!! tennis shoes are all Nett Price! no discount!.. this makes the tennis shoe expensive, coz i only paid RM100 for my last pair of tennis shoes.. and now!! all the shoes are RM200 and above.. i cant get myself to pay that much for a pair of tennis shoe, so i had to forgo that idea..

Fast forward to today, went to Times Square in search of my tennis shoes.. so many sports shops man!.. sale all over!.. i was already reeling in anticipation for a steal.. how wrong i was!.. even with the sale, the price was still sky high, which made me realise that a steal of the former cannot be found anymore, so i settled to find a pair of tennis shoes in the range of RM200s.. and i found this 1 shop, quite quiet, but the range of tennis shoes was interesting, not to mention they all fit to my price range after discount.. the downside?.. it is Nike, which the coach say was comfortable, but NOT LONG LASTING AT ALL! after much thought was given, i decided to get my first pair of Nike shoes(im not joking, i have never owned any Nike shoes!).. it is white in colour with blue soles and a big tick in blue on each side of the shoe... quite interesting(not as nice as the Little Red Reebok Tennis Shoe, but ah well..).. cost me a whooping RM197!.. it better last, or im gonna go CRAZY!!

My Grown Up Christmas List - Kelly Clarkson

2006-01-08T19:37:00.000+10:00

have u ppl out there ever heard of this song called "My Grown Up Christmas List" by Kelly Clarkson(im a huge fan of her by the way :p)?.. it is suppose to be a christmas song, but she sang not for her, its for everyone out there, needing a lift of spirit from somewhere.. if u havent somehow heard of it, plz download the song.. after that, listen to the lyrics.. it goes like this..

Do you remember me
I sat upon your knee
I wrote to you
With childhood fantasies

Well, I'm all grown up now
And still need help somehow
I'm not a child
But my heart still can dream

So here's my lifelong wish
My grown up christmas list
Not for myself
But for a world in need

Chorus
No more lives torn apart
That wars would never start
And time would heal all hearts
And everyone would have a friend
And right would always win
And love would never end
This is my grown up christmas list

As children we believed
The grandest sight to see
Was something lovely
Wrapped beneath our tree

Well heaven only knows
That packages and bows
Can never heal
A hurting human soul

Chorus
No more lives torn apart
That wars would never start
And time would heal all hearts
And everyone would have a friend
And right would always win
And love would never end
This is my grown up christmas list

What is this illusion called, the innocence of youth
Maybe only in our blind belief, can we ever find the truth

Chorus
No more lives torn apart
That wars would never start
And time would heal all hearts
And everyone would have a friend
And right would always win
And love would never end, oh
This is my grown up christmas list

This is my only type of wish

This is my grown up christmas list

I find this song so appropriate to the world out there.. lets talk about the chorus line by line..

No more lives torn apart
- with natural and man-made disasters tearing human's heart apart, it is only appropriate that we include this in our wish list so that natural and man-made disasters wont come and take away precious lives!

That wars would never start
- there may not be physical war going about these days, but the war that im referring here is the battle for money, greed, status!.. some of the business men AND women will use whatever it takes at all cost to satisfy their wants, even if it means that they would have to sacrifice others in order to do so!.. which is why this has to be our wish to stop this from happening!..

And time will heal all hearts
- this is my request to everyone!.. no matter how difficult life feels right now, always remember, that time will heal everthin!.. doesn't matter whether its a bad break-up or gettin fired from a job.. juz remember.. TIME WILL HEAL ALL HEARTS!!

And everyone would have a friend
- this has got to be my ultimate wish in my christmas wish list!.. a great friend that will stand by your side all through good times and bad times is very hard to find(not to say i don't have k!).. therefore, i try to be as good a friend as possible to everyone, coz i want to make sure as many people as possible have a friend that will stick by them through good times and not-so-good times..

And right will always win
- of coz! i wish that the right will ALWAYS win!.. it is important as the right will lead us to the right path, while the wrong, will of coz lead us to the wrong path which will spell disaster!

And love would never end
- love.. it must not end!:p.. haha, i mean, the love im talkin about is not only the romance love, but also different kinds of love.. lovin ur parents, lovin ur siblings, lovin ur friends, all this must never end!!

Ok, this post is a little weird.. so ill talk about something not so weird.. tennis! haha, well, Martina Hingis aint that bad after all!.. saw her play that day, serving was a little poor, but her shots are still as sharp as ever!.. and her movement is great!.. she may have lost in the semis, but im sure she can go far in the Australian Open that is coming up!

P/s: for the second consecutive post, im writin to ah pok.. When are we gonna have our OBD Tennis Masters Cup final man!?.. *still waiting*

First Post of 2006.. enjoy!!

2006-01-02T19:52:00.000+10:00

This particular post is not from me, but from another friend of mine who has stopped blogging.. but this post here is really meaningful, and can be linked to what im feeling right now, therefore i would want people to read it.. Hence, i shall repost this in my blog for everyone to see.. here goes..

Have you ever missed someone and felt terrible because you think that he/she doesn't miss you? Missing someone is a terrible but at the same time, sweet feeling. You will be sitting around wondering if you meant anything to him/her. Thinking if he/she ever cares about you. Rushing to the phone once it rings hoping that it's him/her. Sitting in front of the television but thinking of him/her missing the final episode of your favourite show. Laying on your bed, thinking of the last time you went out together. Thinking of how nice it will be to sit under the stars, talking about everything, your dreams, plans, future. Logging on to the internet hoping to see him/her online. When you realise that he/she isn't online, you will start worrying if he/she is okay. Missing someone is a way of growing up i guess. It exposes you to loneliness. It teaches you how to cope with being lonely and let's you know that there is actually a feeling known as emptiness. Sometimes it feels good to miss someone. You know that you really care and u indulge in the feeling of loving/caring for him/her. But missing someone and not knowing if he/she is feeling the same is terrible. You feel as if you are being left alone. So if you miss someone, tell him/her and let them know. At the same time, ask if they miss you too. Don't let the feeling of missing someone become jealousy or paranoid. If you are the one being missed and you know it, let the other party know. If you miss him/her too, tell them.Don't let them wait. God blessed...=)

Well, on the lighter note.. the tennis season is starting!! WOHOO!! finally!!.. there are many things to look forward to in this 2006 tennis season, among them :

1. Will Federer sweep all four Grand Slams this time and top the ATP rankings again?

2. Can Martina Hingis survive in today's women tour with the likes of the Williams, Davenport and a whole lot more?

3. Will Nalbandian kick Federer's ass AGAIN? (certainly looking forward to it!)

4. Will Croatia win the Davis Cup again? (shouldn't happen, but they are capable of a few surprises :P)

5. Will ANYONE other than Federer top the ATP rankings this season?

On a more personal news on tennis, my dear tennis friend, Pok Xian, will be leaving to Perth(most probably) in February, thus ending a three year battle(:P) with him in tennis.. man, im gonna miss playing with you man!.. i shall describe abit of the history of our tennis battle..

It all started on a hot day sometime in December 2002.. my first step towards the now famous tar court.. mind you, this is not a tennis court in TAR college, but real TAR like those on the road.. imagine playing tennis on it!.. so my training began, 3 times a week, 2 hours every session from 10am till 12pm(crazy huh!?).. in just a short period of 3 months, the coach thinks that im all ready to play with ah pok, who at that time has played for far longer than i could remember..

and of coz, that was the start of my total domination over ah pok in tennis! for the whole of 2003, i totally dominated!.. as ah pok said, i was the fastest learner he has every seen in tennis.. friends from our form 3 class will remember this, as i always boast in front of them that i had won ah pok in tennis.. in fact, it was so frequent till it got bored among our friends :p... haha, they actually said to ah pok: 'hey pok, when are you gonna win him man?'.. CLASSIC!.. of coz, towards the end of the year, he started winning abit, haha, guess what?.. he started winning when it was the US open season!.. that time, his idol was roddick, and thus he manage to learn the Roddick serve and used it on me!! though he could not generate that much of Aces, but his serve was scary, until i had to stand far FAR away from the court in order to be able to take his serve.. that was basically 2003, the record was probably around 20 wins for me and less than 5 wins for ah pok..

i shall not go into 2004, as it wasn't any different from 2003, i was still dominating ah pok, maybe a little less dominating as i was concentrating in my SPM(cough!!).. except for the fact that we actually played tennis DURING SPM season instead of studying with the excuse to release stress.. Hey, at least it worked, we did quite ok in our SPM!..

HAHA, i think this will be the favourite part of Pok Xian!.. 2005! this has to be ah pok's year!.. for the first time, he actually took a 3-0 lead in head-to-head record against me in the beginning of the year, and he was actually the more dominating one among both of us that year.. as it was the college year, we did not actually play as much as we wanted.. this is also the year where we actually took the effort to hire a coach to coach us.. and ah pok fully utilise it as he is getting better and better!!.. for me, i actually think that i have deproved after takin up coaching, wonder why, haihz.. but even though i did not actually dominate this year, this is by far my best year to me, as i won 2 silver medals for tennis!.. one is for the MUFY Games, the other one was for the MAPCU(Malaysia Association of Private Colleges and Universities) tennis tournament representing Sunway University College.. haha, first two medals, so it was not that bad a year right?.. don't give up ah pok! you can go to Perth and whoop their asses there and win a medal back!..

that's the history of this two excellent individuals.. two more individuals in the name of Adam and Dom are starting to enter the league and challenge both of us.. however, i doubt that they can beat us anytime soon.. anyway, feel free to call us to play doubles with u guys whenever you are ready! HAHAHAHA!!

P/s: Btw ah pok, when are we gonna have our OBD Tennis Masters Cup Final man?.. Im all ready to kick ur ass and settle our 2005 score!

China.. and a little bit of something else..

2005-12-29T00:02:00.000+10:00

back after a long holiday to shanghai.. for those who online everyday, they will realise i did not exactly dissappear from the online world for 10 days.. in fact, i onlined every single day there!! all thanks to the free wireless broadband that was available there!.. haha, i know i know.. i know how lifeless i am to be on a holiday and still online everyday.. but u cant exactly blame me as well.. by 5.30pm, that place is already completely dark! and almost all the shops are closed by 9pm!.. so how can i have any night life there?.. seriously, i cant imagine walking in Malaysia, Hong Kong or Singapore streets at 9pm and see no one around me.. freaky!

well, the 10 days was not all bad of coz, i have to admit i am pretty impressed by that place.. the weather was awesome! i did not even sweat for the whole trip.. and of coz, the food was great, and above all, CHEAP! crazy man, imagine eating all the nice expensive food that could cost u a bomb here, but will only cost u one eighth of that price there!.. and, i have to say this, the CDs there are freaking cheap!.. i cant imagine myself buying any CD in Malaysia now!

Besides that, i was also impressed by the monuments along the Bund(the street along the sides of Huangpu River).. the carvings and the paintings of the buildings were marvels to watch!

Argh! enough of Shanghai.. lets talk about Christmas.. this year's christmas was not all that good.. i mean, its not the usual christmas dinner and all, in fact, it was kinda dull.. countdown was not fun too with my family too!.. id rather countdown with Melissa on the net, but they forced me to sit with them in the dining table, so i had no choice but to stick with them, and miss the countdown with Melissa.. haihz, sorry yea!!..

back to my university problems.. the freaking Monash University letter really is killing me.. i qualify, but they reject me because of low enrollment?.. wat the hell!? now im in two minds again on whether to stay in Malaysia for at least another year or go straight to Australia.. where should i go? how should i decide?..

MUFY Graduation Night, and my views on some of my friends in MUFY!!..

2005-12-16T18:58:00.000+10:00

10 months ago, i was juz a teenager steeping into Sunway University College, starting a course called MUFY, where the studying style is far different from high school... i wouldn't say that it was all bad in the beginning.. i have another unexpected friend in the form of Tee G-Mun who was a wonderful friend and foe!!.. Fast forward 10 months later, im standing here, ready to enter Sheraton Hotel Subang to attend MUFY Graduation Night..

The MUFY Graduation Night was ok in general.. the food was quite ok i guess for their standard, except their Sze Chuan Soup!!.. it was so terrible man!.. this event was kinda special to me, as this was the first time i wore a coat and a tie to an event!.. uncomfortable it was in the beginning, but i soon got used to it anyway... the performance to me was kinda dull, should have had a band to come and play!! the awards ceremony came in the end.. and we were full of shocks when Alex won the MUFY Achievement Award for Comp Science!! Ji Keon was the expected winner for the International Achievement Awards for highest MUFY scorer in all four MUFY providers.. well, it was kinda expected because he got a score of 402! mind you, the maximum score was only 400!.. he got 402, higher than the maximum score, due to the aid of the 10% from his fifth subject, which undoubtly is a minimum of 95!.. the day ended with photo sessions by lecturers and also individual photo taking by various MUFY graduates.. lots of huges and congratulates are shared.. all in all, a good event!!

i wouldn't say i was entirely happy to end MUFY, it was kind of a mix feelings sort of things.. first of all, i'll miss the times that my friends and i spend together during the entire course.. all my friends in MUFY have been cool, special thanks here to all my MUFY friends that i have been hanging out with this whole year, Bryan, Hwa Jong, G-mun, Quinnie, Jill, Melissa, Laurence, Ken, Jay, Kai Han, Daniel, Jason, Chin Jian, Shi Min, Annabelle, Serena, Big Darren, Small Darren, Yeong Kok, Alwin(if i missed out any i apologize as i have short term memory problem! i also thank u guys!).. u guys have been the coolest gang i ever met and im proud to be part of such a wonderful circle of friends.. i shall specially mention some of my thought about certain people mentioned above :P

Bryan, Hwa Jong, Big Darren, Ken - FOOSBALL all the way man!
these few fellas are my foosball
gang, we play foosball as if our
lives depended on it!!

G-Mun - he is the first and will remain as my best mate in MUFY!
i remember us walking into MUFY knowing nothing, but now we
both came out learning the value of our friendship, FRIENDS
FOREVER!!

Quinnie - hmm, what shall i comment about this little foster
sis of mine? she is the lucky girlfriend of G-mun! ever
happy and sumtimes a little bit too manly :P!.. i will
remember this special sis that i have for years to come!!
ROCK ON SIS!!

Melissa - the smallest girl in MUFY! :P.. din really know her
until towards the end of MUFY, where we studied for our
finals together in the library the whole week before the
exam!! haha, i have never
studied that hard for any exams!! this girl here, has been
a really great friend, helping me throughout my 'stressed-
up' period.. most importantly, she is the one that showed
me the presence of God, guide me towards his hands, giving me
advices along the way... it muz have been God's plan that
i met you in MUFY!!.. u'll always be the best gal friend
i have ever met!! ;)

Jay - our MUFY tai lou!! haha, i suspect he is probably the
richest student MUFY has! a cool friend who never hesitates
to lend a hand to anyone needing any help.. he also probably
the fastest person to improve in table tennis!! i remember
i use to trash him in table tennis in the first 4 months..
then, all of a sudden, i cant even beat him anymore!!!
Definitely a friend that i will remember for years to
come..

Daniel - Arguably the most mature guy i have ever known! he always
seems to be able to understand how the society works and
give resounding and meaningful views.. definitely a great
friend to talk to, especially bout any problems that u are
facing.. i'll miss talking to you man if i go to aussie!!

Small Darren - man, he is probably the friend
whom i spent most of my time with in MUFY! he is my
comp science guru and table tennis partner! remember
the amount of time and money we spend on table
tennis! crazy man.. he was also the most popular
teasing subject of MUFY.. well, basically its
because he is already 20 with CDL license! enough
with that.. he is a very good friend, heck he even
became my 'alarm clock' for half a year, calling me
up every morning just so i wont be late for class..
which in fact we both often are late for class due to
roti canais in cafetaria!..

These wonderful people above are people that made my MUFY days full of excitement and enjoyment, so i would specially like to salute all these excellent individuals! GANBATE in everything you do next in life, hopefully we will meet again real soon!!

P/s: As I am leaving to China tomorrow, this blog will be closed temporarily till i get back..

~Blogs shall resume on the 28th of December, plz be patient..~

MUFY results...

2005-12-12T00:50:00.000+10:00

MUFY results!! haha, sumhow i din face that same scary and nervous feeling as i did when i was about to receive my SPM results.. i wonder why, since MUFY is suppose to be harder.. the night, 8th December.. i was informed that the results has already been posted on the net, and alot of my friends are already busy telling others bout they're scores, and also asking bout friends' scores as well.. there i was, sitting in front of the computer, trying my darnest best to recall my damn password!!!.. sumhow, i forgot my own login passwrod, thus unabling me to view my results.. i ended up havin to explain this tragic incident to those who asked me for mine, and enduring all the HARs and OMGs..

After a night without any sleep(certainly not because of results but of sumthin P&C that im not gonna reveal here!).. i went to college to get my results.. waited for the Director of MUFY for 1 and a half hour with darren!.. she was busy gossiping and all with other lecturers!! there was a line of students waiting to see her, but its like she dun give a damn!!.. after waiting for so long, a lecturer finally ask me what are my intentions to see her.. i told her that i lost my password and i wanted to see my results, then only she told me that i can go and see the admin ppl straight, no need to see Pn Norli at all!!.. i was so damn pissed man that time!.. why din they juz tell me earlier!!... anyway, saw my results.. man, so dissapointed!! English - 81, Comp Science - 73, Accounts - 70, Economics - 58, Maths A - 58.. so dissapointing both Econs and Maths A!!... final total is 288.. lower than my forecast!! all in all, even though dissapointing, but at the very least i did manage to surpass the minimum requirement for the degree course that i want..

fast forward to today(11th December), today din do anything.. but im happy that i finally possess my first suit!! will be wearing that for Graduation Night for sure!! hehe.. i have also discovered today that im actually quite broke!! i have only about 300 bucks left in my account(from my previous balance of 650!) and i have only 10 bucks left in my wallet.. plus i owe my dad 200 bucks and i have not paid for my summones yet!! GOD! how am i gonna manage all this with this tight budget of mine!! kinda regret spending too much this hols, but ah well, what's done is done, nothing much i can do now...

Tie Breakers!! ARGHH!!

2005-12-08T00:08:00.000+10:00

ARGHH!! super angry now!! today, i woke up feeling abit funny.. but i thought:"ah well, today playing tennis edi finally, and i had my racquet restringed with Asahway CrossFire 17(which cost a bomb!!)", which prompt me to think that victory is in sight for me! so, downstairs i went, grabbed a piece of biscuit.. for those who din know, my house has no food or snacks!!.. so, after gorging in that piece of biscuit, went downstairs to let ah pok in with confidence sky high..

The racquet felt abit funny i thought, as we started warming up.. i mean, it was good, notably because it was a cross fire string, i din feel any vibration when hitting my shots.. so, after 20 minutes, on starts the game!.. i chose to serve first, and as usual, i will lose the first game if i served first, it has became such a norm i dun feel any dissapointment(kinda expected right?)..

The game went on, and soon I was down 4-1.. i said soon, because i think we only took around 20 minutes to reach to that score(was kinda impossible with our standard!).. that was when i realise, man i gotta buck up, or im gonna lose.. so i really bucked up, making ah pok run as much as possible, forcing him to make errors, and it worked!!..

so, the scores now tied at 7-7, and ah pok juz ran out of water, and he is exhausted, ADVANTAGE TO ME!! i could almost smell victory, and a win in a tie breaker for the first time in my life.. and i mean the FIRST time!.. i think i lost more than 10 matches in tie breakers(no joke!).. haihz.. life has many things installed for us to experience.. so there i was, serving in confidence of winning.. and i choked(means nerve got over me!!).. and, as the history says, i lost in a tie breaker, YET AGAIN!! i feel like killing myself for letting ah pok go so easily!!.. AH POK, U WATCH OUT, I WILL WIN A TIE BREAKER AGAINST U ONE FINE DAY!!

03-December-2005.. thoughts of the day..

2005-12-03T23:51:00.000+10:00

Been a long time since i last blogged, 10 days i think?.. well, mostly its becoz of the fact that i don't know what to blog, no inspiration, probably have been going out so often that i hardly have time to sit and think of any topic.. plus today, its been 23 days since my exams ended.. the only things ive done during the hols is hang out with friends, and tennis, and a fair bit of air hockey i suppose :P!.. well, found a job, going to start work soon, getting kinda nervous bout it, since this is my first job.. probably worried of what the boss expects and all.. hope it turns out well!!..

Today went to PC fair!! so happy!!.. finally i get to go there!! the last time i went there was in 2000.. after 5 years, im finally goin to PC fair.. basically i just want to get my computer interest flame burning again!.. loads of ppl were there man.. and the place was like night market, the salespersons were darn scary man!.. passing flyers like their lives depended on it, looking at u in pitiness, hoping that u would buy they're stuff!!.. quite amazed of how big the thing was, the last time i went, it was in PWTC and it wasn't that big.. i also realised how out date i am in computer stuffs.. i din even know that DDR2 RAM is out already!! haihz.. anyway, at least i got sumthin there.. got myself a Logitech wireless mouse, cost me RM80 man!! using it now, at least i feel its worth the money..

Nothing much is on the tennis news now, since the season is over.. the only news are of the Davis Cup, after yesterday's action, Croatia and Slovakia is tied 1-1, Ljubicic of Croatia won Beck of Slovakia, while Ancic of Croatia lost to Hrbaty of Slovakia.. and the other interesting news is of coz, the return of Martina Hingis!! haha, cant wait for that man.. youngest Grand Slam winner at 16, the only player to retire at 23 as far as i know.. if Federer is the King of tennis now, then Hingis was the Queen of tennis then.. she was the invincible lady of tennis.. and of coz, she was pretty too!!..

well, if u ask me 1 month ago, that am i ready to go to Australia to further my studies next year, i would say yes straight away!!.. but now, i have to admit, im not so sure.. results is a small part of my doubts.. i think the main factor is my friends!.. yes, im not lying here k.. im afraid of losing my friends here.. i have to admit, i have never felt that way before, bout losing my friends... im afraid that 4 years down the road, i would see my friend but he/she does not recognise me anymore!.. i know i have blogged about this issue bout twice i think.. but im still gonna blog this now!!.. :'( friends, if i ever go to Australia, i wish all of you the best of luck in everything and in life!!..

A poem for thoughts....

2005-11-23T13:05:00.001+10:00

I was flipping through my high school year-end 2004 book when i spotted this poem written by a student.. I find it quite interesting and i would like to dedicate this to all my friends..

Parting

There's today a gloomy air,
There's emptiness in our chairs,
We've gone already far somewhere,
We'll leave behind many a care.

Yes, our parting's not so sweet,
For we don't know when we'll meet
Perhaps when we're resting our sweat-stained feet,
In a faraway place, along a foreign street.

But one thing we know for certain,
That so long flows life's fountain,
A time before death's parting curtain,
We'll meet ere we've each other forgotten.

Our weary roads diverge into yellow wood,
And into its unknown we'll go, parted for good.
We'd stay this time this life, if we could,
But for Fate's hand and tempestuous mood.

Here's a thought, to keep you company;
Here's a cheer, tellling you, live joyfully;
Though we're soon and now apart,
Friendship's flame brightly burns always at heart.

Exorcism of Emily Rose... and a little bit of TMC!! :P

2005-11-21T01:19:00.000+10:00

who would have guessed that i would be watching such a show as the Exorcism of Emily Rose at 11.50pm in GSC 1u?.. i certainly didn't even think about that too, but that was what i exactly did yesterday!!... i was suppose to reach 1u at 7.30pm... but ended up reaching there at 9pm!!(sorry la g-mun and quinnie, raining and jam ma, i cant do anything about it also..) and i left house at 6pm!! so i was actually driving for 3 hours before finally reaching 1u!!...

anyway, i din watch the show alone of coz, watched with 2 other gal friends!!(hehe..)
the show is quite nice i would say, but i dun really like the way it is being presented.. all the courtroom talk seems abit dragging at times... but the flashbacks were awesome!!.. especially the last part, where the priest tried to get the demons out of Emily Rose.. whoa, stunning man... i mean, the demons were the strongest demons ever heard!!... imagine Nero, Judas and Belial to name a few.. and to think that the Devil himself, Lucifer is involved too!! i never ever thought that would happen.. the end of the trial was kinda weird though.. i mean, the court sentence the priest guilty of homicide, but they decide to set him free on time served in jail as well??.. what nonsence is this!?..

ok, enough of Emily Rose.. now we switch our attention to the Tennis Masters Cup.. What an end to the tennis season!!... the Final between Federer and Nalbandian turned out to be a 4 hours and 33 minutes marathon!.. in the beginning both were equally matched.. with both sides hitting winners after winners, and a few double-faults along the way.. Federer won the first two sets tightly 7-6, 7-6.. so far, no break of serve yet... then, Nalbandian suddenly picked up the pace! and he totally outplayed Federer!! Federer simply had no answer to Nalbandian's hard hitting shots.. the next two sets fell tamely to Nalbandian 6-2, 6-1!!.. the start of the fifth set was no different from the previous... with Federer seemingly helpless at times.. Nalbandian reel away with the first four games to lead 4-0!...

Game over people??.. NO WAY!! all of a sudden, Federer started picking up the pace... and turned up the style ala Federer style... Nalbandian suddenly was at the back seat, juz trying to survive!!... so, this goes on, and Federer got to 6-5, with match point in his hands.. Is this the greatest comeback ever by a tennis player??.. Nalbandian, realising that this chance of beating Federer wont come anytime soon.. and he didn't dissapoint, hitting a winner down the line to pull it to 40-40.. and he then went on to break Federer's serve to go into a final set tie-breaker!!.. By this time, i was already glued to my seat, not even lifting my hands to drink water.. my eyes were glued to the screen... Never had i witnessed such an extraordinary match!!.. on went the tie-breaker... Federer seem to have lost abit of momentum due to the break of serve, juz what Nalbandian needed!!.. Nalbandian kept pressuring Federer and played him around the court!!.. soon, Nalbandian was at match point at 6-3... this time, he didn't waste anytime, converting the first of the three match points he has!!... what a match!!.. not only the players were exahausted, even the spectators(and me!!) was exahausted watching one of the greatest tennis match of all times!!.. for the record, Nalbandian's win not only snapped Federer's 35 match winning streak, but he also broke Federer's record of 24 consecutive finals won and also puts a hault in his 2-year-reign of the Tennis Masters Cup... WHAT A FINALLE!!

After Long Delay.. Im BACK!!

2005-11-17T16:24:00.000+10:00

haha, really sorry for keeping u guys waiting for so long so the next post... guess i needed a rest after a long, gruelling exam period...

So, finally exams is OVER!! im suppose to feel happy and free and all, but i don't know why, i just don't feel it... happy? no i don't feel exceptionally happy.. free? ok i have abit more freedom now, but i still don't feel the freedom that i had expected.. i wonder why is that so.. in fact, today is just one week after exams, and i am already feeling dead bored of life, like there is no meaning in it.. hanging out with friends everyday, even though i really enjoy them, somehow had lost its spark(maybe coz went out too many times!!!)...

i am starting to get drawn into christianity... can't imagine that it is gonna happen.. heck! i was the kid that is so loyal in Buddhist and attending classes, jumping grades as i was too good for preliminary teaching and understanding of Buddhism.. nowadays however, i have somehow lost faith in it.. i didn't know when did this happen, or how does this happen.. i am starting to listen to preachings and prayers of chirstians, that i have totally forgotten how to pray in Buddhism... even when i sleep nowadays, ill pray to God in the christian way.. but does that make me a christian?.. is it that clear cut in life?.. can anyone give me any valuable pointers?

ok, enough of me for now... now we switch our attention to the oh-so-glamorous-and-famous Tennis Masters Cup!!.. it is such a dissapointment!! no safin, hewitt at first.. then roddick.. now nadal and agassi is out too!! what more fun do they have now in putting lousy players like Mariano Puerta and Fernando Gonzalez who don't even have much chances of beating Gaston Gaudio and Nikolay Davydenko, let alone Roger Federer?... it has become such a bore that it has lost its power.. i don't even turn on the tv to watch those matches now!!... i thought this year would be THE year, since all the really good players have qualified, but this... UGHH!!

Final one b4 finals...

2005-10-22T00:53:00.000+10:00

Since its gonna be finals soon, and I wont be able to blog durin the finals, I decide to write a blog b4 it… so, time flies, soon ill be leaving MUFY, and possibly leaving behind memories of my family and friends in Malaysia to study in Australia.. Whenever I think of this, I feel sad… all the pleasant(and not so pleasant) memories keep flashing in my head nowadays.. 4 and a half years!!.. I’m pretty sure most of my friends have forgotten about me by then.. I feel sad, that I might not be able to hold on to my friends… every time this thought comes to my head, it hurts..

Ok, enough with the sad part.. these few weeks hasn’t been the greatest.. firtly, of coz finals is already around the corner(bout a week from now!!), which means I gotta turn up my engine and get movin!!... for the first time, I’m actually afraid of failing my exams!! If I maintain my current score, I would be able to join my desired degree.. but judging on how I did in my trials, I’m actually kinda worried… I mean… no HD, only 2 weak distinctions, 2 credits and even a fail for accounts!.. and I’m suppose to be majoring accounting in my degree!! This really gives me headache about my choice of courses that I’ve chosen…

Secondly, of coz… the girl.. for those who don’t know about this, you can read my previous post… nothing really has changed this 2 weeks… which kinda makes me feel even worst.. makes me feel like I’m wasting my time and concentration, since finals is already near.. but the prob is, no matter how much I try, I cant seem to let go.. some where in my heart tells me that I should do something about it… tough life I guess!!

Well, I know this is a short post.. I’ll definitely come back after finals with better and more interesting posts! So study hard everyone and may all your wishes come true!!

~BLOG RESUMES AFTER 10TH NOVEMBER 2005~ plz be patient..

Love...

2005-10-10T00:56:00.000+10:00

well, i have to be brutally honest here, i think im in love with a girl.. i have been thinking about her all the time... i guess it was love at first sight, met her when we went out with other friends.. she really caught my eyes, not even my ex could do that on first glance.. her smile on all was really great..

few months have gone by and yesterday we met for the third time, i think it juz gone deeper, cant help it.. everytime im under stress, i will think of her, sumhow i feel better, but also worst coz missing her.. even durin happy times i will think of her..

probably i will state the prob here, we barely know each other!! besides the three times we met, we have not talked on the phone or smsed.. as i thought it was juz an intuition which will fade away, it didn't, it grew stronger without me even realising it.. i wish i could know her better, but i dunno how she feels bout me, good? bad? average? likeable? i cant pick up any signs from her, which i find it rather frustrating

Here is another problem, im leaving for australia next year, so if we start, it will turn out to be a long distance relationship which i had strongly object about having... probably it is due to too many failed long distance relationships by my friends that prompt me to think so, and i know i should be more confident bout myself that it would work.. but i cant make myself to have that confidence in the relationship.. PLUS, i dont want any girl to be missing me so badly that she is suffering from it while im away.. i cant bear to think that the one i love most is missing me and is suffering from it, and i cant be there to console her!! it will tear my apart that way!! Some of my friends say that i should be more confident in both of us in surviving the long distance relationship, they even ask me whether i am willing to sacrifice for love or not... of coz YES!! i would do anything for it, but as i said b4, i cant bear having someone i love most suffer because im not there, and i cant even be there to console her...

actually, my main concern now is how she feels.. it may sound very normal la, but when u experience it it is totally different.. unlike shows, it is not easy to express ur love to sumone while not knowing how the opposition thinks about u.. so should i continue to think about her, or should i juz let go, and spare her of all the pain that she might suffer?..

Love, is such a mysterious thing.. u dun want to fall for it in fear that u may not get what u want, but sumhow u will eventually fall for it unnoticingly, whether u want it to happen or not...

Davis Cup team!!

2005-09-28T23:06:00.000+10:00

haihz, havent been doin much in my life... exam exam all the way man!! summore next week trials!! how am i gonna excel man!!

Anyway, recently have been stressed about another thing... goin into uni!.. im deciding whether i am capable of doin a double degree or not... and whether i should go australia or do locally?.. these two are my major concerns right now!!

so, no tennis news for quite awhile. Davis Cup is the only interesting tennis news.. but i mean, Crotia and Slovakia?? whatever happen to Spain, Argentina, Brazil, Russia?? all of them boast big name players like Nadal, Ferero, Kuerten, Safin, Coria.. why did they still lose?? i guess it is down to over confidence.. i mean, how can small time players like Hrbaty and Ljubicic become the hero of their nation and bring their country to the Davis Cup final when both of them cant even go past the third round of any major events?? doesn't really make any sense do they? i think they should do a match bidding against all the top players.. here's my line up for the teams:

Team A
Roger Federer
Marat Safin
Bob/Mike Bryan
Maria sharapova
Lindsay Davenport

Team B
Andy Roddick
Rafael Nadal
Jonas Brjorkman/Max Mirnyi
Venus Williams
Serena Williams

So what do you guys think?? which team will win?? give ur comments.. if u dun like the team, u can comment too and state which player should replace instead...

At Long Last!!!

2005-09-17T22:25:00.000+10:00

haha, its unusual for me to blog twice in a week, and even twice in 2 days, but i felt i had to blog this out!!(eh pok u better look away!! :P)... I finally beat Pok Xian after a gruelling 4 hour marathon tennis match 4-6 6-2 6-3!!!... at the end of the match both of our hands had blisters, our legs barely can walk us out of the court with blisters at our toes... I'm not joking here!! This is serious stuff!!... but what makes this victory for me so sweet is i finally broke a 3 game winning streak of Pok Xian!!! so pok, this 1 is for u man, i really respect u man... chasing all those unpredictable shots of mine.. battling through palm injury and stuff.. dunno how u did it also..

So, ive been blogging for 2 months or so, but im still not good at it yet, i still have no idea how to change the template and stuff.. im not even sure if watever im blogging so far is good or not... so ppl, if any blogs is not good, plz be patient and write a comment at the comment column for that particular blog.. or if u wana comment on anything, juz drop me a comment at the chatter box, THANKS!!

Grinding out blogs!!!

2005-09-17T00:33:00.000+10:00

sumhow not much inspiration to write blogs nowadays.. summore all sorts of exams comin up, hectic!! next week i have 4 tests in 5 days!!! HORROR!!

Ok, so US Open ended finally, with the expected winner to be Roger Federer... Sounds so familiar nowadays that when he actually LOSES, he will be on the Headlines!! Agassi played well, hitting the ball perfectly, but his 35 year old legs cannot take him that far.... in the beginning of the year u might be able to beat him once or twice, but from the grass court season onwards towards the Tennis Masters Cup, he is virtually invincible!! i mean, back to back Wimbledon and US Open titles for the second consecutive year, plus a 13-1 record in the Tennis Masters Cup, which he has won 2 times back to back... how in the world can u beat this bugger???

Let's switch our attention to my course, MUFY.. we held a MUFY talent quest 2005 today, where we want to find the most talented performer, plus giving out prizes to the Popularity contest... it started late, thus i grumbled alot bout it.. the first few performance was kinda boring, and i thought that they din do the song justice at all.. then Room 502 came on stage!! BAM!! They nailed it man!! they composed their own song, singing bout all the MUFY lecturers, and they ended it by singing how they would miss MUFY and the lecturers... after they finish, the whole hall gave them a standing ovation!! Even the teachers!!! it was kinda obvious that they would win at that point, coz hey!.. they had the whole hall cheering for them!! who can do that??... popularity contest was kinda funny too... our group of friends got loads of awards, the Mr Handsome went to Bryan Yim Xi Wen(which if minus the Bryan, sounds like a girl's name, dun u think?? :P).. the Couple award went to my very own good pal, Tee G-Mun and his gf Quinnie Qua(kinda expected coz all of us voted for them :P).. Ms Million Dollar Smile went to Melissa(whom i think can win the Darlie advert with her white teeth and great smile :P)... it ended with Room 502 singing the song again as they expectedly won the MUFY Talent Quest 2005... great day for MUFY!!!

Man, no topic to write edi la!! how did ppl like ah pok, kenny sia and all come up with such brilliant ideas of writing blogs? i thought of asking the blogger to generate blogs for me, but then i thought that if i do so, my blog wont be as original as the viewers would like it to be rite? so, that's all for now, happy viewing everyone!! GOD BLESS!

A US Open PloT!?

2005-09-10T01:53:00.000+10:00

so, second week of us open.. gone are Blake(who isn't to go that far as quater-finals), also nowhere to be seen is Nadal(lost to Blake, wat the!!!).. semis is on now, Federer versus Hewitt and Agassi versus Ginepri... i cant help but notice that it seems that the Americans actually plotted that there will be an american in the final.. i mean, all of them, Roddick, Agassi, Blake and Ginepri are in the same half of the draw and will meet each other at every round.. i mean, Blake Agassi in the quaters, Agassi Ginepri in Semis... it does make sense that USTA made a plot to put an American in the final(since no one won US Open since Roddick!!)... of coz, no matter wat they do, how can they beat the man that kicked Hewitt's ass last year, Roger Federer?? i mean, 6-0 in the finals?? so watever the US try to do, i have to say that sadly they're hope of an American winning the US Open this year looks pretty slim...

Ok, enough said of the Us open plot.. wanna talk about my program's Sharity Day.. it was kinda fun, i sold Float(Root Beer plus ice cream which cost at a whopping 3 bucks!!).. hectic man!! tones of ppl crowded to buy the float, i barely had a place to stand!! of coz, i oni did till 1(i was suppose to do till 3 :P) coz i went to play foosball after that haha... hope the teacher won't blow me off on Monday... plenty of food there, rice, mee, cincau(black jelly for those who dunno wat it is), float, malay kuih... there are also stalls doin nail art and body tattoo!! those 2 was so hot among students, they only packed up at around 4.30pm!!! anyway, it was alot of fun, pity the cafetaria though, no business for a day.. hehe.. even though it was tiring, everyone was happy and satisfied... Today, i heard we raised around 11000 riggit in the Sharity Day!!! Wow, that's alot of cash!! well, all in the name of charity, everyone showed that we can make a difference, juz by putting sum effort, no matter big or small.. so ppl out there.. DO CHARITY!!!

Programming :P

2005-09-06T00:34:00.000+10:00

well, i take comp science, and programming is part of my syllabus... i have to admit, programming is very interesting, but i also find it hard to understand!! the teacher say "Juz use ur common sense and u'll be able to do it, its not hard!!" Darn, so what the teacher means(to my intepretation) is i have no common sense i guess. I think the teacher is right though, since young i have been lacking something that i cant really figure out wat was it(i din know there was sumthin called 'common sense')... i wasn't able to make myself understand a simple statement or anything that my peers are able to do!! No wonder my tuition teacher always say "Zhen Han, Guna Common sense kamu boleh tak!? saya nak muntah darah la ajar kamu!!"....

So, programming seems to be the same thing as the common sense incident, i keep teling the teacher i dun understand wat is he teaching till he got fed up and stop answering my questions.. haihz, am i lacking in common sense? i think so, or else the teachers that taught me wouldn't suffer from accelerated aging syndrome!!

What do i do then?? programming is quite a big part of comp science and i cant afford to flunk it... thank god He created Darren!! he was like the programming expert and he actually took time to teach me and write programs for me to understand better.. well, juz now, right b4 my practical test, he taught me too... i could see that he is so stress.. he was like "Zhen Han u cant rely on me too much!! u GOTTA THINK!!!" wow, i really see that he is very stress man... anyway, i finally started to get the hang of it, but my test is now!!! damn, so i took a gamble and juz did 1 of the programming chapter... enter the exam lab.. wow!! thank god i did it man!! it was almost the same!!! well, i did quite well in that programming practical in the end(FULL MARKS!! :P)... i need to specially thank Darren here for all ur effort and time(plus all the white hair grown for teaching human with no common sense like me :P)!! THANKS ALOT!!

Beating Federer!??

2005-08-31T23:56:00.000+10:00

been awhile since i blogged, basiclly coz college la, so alot of work. Anyway, back to my main topic.. US Open was underway and as im typing here, it is entering day 3. Well, 2 major shocks.. Kuznetsova, US open Defending Champion, lost in the first round.. Also, the player who is deem to have the best chance to beat Roger Federer, Andy Roddick, also lost in the first round to an unknown player Gilles Muller(wat the hell!?)... so, this is a msg to ah pok, Roddick lost in the first round!! So u cant tao si anymore!!! :P.. which hopefully will help me as im in a 2 match losing streak to that bugger(arghh!!)

So, my main burning question today(i think its a question everyone in the world has) is, how in the world can anyone beat Federer... i mean, he is nothing special(this comment is made after the expert views of ah pok and me!! :P), he volleys, lobs, serves and hits forehands and backhands like every other player in ATP, so why in the world is he so dominant?? after discussing with Pok Xian, we made a view on why is he that good... it is simple actually, he plays like normal all year long, in any surface, in any tournament he enters... that is the main reason he is almost invincible, he is able to play like normal ALL YEAR ROUND!! He is so consistent on everything he does, it makes him mistake free, which is his valueble weapon... This is further evident when he beat Roddick in Wimbledon this year, the only thing he does is drill the ball down the line to beat Roddick who is at the net, but he is able to drill the ball in the whole match almost mistake free!! so tell me ppl, how can u beat a man like him?? I analyzed major matches where he had lost, which is his defeat to Marat Safin in the Australian Open and defeat to Rafael Nadal in the French Open, and i have a few suggestions on how to beat Roger Federer:

1. Safin kept the ball low in the match against Federer, forcing Federer to hit alot of top spin forehands, which safin will then come up to the net and volleys it for a winner... sounds simple ppl?? it is darn difficult to hit a low ball when Federer is so consistent in his strokes, therefore a slice of fortune is needed(something like hitting the tape and the ball bounce back into the court)... plus, u need alot of control to hit those low balls... also, safin took alot of chances in going for the lines, and he also wasted 7 match points!! (all this points out that u need alot of luck to beat Federer!! even if u are skillful!!)

2. In the French Open, which is Clay, ball tends to be slower and bounces up higher, which works very well to Rafael Nadal's game, Top Spin and more Top Spin on the ball.. it is pretty insane where his ball actually hits the service line area and bounces all the way back to the base line, amazing huh!!.. anyway, Federer found his top spin ball very hard to contain as the ball bounces high, therefore he is unable to attack the ball as often as he would like... of coz, the fact that Rafael Nadal is a left hand player also means he would have to hit more high backhands than normal... high backhands are difficult to execute and even harder to attack...

Those 2 tips are my analysis about how Federer lost to them, which might serve some pointers to how to beat Roger Federer... Of coz, i cant do what i juz said, that's y im still playing for Sunway University College and not competing in ATP!! :P

Anyway, are u guys bored edi when u reach this part?? i hope not, even though this post would serve some good to those who are interested in tennis.. so, have a good week everyone and keep watching US Open!!

This is a link to watch US Open scores online www.usopen.org.. if u wish to watch some live scores, click on the 'Launch IBM Scoreboard' link at the top of the website i juz mentioned... happy watching everyone!!!

Pink!?

2005-08-27T14:10:00.000+10:00

I have to say, this blog thingy has really caught my interest… many difficulties in trying to get the codes right and stuff, but it is definitely worth the time and effort(even though it took me 2 hours just to get the basics right!!). Once again I need to thank Mr. Leow Pok Xian for helping me deal with all the codes. However, I’m sure the burning question when all of you visit my blog for the first time is..”Why is it in PINK!??”

The answer, simple… I DIDN’T KNOW IT WAS PINK IN COLOUR!!!.. Honestly, when I saw my template, I thought it was red. Being the Red colour lover I am, I thought it was the perfect colour template for me. To be frank, even when I saw the final copy of it, I still thought it was red. That is, until everyone asked me in MSN about it that I start to realize, IT IS PINK!! But I came to love this colour in the end and decided to stick with it. If anyone of you has any colour that is striking and think it will catch others attention even more, feel free to drop a comment here.

Now, I want to officially start my blog. Or is it official? Ok, I don’t know what I want to put in my blog yet, so I will start it off like a diary. Maybe later when I am good at this I’ll write some funny and interesting article? Well, here’s what happen yesterday:

I did nothing actually yesterday. After a long holiday(ok its not long its just 6 days :P), I finally realize that I have done nothing all holiday except going for movies, hanging out with friends and online!! I didn’t touch my book!! Heck I didn’t even open my bag for Christ sake!!! Haha, this is actually also the reason I have started blogging, cause I want to do something meaningful(at least to me!) during the hols. Anyway, back to yesterday, planned to go Dom’s house for some PS2, ended up stuck at a cyber café for 2 hours because it rained!! What did I do for 2 hours in a cyber café? DOTA? CS? Sorry none of that, I did the best thing a human can ever do…. ONLINE!!! I know I know how pathetic it is, but let me explain why…. I am not interested in both DOTA and CS, plus I am not good at it anyway, so I did what I do best, ONLINE!! For most of my friends, they would have realized that I love to online, and I do it at almost any chance I have.

Ok, I don’t know if my crap had already bored you by now, but this is what I do best!! CRAPPING!! I can’t live a day without it, and I can’t imagine anyone living a day without it. We have Minggu Bahasa Melayu when we were at high school, English Week too. I remember we had to do all those presentations and all. We even have competitions. Heck we even have Hari Bahasa Melayu and English Day!! So, my suggestion is, why don’t the government start a Crapping Week or a Crapping Day, where everyone has to talk crap all the time. Hey, its not easy to talk crap all the time u know, it takes talent and skill plus practice to do it!! We don’t even have a dictionary for crappers, so where do we find craps all the time!!! That is where crapping skills and quick thinking comes into play. This might even be able to hone the critical and creative thinking that the government has stressed so much about these days. So, to all the people out there, lets start a petition to the government to request for a CRAPPING WEEK!! HAPPY CRAPPING EVERYONE!!!

First Time

2005-08-26T23:43:00.000+10:00

Well, after months of looking through many people's blog and stuff (not to mention the amount of no's i've said to people that asked me to start 1), i am finally starting my own blog.... As im a first timer here, many things are still in construction, therefore if there is any comments or so do not hesitate to drop a note to me.. i'll deeply appreciate it!!!

P/S: i need to thank Mister Leow Pok Xian for introducing me to such a wonderful site.. it is juz what i needed, a place to share my thoughts with everyone (haha, so pok, happy onot now!? :P)